I know I know. I have other stories to update but the inspiration just keeps coming. I hope you like this story and I'll try to update as frequently as I can we this story and the others. I wanted to wait to post this story after I was done with some others but I'm too impatient to wait.
Summary: Sets place in New Moon. Bella never jumped. Bella decides to give Jacob a chance thinking Edward will never come back. She has sex with Jacob and soon after Edward comes back. When he finds you that Bella is in a relationship he will stop at nothing to get her back.
"Oh yes!" his thrusts became faster when I gasped this. It felt so damned good but at the same time it felt so empty. "Oh harder Jacob, HARDER!" he happily obliged. My gasps became rugged and louder. I was so close but yet so far. I just wanted it to be over with.
I heard Jacob grunt above, I could tell her was close too. With one final thrust and rub on my clit, I exploded, as did he.
I awoke with a start. There was a sheen of sweat on my forehead that I wiped of with the back of my hand as I was trying to calm my breathing. It three months since I decided to forget all about Edward and be in a relationship with Edward. And it had been three days since I decided that I wanted to have sex with Jacob. He was more than happy with my decision. He never once pushed the subject let alone mentioned it. When I talked about wanting to go all the way with him he couldn't be more happy. I smiled as I thought of his goofy grin. It reminded me so much of Emmett with his big goofy grin.
I sighed. I missed them all so much. Carlisle with his kindness and gentle heart, Esme with her motherly and her ability to love you no matter what, Jasper with him making you feel nice and fuzzy inside, Alice with her bubblyness and never ending friendliness, Emmett with his tough exterior but a goofball on the inside, even Rosalie with her impossible beauty, and last but not least... Edward.
My heart tightened at the last name. I hadn't completely gotten over him, but Jacob helped me. I know I'll never stop loving him no matter what, but it doesn't hurt to try and be with Jacob. I do love Jacob. He is the best person in my life besides Charlie. He was there when no one else was and helped mend my broken heart. It may not been completely sewn together but it was sewn enough to stay together.
I rolled over on my side to face the closed window that Edward would sneak through to watch me sleep. I tried not to cry at the memory. I glanced over to the right so I could look at the digital clock on my nightstand. I was exactly three in the morning. I layed back down on my back and sighed. There was no way I would be going to sleep anytime soon now that I was thinking about three days earlier and about the Cullens.
I stared at my ceiling and tried not to think about them but I failed. I was on the verge of tears when I saw something move at the corner of my eye. I looked toward the window and saw nothing. I looked over there harder and noticed that my window was now open.
My heart began a staccato rhythm from fear. I slowly sat up, still looking at the window, I slowly pulled off my covers and walked towards the window. I looked around outside and saw... nothing. Nothing at all. Maybe I had just thought that it was closed and it had been opened all along. It was cold so I closed the window. I turned around slowly while rubbing my arms with my hands to keep warm.
I looked back to my bed and my heart starting to beat even more faster, if that was possible. What I saw was impossible, something I haven't seen in so long. I knew I was hallucinating. It was official, I had gone crazy. I thought hearing Edward's voice was as far I was going to get into my craziness. But I was apparently wrong. Not only am I hearing Edward's voice but I am seeing him too? Ugh!
The imaginary Edward kept his eyes locked with mine the whole time. I side and rubbed my eyes, trying to make the hallucination disappear. It wasn't working. I looked at the fake Edward eyes again and saw that they were cautious mixed with sadness- no agony. I sighed and walked over to my bed, thinking if I walked right through him, he would go away.
When I got to my bed I sat down by the fake Edward and layed across his crossed legs, with my head on my pillow. Okay this wasn't working. I literally felt him. I felt the cold stone skin and even smelled his delicious scent.
The imaginary Edward slithered out from under me and layed down beside me on his side resting on his forearm. I looked right at him, rapidly blinking, trying to make this wonderful mirage go away. It still wasn't working.
I watched him as he lifted up his arm and brought his hand up to cup my cheek with his freezing hand. Even though I was kind of freaked out how by how real this hallucination felt, I was also in heaven from how real it felt. I was the best thing I have experienced in a long time. In the back of my mind I felt terrible for thinking this because the best experienced should have been with Jacob... but it wasn't.
The imaginary Edward finally spoke. "Bella." he said softly with love and a hint of sadness. I closed my eyes and savored the sound of his voice.
"Oh I wish this was real." I said in a breathy voice. I opened my eyes only to be met by his confused ones. "Bella." he said again only this time it sounded anxious instead of loving. "What are you talking about?"
"You're only a hallucination Edward. You're not really here."
His eyes turned from anxious to shocked. He quickly sat up and put his knees on either side of me, straddling my waist but not sitting on me. He took my face in both of his cold stone hands. "Bella, this isn't a hallucination this is real Bella. I'm really here."
I rolled my eyes. "Why would you really be here? You don't love me, you said so yourself."
