Why do you have to be so blind?

My heart has felt nothing but hate, pain, and suffering.

Yet you reachs for me, with your forgiving touch.

You hope to erase my sin, my pain, to Purify my darken soul.

But your forgiveness is not what I desire.

It is foolish to think you can reach me in this dark abyss.

The pain and suffering I and you had endured are on a different levels.

Do you truly believe I can be saved?

You are a fool to think I want your help.

Yet, you still reach and what do you grasp.

Nothing

I know that carrying a heavy grudge like mine is not good for my soul.

But if I removed the hatred I have for the you, for him and for this world.

Nothing would be left of me.

Hate is what keeps me going, the motivation for me to move on and do what I have to do.

Challenge myself to be better, to be stronger.

It made me not trust anyone other than myself because in this cruel world… the only person you can lean on is yourself.

Yet you foolishly believe that by trapping me in this dark abyss will keep me from my goal.

It hasn't.

I will wait for the time that you are weak and he is powerless.

I will enjoy the look of pure pain in his face as I push my blade into his heart.

How stupid do I look like to you, did you really think I would forget my goal.

And if this is really a sin.

I can only hope my master can forgive me because really my only sin is being alive while my master is dead.

You see, my only reason staying alive is to kill the bastard that took away my master life.

So know that you know, it is pointless to order me to rid my goal.

Only my master can order me and I will follow his last command.

I will not fail, because this is an order from my lord.