Disclaimer: all rightly everyone repeat after me 'I do not own Sailor Moon or any sailor' I'm just gonna play a bit them but I promise to return them in time….*Evil*, cutting the crap we all know that Sailor moon and the sailor senshi belong to Naoko Takeuchi and we are glad of that aren't we?
Rating: This is NOT a lemon; this is just a piece of anguish and romance…about Haruka and Michiru…and Usagi….and someone else…
Yuri content: yep this is a Haruka and Michiru stuff, yes they are in love…yeah…with each other, nothing graphic on this fic….
A/N: This story is a little bit traumatizing…well a lot….but it will end ok! I promise!
Fighting Destiny
Chapter 1 "Dreams Shattered"
'Think it hard Haruka…you can not go on living like this…you know it…you damn know it…but…you love them…both of them, but you don't know…now you are becoming desperate because you need to know if she loves you, but doing that you will be risking your relationship with Michiru…does it worth?' a heavy sigh could be heard in the darkness.
The blonde girl was in the studio having a private conversation with herself, her head slung on the chair looking to the ceiling as wanting to get an answer from it, but of course neither the dark sky nor the floor gave her the so desperate and needed answer, she took a glass that was filled with some kind of liquor and put it on her forehead, then she closed her eyes savoring the comfort of the cold liquid on her aching temple 'I need to do it…but that would be cheating on her and I…I don't want to do that…' she closed her eyes in frustration this was too much, simply too much…Since a couple of weeks ago she has been having a terrible problem: she knew she was falling in love with Usagi, but she loved Michiru too, and this mixed feelings have been causing a great turmoil inside her.
'Shimatta, you know she loves Mamoru and that their future is sealed…Destiny! they are meant to be as you are meant to be with Michiru' her brain told her, but at the same time her heart interrupted 'but Usagi she is so pure, so cute…and she has been behaving really strange with you around…hell who won't? You kissed her when you were transformed in Uranus…damn what the hell am I going to do? Michiru I love you! I know it…but at the same time I'm falling deeply in love with Usagi….' A tear rolled down her cheek, she knew she got jealous when ever she saw Mamoru with Usagi, and right now she was having a lot of problems with Michiru. Right now the world was safe, no daimons, no youmas, no new enemies have appeared after Galaxia, and Michiru as the rest of the senshi has been taking care a lot more about her life, her career, she wanted her dream to come true, she wanted to be the best violinist on the world. Haruka on her part has been doing the same she was keeping more time on the track, she has being training a lot to win the F1 championship and she was about to get it, just some more races and she'll have her place for the final race…but both have not been taking care of their relationship. They were talking less and everything became a boring routine, their love was there but they were just too occupied to see it.
Michiru was in the music room, practicing as she did everyday, but her song became a bit sad, she stopped playing and looked the sea through the window 'God…we are falling apart, aren't we?' Tears were filling her eyes, she was not blind: her relationship was about to destroy and she knew it. Haruka and she rarely spoke, they had no time left, but it was because both were trying to achieve their goals. She arrived late after practicing in the music hall or for going to concerts then she hit her 'she has not gone in a while…in a long time…' Haruka stopped going to her concerts because she too was practicing her racing, finally she was about to achieve that goal, to win the most important race in the entire world so Michiru let her. 'We will finish soon…and then everything will be like it was…' tears fall freely now, part of her wanted to believe that 'I love you…you know I do right? I'm sorry for being so occupied but you too have been…' she wiped her tears with her hand and noticed her watch, midnight. She has been there all day practicing and Haruka hasn't even come to say hello, this was little by little becoming normal on their lives. She put her violin on its case and went upstairs. She opened their bedroom and with a sad face she noticed that Haruka wasn't there. She looked at the bed 'It has being a long time hasn't it?' more tears were flooding her eyes; she took her nightgown and got into bed. She pulled the pillow and held it closely, this was killing her, she wanted Haruka to be there with sorrow and anger she closed her eyes 'maybe tomorrow I can do something…and maybe things will return normal' she cried more and closed her eyes.
