OKAY THIS IS ABOUT A GIRL WHO FEELS LIKE SHE HAS NOWHERE TO GO


Chapter 1

I couldn't take it anymore so I killed myself. I didn't know what else to do. My mom always yells at me when she drunk; she always drunk. My dad ran off with all our money when I was two years old. I'm always bullied at school by my ex-best friend. The guy I liked since we were 10 hates me and never talked to me. So today on my 16th birthday I got a blade and repeatedly cut myself until I bleed to death. I didn't care what people would act like if I died. And now I will see what could have been if I didn't kill myself


Chapter 2

Why did she do it; why did she killed herself was all I could think, then I remember what I said to her when she told me that she loved me I said "get away freak, I hate you, get away" that was a lie I really loved her. I only said that because my 'friends' were there. But now it's too late and now all I can do is look at the empty sit right next to me and if I forget I hear her saying 'I really love you but now its too late.' I wish I could have seen the pain and hurt in her when I told her to get away. I wish that I could turn back the clock but I can't.


Chapter 3

Why did I bully her, she was my best friend? She told me about her mom and dad when she has never told anyone about them and I turned my back on her. I wish I could say sorry, but it's too late. She's dead because of me the last words she said still haunt me "goodbye forever." And all I said was "what, are you going to a new school, freak." I wish I said something difference but now it's too late.


Chapter 4

My only friend bullied me. I told her everything-everything but my depression and cutting myself- if I told her about it maybe we would have been friend still but no I had to hide it and killed myself. Now I have hurt everyone that has hurt me.


Chapter 5

Why did I tell her she was a freak why did I call her a freak, when I loved her so much that hearing of her death feels as if someone had killed me? I loved her but I told her to get away when she told me that she loves me. All I had to do was say four little words 'I love you too' but I didn't. And now all I hear is 'I really love you but now it's too late.'


Chapter 6

I'm her mother, why didn't I see her depression? If I stopped drinking maybe she would be alive now. I knew something was up but I thought it was stress. Why didn't I do anything?


Chapter 7

Now I see what would happen if I killed myself I have to ways to do this: I could stay dead or I could try to wake up from death. But what if I didn't have a chance to see the world after my death?

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