His eyes filled with agony. He bend down and took me into his arms. "Oh Bella." he cried softly. "I never stopped loving you. I'm here Bella, and I love you, I always have and always will. I left to protect you but I couldn't stay away. Please Bella, forgive me, take me back! I beg of you." I heard him sobbing in the crook of my neck.
I bottom lip started to quiver. This was all too real. I knew when I woke up the next morning that he wouldn't be here and I wouldn't see him ever again. "Oh no!" I cried.
Edward looked at me anxiously. "What Bella what?"
"This is too good to be real. There is no way you're here. If you were then why would you be saying these things? You're just saying things I want you to say because you are just in my head."
Edward gave me a hard stare before quickly pinching my arm. "OW!"
"Belive that I'm really here now?"
I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. I rubbed my arm and saw that it was forming a tiny bruise about the size of a dime. This didn't make sense. How could I feel Edward's cold hard skin and how could I feel the pinch he gave me? Then something dawned on me. If he was really a hallucination then there wouldn't be a bruise forming on my arm, there will just be my ivory skin.
I slowly looked up towards Edward with surprise in my eyes. "Edward?" I whispered astonished.
He nodded. "I'm here love."
My breathing hitched. "What are you doing here?" I whispered.
"Bella I couldn't... I can- I'm not able to stay away from you anymore. It's near impossible. I left to protect you but I'm too selfish to stay away. Please," he begged. "Please forgive me, take me back. I beg of you." He repeated.
I shook my head."N-no. You can't mean that. You said you didn't lo-"
"It was a lie Bella." he interrupted. "Please forgive. Kiss me Bella, I need your lips. I've been away from them too long." and before I could answer he attacked me with his lips. This kiss took my breath away. It wasn't nearly as careful as our previous ones I remember. He was directly on top of me, giving me opened mouth kisses, even trailing his tongue along my bottom lip but never going in. He ran his hands up my thigh, my side, until under my breast.
That's when I remembered Jacob. I quickly put my hands against his rock hard chest and reluctantly pushed him away. "Edward no."
"Yes." he insisted. He trailed his opened mouth kisses until he kissed the sensitve spot under my ear. My eyes rolled to the back of my head for a bit but then I got back to thinking of Jacob.
"Edward we have to stop." he said pushing more roughly against his chest with no avail.
"Why?" he asked while putting his hands on the small of my back under my shirt. This gave him the opportunity to attack my neck with his loving kisses.
"Because..." Bella hesitated.
"Because?" Edward asked still kissing her neck.
"Because... I have a boyfriend." Edward's kisses abruptly stopped. He looked at me, locking his shocked but sad eyes in mine.
"Wh-what?" he stuttered.
I swallowed. "I have a boyfriend."
He furrowed his eyebrow's. He sat up and had a thinking look on his face. Like my words haven't registered through his brain yet. "Y-you don't want me?" he asked saying the same words I did in the woods. "You moved on?"
"I am so sorry Edward. Just know that my feeling for you haven't changed like you said yours did. I still and always love you, but I can't betray my boyfriend. I can't break up with him just because you're back. He deserves better than that."
"What is his name?" Edward asked in a dead frightening voice.
I gulped. "I don't think I should tell you that Edward."
He gave me a harsh stare. "Why not?" he growled.
I flinched. "Well because he hates you first of all, and second of I um... don't think you will be too happy about who he is."
"What could the pathetic boy possibly hate about me?" he said with acid in his voice. I knew how easily Edward got jealous. He wasn't even bothering to hide his new found hate for Jacob.
I hestitated. "Well because... he's a Werewolf." I muttered the last part.
This caused Edward to snarl and loudly knock over my nightstand. I took a deep breath and swallowed. I listened to see if Charlie was still snoring. Sure enough, he was. Man he was a hard sleeper. Must have been from all the restless nights that I would force on him from my constant screaming at night.
"Of all the pathetic worthless boys out there you had to choose a WEREWOLF?!"
"Edward keep your voice down."
"I want you to stay away from him Bella." he growled my name.
This made me furious. "You Edward Cullen cannot tell me what to do! He is my boyfriend and I will see him whenever I please."
He quickly came towards the bed again and pushed down my shoulders so I was laying down and staring directly into his ferocious eyes. "He is dangerous Bella. If he gets angry enoug and you're too close, he could kill you! Can't you see that? Stay away from him!"
"You have no say in the matter if I see him or not! He is my boyfriend Edward. You're not! At least not anymore. You left me Edward remember? This is partially YOUR fault! You're just jealous that I'm not with you. That is the main reason you don't want me to see him. I bet my life savings if he wasn't a Werewolf you would be acting the same way!"
Edward growled low in his chest but didn't say anything. He let up off me and walked towards the window and opened it. He put one leg out the window, "Just know this Bella. If I ever see him, I won't be pleasant. I won't kill him because I love you and I know he means so much to you. Just know MY love that I will get you back and earn your trust if it's the last thing I do!" and at that he jumped out the window with a muted thud and ran off into the night.
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