Chapter 1

Kakashi Hatake, a high leveled, jonin and elite ninja of Konohagukure. But he was also much more than that. He was human, he had basic needs. He fell in love, but before mentioning that, know that this isn't one of those romantic, love stories. Had he fallen in love, he also fell into substance abuse.

It was a slow day, especially for Kakashi. He had nothing to do along with no missions. It seemed as if he circle the village almost three times, he wasn't sure but he knew that he'd been walking around for the past few hours. He headed towards Ichiraku until he stopped, seeing Asuma smoking in a nearby alley.

Kakashi peeked his head in the alleyway. "Asuma?" He asked softly.

"Kakashi, heh. Funny seeing you around here." Asuma smirked."Well don't just stand there, come on. Grab a seat. Join in." Asuma let out a hoarse cough.

"Erm, no thanks." Kakashi backed away as he scratched the back of his head with his right hand. "Bud has never been my 'forte'." Kakashi laughed nervously while he quoted the word.

Asuma struggled to get up, then walked towards his friend. "Kakashi.." Asuma's hand was now gripped onto Kakashi's shoulder. "You've been going through a tough time, I can tell. Trying it won't hurt. Sometimes you just gotta know when to stop though, y'know? But I think you'll have no problem with that." Asuma slipped a small bag and pipe into Kakashi's jacket.

Kakashi let out a small gasp, and reached into his pocket.

"Shh, shh. Don't talk about it, just go with it." Asuma said calmly. "So, how's Sakura been?" Asuma questioned while he sat back down, lighting a cigarette.

"Oh, yeah. Well you know. She's been good." Kakashi's eyes kept examining the alleyway.

Asuma gave Kakashi an unsure look. But just brushed it off. He was certain that Sakura was doing well. She and Kakashi had been together for nearly a year now. Everyone knew, and yet, they were all happy for them. Kakashi had always been good to her, and every time the two were seen around the village together they would always receive compliments of how cute they were together.

"So, it was nice seeing you, Asuma. But I think I should get going now." Kakashi quickly walked from the alley back toward his home. When he finally arrived at his house he walked straight into his bedroom. He noticed that Sakura had not gotten home yet. Still, he wanted to make sure she wasn't home.

"Sakura?" He yelled, walking throughout each room. "Honey, are you here?" He made it to the kitchen where he found a note on the counter.

' Kakashi, I've been called back into the hospital for urgent help from Lady Tsunade. I should be back by tomorrow afternoon. Love you xoxox. - Sakura '

Kakashi slightly frowned at the letter. He didn't like being away from Sakura, but it was only for the rest of the night really so he managed to get over it. Kakashi walked over towards his couch to sit down. He pulled out the items that were slipped into his pockets by Asuma from earlier. Kakashi placed the bag on the coffee table and held the marijuana pipe thoroughly examining it. ' Hm. I guess trying it won't do much harm. ' Kakashi thought to himself. He got up to get a lighter and began to light the pipe after putting the substance into it. He continued to sit in silence for the next half hour as he smoked the weed he'd received by Asuma. Hours quickly passed by as they merely felt like minutes. Kakashi. He wasn't quite sure about his recent action, or as to why he did it. But for the first time he didn't care. At all. He thought about every single consequence and other actions that would lead him on, but he didn't care. For that time being he didn't care about anything at all. He could of died right then, and there. Still not having one worried thought. It almost felt as if 'caring' hadn't existed, and he liked it. A lot. As his careless thoughts continued to penetrate his mind, he slowly drifted asleep.

The next morning Kakashi woke up to an annoying noise. He kept hearing loud crashes and bangs. Normally it would actually just be a tiny thud but to him it was like an entire building was being blown up. Kakashi opened his eye and noticed someone cleaning up. He managed to get up, and while his vision was a bit blurry, he made out the person's image. It was Sakura. Kakashi wondered why she was home so early then looked over to his clock. ' 4:56 pm? Was I really asleep for that long? ' He asked himself in confusion. He thought back trying to remember everything that happened when he got home. But it was just a blur to him.

"Oh, you're up." Sakura stopped what she was doing and shot Kakashi an aggressive look.

"Sakura when did you- " Kakashi began to ask until he was interrupted by a brutal smack to his face.

"Ow." He mumbled, as he turned his head back up to look at her. "What the hell was that for?" His voice grew louder.

"What is this?" Sakura demanded for an answer, showing Kakashi the pipe Asuma had given him the other day.

"I- I don't know. A pipe?" Kakashi responded, scratching his head.

"Yeah, a marijuana pipe. What the hell were you doing with it?" She crossed her arms.

"I don't remember, all I can recall is coming home." Sakura continued to angrily stare at her boyfriend. Kakashi noticed she was still upset, and pulled her in for a hug. "Look, it was a one time thing. Don't think too much on it, alright?" He looked at her loosened eyes and kissed her forehead.

She struggled away from him. "... I'm still not happy about it. I don't want to witness you go through this."

"Go through what? It's fine! I'm fine, you're fine. No one's hurt. There, everything is all good and happy." Kakashi chuckled. Sakura just rolled her eyes and walked away.