Second Chance
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Moonchild here! So I haven't wrote anything in almost seven years, but I wanted to try something new. In this story the girls are not sailors. Serena married Seiya after high school. The story begin about 5 years after high school. The story is in Serena's POV. Warning the first chapter is going to be a lil slow and are hero won't make his grand entry in it, but I have to set up Serena's broken heart.
Please read and review!
I do not own any rights to Sailor Moon
Chapter 1: A Broken Heart Still Beats
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The rain hit the window. I just sighed a heavy sigh as I stared at the rain. The weather understood how I was feeling. I was in my childhood bedroom. My life was so different than I ever thought that it would be when I laid in this room as a child. I had many different dreams. I was going to be a manga artist, a wife, and a mother. That was my dreams at 18 when I was with him. They change slowly over the years. Evently I decided after my first year of college that I wanted to be a teacher. I was done being lazy and clutzy. I worked hard to achieve that goal and become a great teacher. I graduated from college with an excellent GPA. It was a new and wonderful dream. A dream I shared with him. I was a wife. It wasn't always the fairy tale that I hoped it would be, but in the end I was happy. I tried to make him happy. I tried to be the perfect wife. It was not always easy but I balanced school, my part time job as a hostess ( I was too clumsy to be a waitress), and the housework. I wasn't the best cook, but for him I tried. I was always tired my best to work my three different roles, but for him it was worth it. He made me happier than I ever thought possible. He was my prince and I was his princess. Or at least I thought I was his princess. No matter what I did though I never could make him as happy as he made me. His music was the only thing that made him happy, but it helped him stay distant from me. He began getting more and more gigs that kept him away alot. He was away where we only saw each other once a week. I let teaching consuming my life in order to fill that hole, but I still missed him. Then finally one night it happened. He was different. I could feel the difference in him. He wouldn't even look at me. When I comfronted him he simply just said he found his true princess. My world crash under my feet. Without many words I left. I returned to my mother for comfort. I would give anything to go back to those days of naivite. I was a fool. I'm still a fool. I feel like a little girl again. I thought over the years I had gotten stronger, but as the tears formed in my eyes I realized I was as weak as I was as a clutzy high school student. I had barely left my room in days. My boss told me to take the week off and fall break was a week after that. I was hoping I would be able to get my emotions back on track by then. I was hoping my old room would make me feel more comfortable, but at that point I don't think anything could. My family had been at my beconing call. Even Sammy came home to take care of me. He wanted to find Seiya and kill him. As much as I hate to say it hurting Seiya would hurt me. I didn't even know that he was standing at my doorway when I took my wedding band and looked at it. My eyes made a constant cirlce as our past ran through my brain. I finally clutched the ring in my hand and let the silent tears turn into loud sobs. My bother gently placed an arm around. I landed on his shoulder.
"Sere...I'm sorry to bother you, but Andrew is here."
Yes my dear sweet Andy. He has been my best guy friend for about seven years. Whenever I needed advice on anything he was the one I ran to. He has always been the guy that I ran to when other guys broke my heart. He was the first person that I called to tell him about the divorce. He stayed with me for several nights after that. Not leaving my sight till I finally fell asleep. He was coming by today to see if I had eaten anything. My family had told I have not. He had come prepared. He brought me Chinese food which was something that I never would pass up. He even knew to get some sushi to make it extra tempting. Normally I would have snatched the box out of his hand and enhaled it all in seconds but today I took the the fork and picked at my food.
"Serena you have to eat."
"I know Andy, but I'm not that hungry."
"Your mom has told me that you have barely been eating or sleeping."
"Your point?"
"Sere eating and sleeping use to be your two favorite activities."
"Well things change."
"Yes your eyes are dim and I have never seen you in so much pain."
"I'm sorry Andy, but he took the light from my world and from my eyes."
He didn't know what to say after that. He rubbed my back as I continued to eat. He made me eat the whole thing. When I was finished eating I laid my head in his lap and he gentley rubbed my head until I fell asleep. Andrew had been the only person to calm me down enough to rest. He just leaned back and took a nap in fear that I would wake up and not sleep. When I woke up a couple of hours later he was out. He looked like an innocent boy. I couldn't help but wonder what my life had been if we had decided to be more than friends, but sadly I just couldn't look at him that way. He was completely sexy, we have known each other for years and love spending time with each other, and he has to be the most caring man I have ever met. Sadly, the spark isn't there. I ran my fingers through his hair and smiled. It was a damn shame that he wasn't the man for me. I got up and took a shower. I was still trying to figure out what to do next. I didn't stay and try to figure out how we were to go through the divorce and separating anything. As the warm water hit my body I could feel him. The warmth and comfort he brought to me. I ached for him. I have to move on, but I did not know how. I went back in my room when I was dressed and laid back in Andy's lap. I just needed to rest a little bit longer. I will move on and get back to normal.
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One month later
"Seiya you're the one that wanted to leave me. I'm doing everything I can to make this divorce go easily. I am letting you keep the house and trying to slipt everything up equally. I don't want to fight!"
"Well your name is on the lease you have to pay the rent."
"How am I going to live Seiya? I don't have the money to get my own place and pay for your rent"
"You're just going to let me lose my home. I thought you cared about me."
"Seiya don't make it sound like that. You know I care about you, but now I have to care about myself more."
"You selfish bitch!"
"Seiya......I......"
*Click* I had the phone taken from me by Andrew.
