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Ok…so for my newest fic I want to write something about Rose having lied on Bad Wolf Bay. But sooo many people have written these stories and have had complaints saying that it would never have happened because Rose and the Doctor weren't together.
I haven't made up my mind on that front yet, whether they would have been if it hadn't been a kids tv show, or not. BUT…
I have noticed several things that could be proof that they were or could have been. Please don't get annoyed if you don't agree because this is just fun and you don't have to agree!
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1. In 'The Doctor Dances' Rose states that Jack is like the Doctor but with dating and dancing. The Doctor replies saying 'I think you can assume that at some point I've…danced.' There was a very telling pause there insinuating that he really wanted to say 'dated'. And of course if the Doctor has dated before then it would be almost certain that he would date Rose because they are in love.
2. The Doctor has had children and grandchildren, so he clearly has 'danced' before. And he and Rose are in love so…
3. Who changed the Doctor into the pyjamas in 'Christmas Invasion'? I don't think Rose would have let Jackie do it considering she told her to 'leave him alone', and considering how Jackie isn't his biggest fan anyway! And Mickey would no way have done it. Which leaves Rose. Obviously she is comfortable enough undressing him or she would have left him in his jumper and jeans. Also, the Doctor never asks, meaning he is comfortable enough with Rose undressing him
4. When the Doctor was possessed by Cassandra he stated "I'm a man. So many parts. And hardly used."
Note the use of the word HARDLY. And now think about it, he has JUST regenerated, and has been in London with Rose, Jackie and Mickey since. Now in this new body his 'parts' should be unused unless...!!!
5. In 'Dalek' and 'New Earth' and probably many other episodes, other characters tell Rose or the Doctor the truth about their feelings leaving us in no doubt that they are in love.
6. In the first series the two often state that they are not a couple and that they are not in a sexual relationship. However, as we move into series two this is NEVER mentioned. They never deny it (as far as I can remember.) It isn't just that they don't deny it but that they did and now stop. As if they can't deny it anymore.
7. In 'School Reunion' Mickey tells Rose to "lay off the chips" when Sarah Jane comes back. This is insinuating that the Doctor looks at her in a physical way and that Mickey is telling her not to gain weight or he'll find her less sexually attractive. Strange thing for an exboyfriend to say unless it was certain that Rose and the Doctor are a couple.
8. When on Bad Wolf Bay, Rose says "Mum, Dad, Mickey…and the baby." It is a very suspicious tone that she uses. Think about if you were telling your man that your mother was pregnant…you would not look away shyly and look embarrassed and such. So was Rose telling the truth or just protecting the Doctor.
A/N--- Now…this chapter is WEIRD! It is a form of writing that I adore and that is abstract. It is heavily focused on water imagery which I like and I will explain more about what the imagery was at the end. But this is not like my other fics. (Although things will be less abstract later so don't despair if this is a bit heavy or long winded at the moment.)
Thanks and enjoy!
The beach was desolate, dead. The only movement was the hypnotic ebb and flow of the waves as they caressed the shore, the black water brushing the sand like a lover's last touch. The moon was low in the sky and dark shadows were carved into the sand by the oppressive black rocks that haunted the beach. She sat among them. Rose Tyler, a name so fitting for her purity, her love, was sat cocooned in the night, enraptured by the darkness surrounding her as she sought a solace in her isolation. She had to move on, tomorrow she would be bravely surviving and living life, all hope and optimism and future…but for now she sat in the dark, letting herself drown in her own sorrow. For now she had to be alone, just for now.
Bad Wolf Bay. The name ran over and over in her mind, memories leaking into her eyes and fusing themselves into the words. The light, the music, 'I am the Bad Wolf.' She had made this place for herself. 'I want you safe, My Doctor, protected from the false god.' She had no memory of how, no memories of what she had seen in those brief moments of omnipotence. And yet she had made this place hers, theirs. She was the Bad Wolf and in their goodbye that had imprinted itself upon her more that ever. As his image had faded away she was empty, all that she had grown to know had been torn from her life, her very soul, but he still remained, she still remained. Entwined in a destiny too complex, torn apart by enemies too strong, held together by a love unmatched, equals in hearts too open, the same in power because of their love, bound by a being yet unborn. She had lied.
She had looked into his eyes and in one brief moment had spoken the truth, but what she saw deep within his eyes as he cradled her in his stare, the hope, the hurt; she couldn't bear for him to lose more. He had lost everything he had ever loved, how could she give him another to grieve for, another to mourn, another to miss? So she lied.