Tomorrow it will be their anniversary but Haruka hasn't even noticed it, neither her. 'Tomorrow IS our anniversary' she remembered and she suddenly opened her eyes. 'God…I...I forgot that…I can't believe it" and then she realized that their actual situation was part her fault. 'I'm not going to lose you Haruka' she smiled sadly 'Tomorrow everything will change…I promise'
Haruka, stood near the window watching the stars and the way they were reflected on the sea 'Damn…what the hell am I going to do?' she closed her eyes and suddenly she noticed the clock '3:45 am' 'Have I been here all day?' she brushed her bangs with her fingers. Then she noticed that the house was very, very quiet. 'Michiru? Has she already arrived?' she got out of the studio and went straight to their bedroom, she noticed Michiru's sleeping form hugging a pillow she smiled sadly 'what has happened to us?'
'You know what, don't play innocent…' her mind answered. She kneeled beside Michiru and caressed her sleeping face "I love you…you know that right? But there is something I need to do, and I hope you can forgive me" she leaned and kissed the aqua haired girl softly. "I'm sorry…"
The next day Michiru woke up, and with a crestfallen face noticed that Haruka was not there. '8:00 am? Strange Haruka is not a morning person…' she scanned the room and noticed that Haruka has just left a few minutes ago. 'Where is she?' she went downstairs and the only person she found was Setsuna that was eating some cereal "Morning" the time senshi greeted.
Michiru answered and asked for Haruka.
"She left pretty early, she took the yellow car" said while she poured more cereal.
"Did she say where she will be going?" asked Michiru while fixing a cup of coffee.
"No, in fact she didn't notice that I was here"
"…Ok…well I think I'll skip breakfast" said this she climbed up the stairs leaving a confused time senshi seated there "Its going to happen…" she merely whispered taking a hand to her forehead, she brushed her bangs in frustration "and I can't do a thing…"
Haruka drove all way to Tokio and arrived to a known mall, Michiru liked it because it has a lot of nice shops and restaurants and they often went there to drink something, she spot the public telephone and dialed the number she knew by heart, a sleepy voice answered "…hello?"
"Good morning, Koneko-chan!" she tried to avoid it but to hear the other girl's voice lightened her face
"Haruka san? What's up?" a sleepy voice answered.
"I need to talk to you…In private…can you come?"
"Is there a problem?" asked the princess with concern
"No…there's not any problem…" answered the wind warrior with a hint of hesitation.
"Where are you?"
"In a mall, it is the one near your house…can you come?"
"Yes, wait me, I'll be there in an hour…can you wait for me?"
"Yes, of course" with out hesitation/
"Well, see you later Haruka san."
"Goodbye…."
Michuru took a bath and dressed quite casually, she wished she could find Haruka then she will ask her to go outside to eat something, she looked at her watch it was a little bit late 9:00 am "Where are you Haruka?" then the idea came to her mind and she called to Usagi's house, her little brother answered and he told her that Usagi left just few minutes ago to catch up with Haruka in the mall after she Haruka called her in the morning. "Why did she call Usagi? Well maybe I can catch them and after that we can go and take lunch" she took a pair of keys and went out of the house.
Haruka was sitting in the coffee shop drinking a cappuccino, in that moment she spotted Usagi; she arrived apologizing because she was almost two hours late. "Don't worry, coffee here is great" answered Haruka giving her one of her trademark smiles.
"Where is Michiru?" the blonde asked noticing for the first time that the aqua haired girl was not there.
"I came here alone" she answered mysteriously.
"Why?" being the innocent senshi she was she asked the most stupid question.
"Sit down" Haruka commanded and the other blonde obeyed "Want to drink something?"
"No thanks, I'm ok"
"Well…I called you because…eh..this is a little bit difficult to say but, damn I thought it was going to be a lot easier….well, what I want to tell you is that…that I…"
"What do you want to tell me?" she encouraged her.
"Usagi, I just want you to know that I love you, I mean I'm in love with you…" Usagi held this shocked expression and her heart began to beat faster she was not expecting this; she had this cute face that made her look like the purest woman in the entire world "You love me? But what about Mich…"but before she could finish Haruka kissed her passionately, her eyes grown wider but finally she gave into the kiss, their lips met again and again in a passionate dance, Usagi's hand shyly cupped Haruka's face while the racer held the princess' free hand. Haruka got lost in the kiss; she has waited so long to this to happen, to feel those lips again, to feel the trembling, blushing girl in her arms that she forgot she was in a public place.