"Andrew!"
"You think I was going to sit there and take anymore of that Serena. He's using your heart and kindness to get what he wants. You have been more than fair!"
As the divorce was progressing things were only getting uglier. I was currently living with my brother and wanted to move on my own. I had only a couple of things from my and Seiya's place. I mainly had clothes so I was trying to get the rest of the assests separated. Seiya was not going for that well. He didn't want his lifestyle to change. He just wanted me out of the picture. That was not possible for him though. He didn't make alot of money with his music career so I was the provider for the household. A normal person would probably been thinking this is exactly what he deserved and I was an idiot for feeling remorse for him. I did feel terrible for leaving him high and dry. I didn't want him to lose the house, but I didn't know how to take care of myself. I was so torn. I wanted to hate him, but I loved him. He has not even been the Seiya that I have known and loved. I thought that he would feel pain for what he did to me, but he almost acts like it was my fault. He has become this monster that doesn't even treat me like a person. This divorce isn't even my fault and he acts like everything thats happened is my fault. He even is acting like we wouldn't have fallen apart if I hadn't put myself so deeply in my career. Since the divorce I have focused soley on my teaching. It kept the pain out of my mind. Molly (my teacher's aide) had been a great support. Every now and then thoughts of him would hit me and I would have a break down. Without missing a beat she will take over and give me a break. Andrew was really getting sick of the conversations between me and Seiya. He wanted for me to cuss him out, go and grab whatever I wanted from the house, take my name off the lease and utilities, and tell my lawyer he was cheating on me and I wanted everything. I was doing the opposite of that really. I was trying to show him that I still loved him and cared about him, I was waiting till winter break so we could go through everything and split it all up fairly, my name was going to stay on the lease and utilities until we sperated everything(which mean I ws paying the bills), and I was filing noncontestant so the divorce would go quickly and cheaper. Yes world I am a sucker!
I have finally told my best friends what had been going on. My dearest friends were Lita, Amy, Rei, and Mina. We have been friends since junior high. They were all so excited when I was first with Seiya. They all thought after my bad luck with men I had met my prince charming. I know what you are thinking wait she had bad luck with guys in high school? Well that is another story for another day (or in this case another chapter). As I ate lunch with my friends and explained everything to them. Yep the thought I was a sucker as well.
"Serena you have been so understanding and I know you still love him but you have to stop. You're only hurting yourself now."
This was the advice from my friend Ami. When I met Ami we were in grade school. She had been this shy and quite girl that cried at the drop of the hat. She then became more out there to people during her years as a teenager after she had her group of girls as a saftey net. She was a math wiz who was currently working on her masters. She had been through her own heartaches and you could she this shine in her own blue eyes as she squeezed my hand. I am happy to say she was finally found the love that she deserved. She is engaged to a wonderful man we call Zoicite. He worships Ami.
"Serena you need to torch the damn place!"
This was the advice from my friend Rei. She and I have known each other since kindergarten. She has a firey personality that was always hard to calm down. When we were teenagers she was the wild one who had any man at her call as they followed her by her long raven her. She had calmed down over the years. She has been married to Jedite for four years now and they had a beautiful daughter. When she got angry though I could still her that firey wildness in her.
"Can I kick him? Can I please kick him the balls?!"
This advice came from Lita. We met in middle school. Lita was the bad ass. She would growl at people if they approached her the wrong way, but luckly she had a soft side for me and Ami and then she met and loved Rei and Mina. I met her at lunch and she had classes with Ami. Despite her hard exterior, Lita's main dream was to find her true love, get married, and live happily ever after. She got that wish. At the end of junior year she met Nephrite. They played the friendship game for awhile then it finally turned into love after Lita graduated from high school. They have been married for three years and have two adorable boys. She still has the agressive side when you hurt someone she loved.
"I just feel so bad for you. Let's not talk about it anymore. Let's just go shopping and not think about this anymore."
Ahh Mina, you gotta love her. I met Mina in middle school. We ended up in class together. She was know as my twin. We looked just alike, but her hair, skin, and eyes were slightly lighter. She was my twin in thoughts as well. Like me, she was a hopeless romantic and was the first person to push me into going for it with Seiya. She drove my to his house on the first noght we kissed. She had encouraged the kiss. She found her own true love in high school as well. His name was Kunzite. They were still newlyweds.
I couldn't help to smile from all the advice. Despite all of Andrew's help he could not help the way the girls could. I finally started to feel a little bit like Serena again. We did go shopping then more talking over pasteries and coffee. They had prepared me for the winter break.
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Two months later
I was signing my name on the divorce papers. Tears filled my eyes as I wrote my last name. It was the name he gave me. It was the name I chose to keep. I know it was crazy to keep that name, but my degree and teaching license where under that name. Plus the student's knew me as Mrs. Kou I did not want to confuss them by going back to Ms. Tsukino. The things were seperated, my name was off everything, and we were done. I called him to tell him the papers were signed. All he said was okay. Okay? Really? 5 years.....we were together for five years. He was my first love, he was the first and only man that I have ever been with, and my husband. My heart is broken and all he can say is ok. I just looked at the phone and fought the urge to throw it across the room and placed it in my purse. I cried one last sob in my brother's bathroom, washed my face, and looked at myself in the mirror. Alright Serena it's over and you will move on!
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That's it for chapter one. Sorry if it was slow and nothing really has happened yet but never fear dear readers our prince will be showing up in the next chapter!
