So this is my follow on from 'Don't Miss Your Chance' - I've decided to go with psycho Lily. This will be totally and unashamably out of character for her, but she has got it in her head and her plan that Ethan is the man for her! I want to try to get all this up before Saturday as I've read a spoiler that changed the time plan for me.

As always, I don't own anyone that you recognise, they belong to the BBC.

Hope you enjoy...

What Is Wrong With Me?

Dr Ethan Hardy finally sat down with a deep sigh as he curved his hands around his coffee cup. He had been on his feet constantly for six hours now without a break. His head was aching, not only because of the usual stresses and strains of the busy ED or because he was dehydrated after not having a drink since breakfast that morning, but also due to Lily's constant questioning of his decisions. Ninety per cent of his decisions she had questioned already and he still had another six hours to go until the end of his shift. It hadn't just been that day either, she had been doing it for the last few days. She told him that it was to make him a better doctor, but it actually only served to dent his already beleagured confidence even more. That coupled with blood tests and xray/CT scan request forms going missing - all for his patients - had made the week a living hell for the young doctor. He took a quick drink from his cup as the door opened to reveal his brother, "So this is where you're hiding Nibbles," he chuckled, his smile dropping as he saw the look on his brother's face. Ethan ran a hand through his hair, "Can't have been hiding that well - you found me," he retorted half heartedly.

"You ok?" Cal asked even though it was obvious that he wasn't.

"Yes...yes I'm fine. First break in six hours - first drink since breakfast - banging headache, so yes I'm great!" He blew out a deep breath, "I'm sorry Cal, I'm a little tetchy," he admitted.

"How come?" Cal questioned as he sat opposite the younger man.

Ethan looked at him nervously wondering whether to tell him what had been going on or whether it would make him look even more useless than he felt.

"Every time I think I'm done with a patient, something crops up - it's been happening for the last few days actually..."

"What do you mean, something crops up?"

"Blood tests go missing - yesterday Rita found one of my CT scan requests screwed up in the rubbish bin..."

Cal looked puzzled, "And you hadn't put it there I'm guessing."
"No, the patient hadn't even been for the scan. Would you say that I'm pretty good with my decision making? I mean we all have our off days, where we question what we're doing..."

"Ethan your decisions are solid - where is all this coming from?"

"For the last few days, Lily has been questioning seemingly everything that I do or have done. She says it's because she's helping me become a better doctor, but it's been constant. Am I really that bad Cal? Please be honest with me," Ethan looked at him pleadingly.

Cal had bristled slightly at the mention of Lily's name. He'd had his suspicions about Lily's feelings for his brother, and since the night that Ethan had managed to get together with Honey, Lily had been more distant with everyone.

"Look Ethan, you are a good doctor, you know you are. Why are you letting Lily undermine you?"

Cal could feel a stab of anger even saying Lily's name - why was she doing this to his brother.

"I'm not...she..."

Anything else the young man was going to say was forgotten as the clinical lead barged into the staff room, "So Dr Hardy, this is where you've been hiding!"

"I...I wasn't hiding Mrs Beauchamp."

"Well maybe you ought to consider it young man," her face looked thunderous.

Ethan and Cal exchanged confused glances, "Let me enlighten you...we currently have five patients about to breach their treatment time, and guess what Dr Hardy? Three of them are your patients, and where do I find you? Sat on your backside drinking coffee and having a chat!"

"This is the first time I've sat down since my shift started six hours ago..."Ethan began to explain.

"Cry me a river Dr Hardy - now go and sort your patients out."

Ethan threw Cal a stricken look and immediately left the staff room.

Cal felt bad for his brother, "It really was his first break..." he began as Connie spun round to face him.

"Be that as it may, this is not the first time in the last few days that most of the breaches have been Ethan's patients. It really isn't good enough Cal," she told him, her face softening a little.

Cal felt a little uncomfortable, nervous even, Connie noticed, "What's on your mind Dr Knight?" She was all business once more.

"Can I tell you something in confidence," he asked, knowing that what he was about to tell her was a risk. At her agreement, he began to explain his concerns to the clinical lead, who listened with interest.

"I know it would be totally out of character for her and I have no evidence at the moment to support my theory, but you know Ethan Mrs Beauchamp, he may be a little slow sometimes but he's a good doctor and he knows what he's doing," he finished.

Connie thought for a moment, "You're right Ethan does know what he's doing. It would be totally out or character for her but I have noticed a particular frostiness from her in the last few days. Ok then, from tomorrow, wherever possible, I would like you to shadow your brother, without him knowing obviously and just observe. If you think there is something that needs addressing then you come and tell me. I will not put up with any member of my staff undermining another no matter what the reason," with that she strode out of the staff room.

At the end of the shift, as Cal drove a mentally exhausted Ethan home, he noticed the lines of stress on his forehead and vowed to do whatever he could to help his brother.

This was going to be a oneshot, but has now turned into a two shot. I'm not going to drag it on any further. I do realise that this wouldn't really happen, but this is why we write fan fiction.