I have been depriving Codi of a yoai fic for too long so today, I wrote this for her. Also because I meant to cheer her up ages ago and I forgot :P. I was gonna do a DestreyxDanny (because that boy is sexy! Can I get an amen?) but then I didn't want to steal her O. C. But! I bring her (*and you) Pitch Pearl instead.

You don't understand, if you haven't been there yourself. It'd honestly so hard to describe why I feel this way myself, but...he's not me, lets just make that clear.

Maybe it's in the way he kisses me; hard and hot and hungry, tugging on my bottom lip to bite on it gently to mix pleasure with pain in the only way he knows how. Or soft and sweet, enough to make me gasp into his mouth as he gently holds me and just...he's beautiful. Like girl beautiful almost, with the long white hair and slim body, but I can still feel the hard muscles under his skin when I run my hands down his chest, arms, legs. I can feel them flex when he moves, see them tighten when he's tense or upset.

He's always such an open book to me, especially in those vibrant eyes. When he's upset his entire face just falls, then his body tenses and he tries to hide it with anger. When he's happy it;'s a small soft smile in the corner of his mouth just before his lips meet mine. They're a bright, electric green when he's either straddling me or I'm straddling him and can see the lust in them just before he pulls his shirt over his head and we roll over and...it's amazing.

Maybe he just knows me so well, he understands what it feels like to be considered a freak in school when your friends at least have prospects like your sister but you don't. But I have love, no matter how twisted some people think it is.

People would think I was a freak if they knew, so I carry on pretending that I like Sam and play video games with Tucker and fight with Vlad but...the weird thing is...I know that he understands, even if my friends won't.

Because shouldn't the person you love understand you in a way no one else can?

I feel odd after writing this...maybe I should turn it into a series of one shots...requests/feedback on my first slash?

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