What if I left?

What if I just ran away?

Would you miss me?

Sometimes I doubt it.

Would you go through my belongings?

Would you sit on my bed and cry?

Would you finally realize

That you didn't know anything about me?

Sometimes I doubt it.

Sometimes I doubt that you care.

Sometime I think

And I cry

While I sit here and realize

Would you care?

Would you care that you didn't know me?

That there were secrets I kept from you?

That the life I led wasn't the one you thought I did?

Would you care?

Sometimes I doubt it.

There are times when things get bad

And I'm crying or I'm mad

And you ignore me

Acting like you can't hear me

But I know you can

I sit on my bed

Looking out the window

Thinking

About if I ran away

How would you react?

And sometimes I really think that I am going to run

Away from my hopes

Away from my dreams

Away from my family

Out the window

And down side of the house

Darting across the lawn

And hopping over the fence

With only a bag of my belongings

To wait for dawn to arrive

And the next morning when you come into my room

Screaming that I'm going to be late for school

You'll find the note

Lying on my bed

Clothes missing from my drawers

And my sleeping bag gone from my closet

And while I'll be far away in a park

Maybe at a friend's house

Laughing and asking

Will you adopt me?

Because you never cared

You never came to my softball games

You never comforted when I needed it

And maybe when I'm older

I would come back and visit you

If you're lucky

But I probably won't

Because you don't deserve it

And you deserve to feel the pain I did

And 2 years later

When I'm safe and sound

With a loving family

I find out that you died

And I probably won't come to the funeral

Because I couldn't bear it

Because I loved you even when you hated me

And I'll change my last name

Or never speak of it

Because I wonder

And I think

And I cry

While I sit here and realize

Would you care if I left?

And after several hours

And several sleepless nights

The answer is clear

No