"Haruka…" a known voice whispered beside them.
Usagi froze she knew that voice, it was Michiru. Her face became pale; she knew what she has done. She has been there kissing with Haruka for no other reason than a mistake, a terrible mistake…and she felt ashamed her eyes fell instantly, unable to look up "Michiru…" Haruka's flat voice answered also in shock.
Michiru had a long little wrapped box on her hand, her face was pale, and tears were shimmering in her eyes, they were about to fall, her face was a mix of anger, confusion but overall deep sadness. She felt like someone has ripped her heart out, she felt betrayed and cheated; it was too painful to see them sited there. She breathed deeply, she didn't want to make a scene although she wanted to scream and shout, she exhaled calming herself then she hardened her face, eyes reflecting an incredible sadness. She lifted her hand and threw the box to Haruka then with an emotionless voice she added "happy anniversary…" then she turned around and left.
It hit her as a cold water-bucket; she paled more if it was possible 'Damn…I forgot! Shimatta….wha-what have I done!?' Haruka's mind raced everything was so fast that she didn't have a chance to answer back…she stood up leaving a paler Usagi behind 'What did I do?' she mused 'Mamoru…god….this is all wrong…Michiru…what kind of friend am I?'
Michiru heard Haruka standing up but refused to slow down or turn around, in a few seconds Haruka caught her holding her arm firmly "Michiru, please wait…Let me explain…."
"Let me go, Haruka" Michiru answered in a cold voice without turning to face the taller girl.
"Michiru please….le-let me explain to you!" Haruka begged, the people around them stopped to see the display that was being shown in front of them.
"What you saw, it wa-was…was…I'm sorry…" the taller senshi babbled with out coherence ending in a defeated tone, but Michiru turned fast and slapped her hard, now the tears that were pooled in her eyes were falling freely in a disgusted tone she replied "You are sorry? That's all? You are sorry, after all we've been through?"
Haruka closed her eyes in pain, taking a hand to her stinging cheek, the slap hurt worse than any wound she could remember. She looked at her and saw a flash of something she never thought she would see in Michiru's eyes 'hatred' and it was all directed to her.
"Haruka, listen to me…and listen right" Michiru snapped pronouncing the words slowly for emphasis and with rage "Don't you ever come near me again!" pointing her finger she pushed the taller girl harshly "Do you understand? I don't want to see you again in my life, never…" she took her hand to her neck and pulled off the necklace she was wearing, she throw it to the floor with anger. That necklace was the last gift Haruka gave her. "We are over…" then she turned leaving a stung Haruka there. She watched how her former lover walked away. Her heart hurt, it felt heavy, she felt how it was shattering in little pieces how it was being held by an invisible cold fist, how it tried to stretch but remained contracted; she breathed heavily closing her eyes 'what have I done?' then she remembered she left Usagi seated in the table of the coffee shop. She seated again and looked at Usagi's face, everything went wrong, she was crying, and for the first time she noticed that her eyes were full of tears "Haruka…we shouldn't have done that"
'I know…' she thought but did not answer, her fists were clenched, Usagi put her hands over hers trying to calm her.
"Look, I feel flattered but I don't love you…not as you want me to…but as a friend, I don't know why I did it…I mean, I, I love Mamoru…with all my heart" she knew this will hurt Haruka more but she needed to set things straight "I'm sorry…If you want I can talk with her, and try to…"
"No…" she answered calmly, without looking at Usagi, she risked everything and lost.
"Haruka?" Usagi was amazed the tone in the wind senshi was something she has never heard: defeat.
"You don't understand do you?" lifting her eyes to see the princess for the first time since all this mayhem began "Usagi I'm sorry, I apologize for all this mess…excuse me" then the distant senshi left leaving a more confused Usagi sitting there.
To be continued…
It wasn't that bad was it? This story has a lot of chapters from 7 to 9…it depends on how am I going to end it. I have the story almost finished…in my mind so feedback would be a great help… J
Thanks for reading!
