Disclaimer: I do not own InuYasha or the song All I Ever Wanted by Kelly Clarkson
Tear at the photographs,
But yesterday won't let go
Everyday, everyday, every minute
I look at the photograph I hold in my hands. It was the one that Sango had snapped with my camera when we weren't paying attention. I was leaning against InuYasha, and it was one of those rare moments when he actually let me. It seemed like those stolen moments of peace in the past had grabbed my heart and wouldn't let go. Everyday and every minute I was thinking about InuYasha.
Here comes the emptiness
Just can't leave lonely alone
Everyday, everyday, hey, hey
Seeing the picture after all of these years and thinking about my lost love brought back the emptiness I knew that it promised. It had been years since I had seen this picture. It had hurt too much to look at his face when I knew that InuYasha was out of my reach forever. It seemed that everyday and every single minute that I was alone. No matter what I did I was still lonely.
This second chance is really getting me down
The second chance that I had received for life just seemed unfair. After the final battle with Naraku was over, the wish to make the jewel disappear sent me back to my own time. What was the point of a second chance if I didn't have my friends to spend it with? The second chance that I got was already wasted before fate had thrown it at me.
You give and take
Everything that I had dreamed about.
It's time you let me know, let me know, just let go
It seemed as if everything I had dreamed about was taken away. I had planned to stay in the past by InuYasha's side, even if I knew that he really loved Kikyo and not me. Sometimes I wonder if we could have been happy eventually. I that we could have. Being friends would be better than being nothing. It would be better for me just to let go.
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in between to escape this desperate scene
Where every love reveals the truth
Baby, cuz all I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was you
I'd rather walk alone
Don't wanna chase you around
Everyday, everyday, every minute
I tried to convince myself that I'd rather be alone. I really don't want to spend my whole life lying to myself. I don't want to chase the idea of him around everyday and every minute. Nobody that I could ever meet would amount up to InuYasha.
I'd fall a thousand times
'Fore I'd let you drag me down
Everyday, everyday, hey, hey
I'm falling all the time, trying not to let this love-sick depression drag me down. The most ironic part is that when I was younger I said I would willing fall a thousand time before I would let love drag me down. It seems like I'm taking back my words everyday. It's funny how the tables can turn so suddenly.
Your new beginning was the perfect ending
But I keep feeling like we've already been here before
Everyday, everyday, hey, hey
It seems like this new beginning was the perfect ending to something they all were telling me would never work. I guess that it was a blessing, but it feels so much like a curse. Sometimes I get the strangest feeling that we've already been here before, but then again, it feels like everyday I'm losing my mind.
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in between to escape this desperate scene
Where every love reveals the truth
Baby, cuz all I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was-
Tell me with so many out there
Why I always turn to you
What I really want to know is that with so many other guys out there, why I always come back him. I should move on and spare myself the heartache, but every time I try, there is something missing.
Your goodbyes tear me down every time
And it's so easy to see that the blame is on me
It should be easy to move on. He would always hurt me with his goodbyes. I should be angry at him for every time he left for Kikyo. I shouldn't be acting like some love-sick Juliet. The worst part is that I can't help but blame myself because I'm the one holding on when I should just let go.
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in between to escape this desperate scene
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in between to escape this desperate scene
Where every love reveals the truth
Baby, cuz all I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was you
All I ever really wanted was a simple way that I could get over this love that I felt for him. All I ever wanted was an in between that I could go to and escape this desperate scene. All I ever wanted was a place where every love reveals the truth. But most of all, all that I ever really wanted was him.
A/N: So I was doing the dishes and listening to my iPod (what a surprise!) when this song came on. I heard the chorus and I was inspired! I throw the dish rag into the sink (and got water every where) and run to my bedroom for a pen and paper. It took me about twenty minutes to write this. I really like the way that it turned out! The only problem now is that my mother thinks I'm crazy (er) because she witness the whole thing.
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