Everything I had
Chapter one
Insight
"I can't deny it anymore…" Reid stated looking at Morgan who seemed to smile in understanding, "I just don't understand…is this feeling ever going to go away?" sighing Morgan unconsciously glanced at Hotch and Rossi's offices. "Sometimes kid…and sometimes even after she's long gone it'll still be there." The fear on Reid's face as he mumbled an "oh god…" running his fingers through his hair would have made her smile sympathetically at him, but now she was gone a simple memory in the wind.
This is a story about Dr. Katherine Lopez or as the team knew her as 'Kat' she was a sweet sensitive girl whose biggest fault and quality was her love for her teammates, she had joined the BAU on Hotch's team not long after Dr. Spencer Reid and Garcia had. This is a story of love, romance, friendships as well as painful heartaches.
NOTE: There WILL be violence, harsh language, and sexual content randomly throughout this story. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED! Now ^^ please go on and read below which the first chapter mostly consists of flash backs of Kat being with the team throughout the years, that way you get a feel for the character. Oh! Before I forget, I own NOTHING well nothing but the characters that aren't in the normal series and the creativity that inspired me to write this! ^o^
-0.00 First Day
I had finally made it, I sighed standing in the bullpen of the BAU where I would become a member of the team. I knew I was probably smiling like an idiot as I looked around when someone started talking to me from my left, "Hi! You must be Katherine Lopez! It's nice to meet you; I'm Penelope Garcia at your serves!" an hyper sounding blonde woman introduced herself as she stuck out her hand for me to shake, forcing me to juggle my box of belongings and the case files I had piled on top.
"Hey baby girl, who's your friend?" A male's voice had surprised me from behind causing me to stumble sideways which cause my case files to scatter across the floor since they had slid off the top of my box. I knew my face must have been as red as the tints in my hair if not redder as I bent down to collect the papers when I met a pair of light brown eyes framed by black rimmed glasses.
"I'm Kat," I smiled up shyly at the two men that were now helping me gather my things. The African American male had smiled and apologized for startling me, while the other blushed and handed me the papers that were in his hands. "I'm Derek Morgan, and this is Dr. Spencer Reid."
-2.01 The Fisher King
I couldn't help it as I passed back and forth waiting for news, I knew I should have been focusing on the case like the others but I just couldn't as I waited in the waiting room of the hospital to hear any news that concerned Elle.
That bastard hadn't only pulled us all away from our deserved break but had also severely wounded the woman who had become like a sister to me. Passing back and forth I ran over all the details, he knew us possibly better then we knew each other…Reid with the key, JJ with a butterfly picture, Gideon with a baseball card…
Hotch was coming and going while Gideon waited in one of the blue chairs trying to figure out the unsub but was distracted by his guilt even I could tell that. "You think I did the right thing right?" his voice had dragged me out of my own thoughts as I looked over blankly at him.
"What?" "With the press conference…it brought him out into the open he made a mistake, left a partial print. We wouldn't have had that." Silently I came over to sit beside him placing my hand lightly on his arm, "I did the right thing, I did my job. Elle will understand that."
I hadn't found my voice before he had lifted himself from his seat, "Gideon, she's a fighter…I-I believe she will pull through this. When she does awake she won't want to see you because of the press interview, she'll want to see you because the bastard that put her here was caught thanks to our team."
"Yeah…" he mumbled before exiting the waiting room.
-2.15-2.23 Let me help you
I had seen it all before all of the signs of a drug addiction, they were hard to break impossible in some cases without the help of loved ones. That's why I was standing here outside of his door, because whether or not he wanted my help I was here and I wasn't going to leave without a fight.
"Kat…w-what are you doing here?" An overly nervous sounding Spencer mumbled with his arms crossed. "Because you need me." I stated forcing my way into his neat apartment, it didn't take him long to block my way to the living room area pushing me up against the counter.
"You can't be here." He stated glancing back over his shoulder confirming my suspicions, "Spencer…" It killed me seeing him like this "Kat don't…please just leave." Frowning I crossed my arms and didn't hesitate "No, I won't leave you."
-3.12 3rd Life
I heard the gun shot ring out loud and clear causing me to become filled with nervousness as Hotch gave the go ahead to enter the school building, it was almost instant that when we entered and made our way down the hall that Jack Vaughan fallowed by his daughter our missing persons victim Lindsey Vaughan, but there was no sign of Reid.
I could hear my heart beat in my ears which caused a ringing sound as I entered the girl's bathroom where Reid stood looking petrified. "Reid?" I called out his name trying to gain his attention as I made my way around him when I seen the boy's body.
"I-I tried to save him…" "Oh Reid," standing in front of him to block his view I reached up to tuck a piece of his hair behind his ear, "It's not your fault…there was nothing you could do." I stated reading his facial expressions. "I-I tried." He spoke again shaking ever so slightly causing me to frown and pull him in close for a hug as the MT's made their way around us to the body.
It was that night that Spencer showed up at my apartment unannounced. "May-may I come in?" with the day's events still fresh in my mind I knew they were way worse for him as I nodded stepping away from the door for him to enter.
Glancing at the clock I went to sit on the couch and patted the seat next to me for him to sit down, "I-I didn't know what else to do…after today I…it's been hard, I think I might relapse." Bringing my one knee up to rest in under my chin as I looked at him, "I'm glad you came. That took a lot of courage," I tried to manage a smile but failed as his eyes shifted back and forth nervously.
"Courage…I don't know about that." He stated with a heavy sigh, "Spence, when I was 15 I overdosed and almost died…it was the first and last time I ever touched drugs, so trust me you coming over here took courage."I hadn't realized it or expected it when he leaned in, I could tell he was nervous as his lips met mine engulfing me in a moment of shock and passion.
When he pulled back to study my reaction I was sure I was smiling like a goon. Yeah okay this was Spencer, I worked with him which meant this was completely against the rules…but at the moment I didn't care, I liked him.
"I'm sorry," his voice pulled me from my daze as I gazed at him confused "maybe I should go." Standing up with him I smiled light heartedly "Spencer…I'm here, anytime okay? No matter what." I couldn't help the urge to smile at his confusion as I leaned in giving him a quick peck which turned into a long passionate kiss.
(Note I thought about writing more on the past, I have a list of like ten episodes that I wanted to rewrite sections of but decided that maybe it would be best to move forward and give you glances into the past every now and then whenever it's called for.)
