Disclaimer: Not mine… unfortunately

Author's Note: This is part of the message Rodney sent to Jeannie during season 1, when they thought they were all going to die. I've been told hankies are a good idea.


Dearest Sister

Somehow, somewhere,

I know that you are waiting,

Looking upward with hope,

Always looking for a sign.

You never thought I cared, but I do.

I always have.

Even when you drove me up a wall,

I cared.

I don't know how to make you believe,

That I thought of you every sunset.

That my heart wept when I couldn't hold you,

That I missed you every second of every day.

I had everything I ever wanted,

But I never was complete

I missed you every time I realized,

That I could never go home again.

It wasn't till I stepped over the line,

It wasn't until I crossed the divide,

That I realized how much you meant to me.

I know we never really talked at all,

But you were there if I ever really needed you.

It's hard to tell if you will take this seriously,

Frankly I wouldn't be surprised if you didn't.

I haven't been the best brother

So you have every right to be mad.

I'm not sure how much more of this I can take,

This being so far away from you

Now we don't even know if we'll live through the day

So I wanted to say goodbye, before it's too late.

Jeannie I don't know how to put into words all I feel

You know I've never been good at that

So I guess this is how I say goodbye,

I will see you in heaven my love, my life, my sister.

Rodney

P.S. Jeannie, I want you to know that I am happy now. I met someone who makes my heart sing. He helped me find myself after so long being alone, and now he's helping me say goodbye. John thanks you for taking care of me growing up, and he promises to take good care of me in your stead. Jeannie, I will always love you, and know that I care more than I can ever say.