A/N: Alrighty., this is one of those late night drabbles that wont make any grammatical sense to me when I reread it tomorrow morning xD. It's pretty much just Bella arguing for herself after Edward tells her she wont be changed. This is towards the end of the return from Volterra bedroom scene. Again… though I kinda want to continue with this one… it's late so go easy on me.

Oh the T is only for some language and Stephenie Meyer owns all of this Twilight stuff… I'm only adding some angst xD.

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"And these... plans," she seethed "These plans all centre around me staying human."

I glared, nor wanting to stay on this course of conversation. "Naturally." Why couldn't she see that this wasn't right for her? Her soul was at stake. She shouldn't waste it for an eternity with me. It… I certainly am not worth it.

I watched slightly shocked as she pushed my arms away and jumped out of bed. I tried to hide the shock and pain from my features.

"How dare you," she sputtered. "When the hell did you decide that you had control over my life?" I blinked in confusion. This wasn't where I thought the conversation would turn. Arguments about aging had turned to relationship

and control issues. I wasn't sure where an when to cut in. "You made it perfectly clear that you wanted nothing to do with me! Now you think you can make my decisions for me?" Beyond the guilt that consumed me, came the feeling

that I was really loosing her. I'd finally succeeded in pushing her away… but we could work this out! We had to! She loved me! She said she did!

"Please Bella! I was trying to do what's best for you. I love you! Please! You do not under…"

"No! You don't understand!" She angrily cut me off "You think leaving was the best decision for me? I don't know what untimely wisdom you think you possess but keep your damn mouth shut! Ask any of my friends! Even Lauren

could argue that what you did didn't make any damn sense! You have no clue what you're talking about!" I wasn't sure what to say, she'd never spoken to me in this tone of voice before. I had to reason with her. I just got her back… I

couldn't lose her again to a misunderstanding or problems dealing with pride! I couldn't clear my head. This was all too much. Too many emotions running through both our heads at once.

"Bella I…" I tried to continue.

"Just leave, please." Her forlorn tone sharply contrasted her previous words. I wanted to pull her to me and comfort her in the only way I knew how. But I'm sure that would have only made things worse… "until you realize that I'm not

your plaything, not an object you can control, please leave. I'm my own person… I'm capable of deciding for myself… please understand." I could tell that she was barely holding herself together and that she wouldn't want me to watch

her break down. I gently grabbed her hand and kissed her knuckle.

"I'm only a phone call away when you want me back." I whispered. She nodded curtly and laid her head back on the pillow and shut her eyes. A single tear traced a jagged path down her face as I climbed back out the window. As I shut

the glass, a sob escaped her lips. Followed by one more, and then another. I couldn't bring my self to leave so I leaned against the base of her house and listened to her hitched breathing that faded away as she eventually fell asleep.

I'm not sure how much time passed but I was alerted by the sound of approaching footsteps. A warning growl slipped between my teeth as I listened for the thoughts of the incoming intruder.

Relax Edward. It's just me. Alice's unusually strained thoughts rang through my head as she sat herself down beside me. I'm sorry but you deserved every word. I would have warned you, but you needed to hear this from her and

not me. You have been to controlling in her life, Edward. This, she gestured between the two of us, can be dangerous for her. We know that. She knows it too. She still loves you unconditionally and you can't throw that away in sixty

years because you're afraid. She is going to be changed as long as it is what she wants.

"If she still wants this," I whispered brokenly. My eyes pricked and the venom clouded my vision, but no tears fell.

Give her time, Edward. At this point, I'm not certain what the future will bring. She may choose you or… she suppressed a vision in her head of something. I couldn't be sure of exactly what it was but I assumed it had to do with

Bella's future. Bella was wavering between whether or not to stay with me. She could leave me. Just like I left her…

Edward snap out of it! Give her space. Show her that you do appreciate her rights as an adult and that you trust her decision-making. If you don't stay that overprotective oaf that you have been, she may take you back!

Alice smiled kindly, stood up and offered me her hand. "Bella is going to wake up in an hour and I don't think she'd be thrilled to see that you were still here." I nodded and collapsed into her, attempting to hold back a sob. "It'll be ok,

Edward," she soothed. "Either way, we will get you through this." I nodded and spared one more glance at Bella's window before taking off back to the mansion.

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A/N: So what do you guys think? I'm not the best story teller but I was rereading New Moon and I have some strong feelings toward Bella's lack of ability to stand up for herself… though I would probably end up doing the same thing xD. Anywayz, this is what I would say if given the opportunity to rewrite Bella's actions for this part of the story.