Disclaimer: These are *so* not my characters!

The Last Slayer Fic

I still believe that we were meant to be together.

That's my dirty little secret.

I never dared say that to Giles, or Wil --

I had to keep appearances up. That I'm some sort of warrior, that I'm strong.

When deep down I guess I'm really just pathetic, huh?

Like the pathetic thing I'm about to do.

You'd probably be really angry wih me if you knew...

Probably try to stop me.

But you're in LA.

You left, telling me that it could never work, that you were a vampire and I was a Slayer,

That you'd only make my life miserable, that I deserved so much more.

So you left, and I met Riley.

Want to hear another dirty little secret?

I went out with Riley, in some perverse way, to please you.

I went out with him because I thought you wanted me to, to embrace a "normal" life.

But even that didn't satisfy you. I could see the jealousy.

You couldn't stand seeing me with someone else,

But you were too "noble" to allow my life to be tainted by your vampirism.

Where has all this precious nobility got us?
(I feel hollow.)

Maybe if I had a few hundred years, like you, I could get over it.

But I'm tired. And I feel hollow, and I know why.

And I'm going to stop whining and do something about it.

And I know this seems really crazy.

And I guess I'm really not the "Warrior Slayer Princess-Chick" everyone thinks I am.

It was too hard to keep up the front.

Anyway,

A few days ago, I was bit in the midst of battle. Careless.

The bite was bad enough to turn me into a vampire,

But weak enough so it could be overridden by my hightened healing ability,

Combined with a serum that Willow and Giles cooked up.

They thought I drank it.

But I only told them I would.

I never actually did.

In fact, it's sitting in my pocket.

And as the hours crawl by, I feel more and more cold.

Soon, I guess, I'll be a vampire.

Unless I drink the serum.

And now I take the vial out of my pocket,

Pop off the cork,

And let the greenish liquid pour onto the ground.

And I know this seems really crazy.

But now we have no more excuses.

Maybe you'll be really angry with me at first.

But after a few hundred years,

I'm sure you'll get over it.



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