Konichiwa minna! It's Bunni again! I'm back with a new -might I say depressing- story! /drum roll please/ "A Need To Be Thinner"! Let's start!

Rin POV:

Rain trickled down my window, with each drop racing each other to the bottom. The clouds cried as if they knew what I was feeling. It always rained, like I always cried. Maybe the clouds were just like me. Maybe they didn't get along with any one.

I stared out the window and watched every little tear fall to the muddy, grassy surface. "Rinny! Dinner's ready!" My mother called, snapping me out of my peaceful trance. I stared down at my fat stomach, and shook my head. I never ate, but I trampled down stairs any ways. It was hard to move at all, since I never had much energy. I struggled, but made it down. My brother Kaito, easily passed me and sat down in his favorite spot at the end the table. Gumi rushed down and sat next to Kaito, giggling for no apparent reason, as normal. They were always close, because they were only a year apart. I, on the other hand, was 13, 4 years younger than Gumi and 5 years younger than Kaito. Lily, our mother, sat down beside Gumi. I, wobbly, walked over to the seat on the other side of Kaito, the seat under the one spot not shining with light. My father, Rinto, (I was named after him) was a doctor, and was always late home. But I didn't care that he wasn't there, I didn't want him to see his pathetic daughter starve herself.

My mother smiled and asked Kaito and Gumi about their day, while I, the forgotten child, stared off at the grey sky. The crying clouds, the screaming thunder, no one ever thought much of them. They just shrugged it off, and walked on by. They passed by and pretended that they weren't there. What was I to the world? Was I merely I was just a speck in the universe of importancy?

"Rin , what do ya' think?" Gumi squealed in an all so cheery manner. I shook, "Hmm?" "About the meatloaf?" My mother pointed. I stared down at the piece of seasoned meat in front of me. My stomach gurgled, but I ignored it, considering that it just was bored. I shrugged, acting like I ate it, "It's pretty good." My mother smiled, and I forced out a smile to comfort her. Gumi laughed, "Oh Rinny you're so kawaii!" I shamefully laughed and stared back out the window. Gumi and Kaito just continued laughing. Why did they laugh when the world was so cruel? I will never know. "Hey Rin!" Kaito smiled, catching my attention. I nodded and quietly whispered, "mhmm?" "Wanna go to the mall with Gumi and I tomarrow, you can bring Len!" He grinned, showing his blue braces among his teeth. Len was my only friend. We weren't just friends, but best friends. He never judged me and never called me fat. I nodded, "I'll ask." I pushed out my chair and slowly limped upstairs. As I got to the top of the stairs I heard Kaito whisper, "she's not looking so well." "Try to budge it out of her while you're at the mall Kaity-to," my mom whispered back. I shook my head, I wasn't going to tell them.

In my room, I stood on the scale in my bathroom. 71.3 pounds. How fat. I couldn't deal with this weight. I sighed and sat on the edge of my bath tub. Yet another purge. I stuck three fingers down my throat and coughed up the orange I ate earlier, and water. I would never be perfect. Then, I washed my hands and went over to my phone. I scrolled down my contact list until I reached 'Len Kagami'. I pressed the green 'call' button and waited for Len to answer. "Rin!" Len, almost immediately, answered. "Hey," I responded. "I was just about to call you!" He explained, "I was wondering if you wanted to spend the night tomorrow!" "Uhm, yeah! Sure! But can you come to the mall with Gumi, Kaito, and I before I come over?" I asked. "Mhm," he agreed. "Okay meet us at the orange tree!" I told him. "Okay! What time?" He asked. "Hold on, let me ask!" I put my hand over the phone "KAITO, WHAT TIME?" "LUNCH!" He yelled back. "lunch, at noon" I told Len. "M'kay see you tomorrow," Len hung up. I sighed. I wanted to be perfect. I took of my sweatpants and sweat shirt. I picked up my razor blade and slid it across my fat thighs. Blood dripped down, as I cut a few more times and stood up. I looked in the mirror. I had various cuts and scars all over my shoulders, thighs, hips, stomach, wrists, ankles, and arms. I would never be perfect. I wanted Len, but I obviously wasn't pretty enough for him.

I sighed and plopped down on my grey chair stationed at my orange desk. I stared out the window in front of the desk, and watched the raindrops. I took out my paint brush and painted raindrops on a white piece of paper. I grabbed my razor and added a bit of red into the water couler raindrops. The clouds rained when they cried, thundered when they yelled, and cut when the lightninged. I was practically a cloud. I stared into the darkening sky and when the first star came out, I whispered, "star light, star bright, first star I see tonight, wish i may o wish I might, can I be perfect, for just one night?" "Rin! It's time for bed!" Gumi yawned from her room across the hall. I limped over to my bed and slipped on a long sleeve shirt and some oversized sweat pants. I curled up under my white covers. I watched the moon and stars slowly apear and as the rain poured on, I cried myself to sleep.

Yeah... It's pretty depressing... Anyways please leave reviews and I will update!