Chapter 1

One day in 1995 19 year old Sarah Braverman was leaning over the counter looking at a positive pregnancy test then sticks it in her front pocket of her big sweatshirt and starts packing back and fourth in the kitchen talking to herself and keeps saying "What are you going to do Sarah what are you going to do?" when she is on the far side of the kitchen when Adam comes in

"hey!" he says loudly

Sarah jumps "Oh Adam geeze you scared me!" she gets mad

Adam jumps and looks weirdly at her.

"are you okay?" he wonders

"yeah I'm fine why?" she wonders meanly

"because you've never acted like this before." he tells her

"I'm fine Adam!" she gets moody with him

"what's wrong?" he wonders again

"nothing!" she snaps

"Sarah?" he questions

"nothing Adam I just don't feel well and I think I'm just gonna to go back to bed." she tells him

Adam goes to pour himself a cup of coffee "oh okay well feel better sweetie." he tells her

Sarah goes upstairs and lays down on her bed taking the test out of her pocket looking at it again when somebody knocks at her door

"god can't any of you people just leave me alone!" Sarah snaps

"hunnie you okay in there?" Camille wonders

"oh Mom um come on in." Sarah tells her hiding the test back inside her sweatshirt quickly and watches Camille open the door carrying the laundry basket under her arm

"hey hunnie you have any lau...hunnie?" Camille looks at her all panicky

Sarah is very pale.

Camille goes over and feels her forehead.

"hunnie you feeling okay what's up baby?" Camille wonders

"nothing I just don't feel well." she turns on her side

"yeah I can tell." Camille rubs her back

Sarah just squeezes her eyes shut "I just want to be left alone." Sarah tells her

"okay well I'll leave you alone then feel better hunnie." Camille tells her kissing her head and leaves the room closing the door behind her

Sarah rubs her stomach softly and cries into her pillow with her eyes still squeezed shut.