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"This will be the last time I am asking you this. Are you willing to take a chance to go off with me? Go somewhere else other than here. To a place where we can see the sun instead.
He pondered. His heart told him to agree with her suggestion but yet his mind told him not to. There were just too many unknowns in following her suggestions. Giving her the "you-should-have-known-it-better" look, he gave her an ambiguous answer.
"Not now, honey."
He was unable to give Las Vegas up. He was unable to leave the team now. The team needed him here. And he needed Sara to stay here with him to give him support.
"Can you please give me a better answer?" Sara cried. Her voice was breaking and her tears threatening to flow. She wanted to leave this place for somewhere better. This place weighed her down.
"Please just give me an answer." Sara pleaded.
Grissom cupped both side of his face, and whispered a soft no.
"Why?" Sara swallowed hard.
"I am old. I am not up for adventure. I am not willing to give up familiarity for something new. I am not ready to leave the team yet." Grissom emphasized on the yet. He hoped that Sara would get his meaning. He would leave this place with her but the timing was just not right.
"And I can't leave the team now after what happened to Warrick," he hoped he could knock some sense into Sara. He hoped that he could convince Sara to stay here.
"Wouldn't here remind you of him more? This place is too much for the both us. I am afraid that the longer we stayed here. Our love will suffer. This place is suffocating us. I am not telling you to do something radically different. I am just asking you to move to a place far away from deaths or crimes." Sara choked, tears flowing out.
Their love.
A love they worked so hard to attain.
"And where is that place?" he looked at Sara intently and asked. If she could provide him any good answer, he was definitely most willing to leave this place with her. Sara was dumbfounded by his question.
She knew that she was unable to give him a satisfying answer.
"I don't know. I just want to leave." She answered truthfully. As a matter of fact, she just wanted to leave this place. She wanted to take the easier way out. When she first left Vegas, she felt liberated, happy and most importantly she was no longer having any nightmares. She could sleep peacefully and would not wake up in the middle night.
"Then leave."
Grissom felt tired. He was unwillingly to persuade anymore. He knew that asking Sara to stay was difficult. He was willing to let her go, to let her enjoy the sun and be happy.
"Are you sure?"
He nodded, "if I am holding you back from a greener pasture, which I don't want to, I am willing let you go. I am letting you be the woman before Vegas. You are so much happier before I asked you to work here."
"You are right. I was happier back then. "Sara turned and begins to walk towards the door.
Pausing slightly before opening the door, she hoped that he would ask him to stay. She was more willing to stay if he asked her to. She knew that she was silly and desperate but all she needed was affirmative answer from him.
"Good luck with finding a place without any deaths."
He gave her a strained smile. He hoped by asking her to leave, he would be selfless. He wanted her to be happy. He did not want her to stay and suffered or worst self-destruct.
"And you too. I wished you all the best." Sara's brows were furrowed together. She decided to fight one last battle.
"You do understand that once I walk out of this door, our relationship ends. There would be no chances of turning back. No apologies would remedy it."
Looking at his reflection off the tainted window intently, she waited for his request to ask her to stay. However, his actions disappointed her. He just mouthed his goodbyes and apologies.
Sara walked out of the room and she felt so broken. Her heart would never be in one piece ever again.