She gave him one last piece of honesty before they were parted.
"I…I love you."
The last comfort she could give him. He had already known, they had both known. Through all of time and space they were only ever sure of each other, if they believed in just one thing it would have been their love. It was underlying in all they did, all they said and yet it was never spoken, it had never needed to be for they both understood. They understood their own insecurities and accepted each other's, they felt their hands entwined, their minds in perfect synchronicity, words were unnecessary. And yet as he had faded away, she would have given the world for just one more word, any word, just one more touch, one last smile. Nothing was enough, not when it was a goodbye.
The waves drowned her toes, creeping their way up her body like deathly hands stroking perversely at her flesh, sliding up her body and willing her to fall with them. Willing her to run away, out into the open water, out into nothingness. She could lose herself amongst the inky water, surround herself with her kin, the open water so rough and unrelenting but so alluring and comforting. The water called to her in her weeping state, it was her blood running through her veins, cold like the water, black like the sea, dragging her back and forth remorselessly.
Standing, she walked farther into the water, letting the icy waves brush at her knees, at her hips, at her waist. No further. This was her baptism, she needed to wash away the guilt of her betrayal and the water understood, for it too held life in it's body, it concealed it within it's depths. She had hidden it from her Doctor. The sea hides her secrets, her children. Rose's hands moved to her stomach as she tried to shield it against the freezing waters that she was submerged in. This guilt was hers and hers alone, the innocent was loved beyond all else. A small smile met the tear that trickled down her face as she spread her fingers over her stomach and walked out of the water. She would protect their love above all else and her child, their child was an amalgamation of more love than she had ever known. Her baby was cold and she would stop that. So simple, so instinctive.
The waters were left unchanged. Rose walked away and did not spare a glance for the sea which she had let embrace her so intimately. She walked away from them and no imprint was left, the waves did not mourn their loss, the water was the same as it ever was. Unchanged, still hiding it's own secrets, still comforting, still sinister, ever the same, in a constant ebb and flow of empty movement. Rose would always see the water as her kin and yet she was different, he had left imprints upon her, she was changed and ever changing, no movement empty, no loss unfelt.
"There's five of us now. Mum, Dad, Mickey…and the baby."
"You're not?"
"No…it's mum."
She had lied.
She had known since before the war, every second she ached to tell him, to leap into his arms and celebrate like her heart yearned for. But her silence was resounding. She had not been able to tell him, something held her back, an unseen force that caught her words and forced them back into her throat choking her with every attempt. Perhaps she had known that they could not last, perhaps she was simply afraid.
She couldn't have told him on the bay. She would never have let herself cause him more pain. She wanted him to know, she had wanted so much to let him know that they would always have a part of each other. She couldn't. Her love for her Doctor kept the words buried inside, under the grief, far beneath the hope, there they would lie until the day she lived or the day she died.
Three months their baby had been growing, Rose could feel their child, like a loving presence within her, always there. Some day her love would know her secret, whether it was she who would tell him or whether it was their child. Rose could not deny that the strength of their love would allow one of them to know him again. It was more than a belief, like the waters ever moving but never changing it was concrete, undeniable and yet so unbelievable for all except the little girl who had seen the stars and the baby who was born of them.
A/N--- Ok…well I did warn you that it was abstract!
Water Imagery: Water is seen as pure. Therefore it can be matched with Rose, pure of heart. Also it's purity is baptismal ie washing away sins. This relates to Rose as she feels such guilt over lying to the man she loves that she needs something to wash away her pain.
Water engulfs people, it can completely surround them, take people into it completely and that is what Rose wanted, to be embraced again, to lose herself in something so completely but for her the water was cold and black showing that although she used it to 1. lose herself and 2. feel something embracing her as the Doctor once did, she finds no solace in it as it is an empty gesture with no emotion etc.
Water can conceal many things. It is 6am so I can't think of a good analogy so lets go with Jaws, when you are in the water you cannot see the evil lurking beneath, you can't see the shark because the water hides it. This is a metaphor for Rose and the Doctor. The Doctor lost himself in Rose and yet she hides from him the fact that she is pregnant (with good intention and reason but she still does.) The water can hide sharks, fish, the life that it holds and brings and that is what Rose is doing. That is why she feels like it's her kin. It is something that she can share that secret with, something that does the same.
There is SOOOOO much more but those are the main ways I have used water imagery.
A/N--- Anyhow…did you like this fic so far? Hate it? Don't care? Is Rose ever going to be able to tell him? Did he know? Etc.
