Nightly Visit Disturbed
Chapter 1
The headset on her head blocked anything from outside her current thoughts. The thoughts mostly wavering towards what to do now. This Angle Clos...whatever thing snuck up on her entire family. Breaking any chances of her life as a fashion designer right from under her feet. Her parents weren't happy but asked what she wanted to do. It wasn't like she knew either. In reality, this going blind was a risk to two things. One, this meant Tikki would be working double time when was she Ladybug. Not only helping her see BUT to fight Akumatized victims and the other for her daily life. She wasn't really sure what was worse. Having to go between sight and no sight or knowing that the ones around her would eventually find out and pity her. She didn't want it though. It was why all her windows were locked. It was why the headset was one. It was why she wasn't on patrol with Chat as she should have been. It was to just clear her head. To wrap it around what was going to happen at some point. It also was her thinking on the options she had. Dropping out was one.
If she dropped out, she would worry her friends. Mostly Nino and Alya but the two combined were a worry convention in their own right. Looking up, she saw a black cat looking in but looked down. No way, she wasn't letting him in. No way would she let that stray cat in. He already had her heart but now she had to just dream about what could have been and let him move on to another. Even Adrien was now out of her league since no one man in their right mind would go for the blind. Not unless they could handle it and right now, she knew he didn't need that. He was already on a short leash with his dad, aka Hawkmoth. Even with the free weekends he was loving. The blond still had to worry about his dad. It was also just the idea of him going for her now or even her earning his attention. Just too stupid to try, too stupid to even go for a superhero at this rate. Looking up again, she saw that he was gone. It hurt her to do that to him but he had to move on and leave her be. For both her sake and his, and the worst part was that he was aware of her sudden distance. If it meant saving him the heartache though, saving him the fact that she'd never see his stupid smirk, that child like smile...she sighed and put her head down.
This wasn't what her life was meant to end up being. This wasn't the life she wanted to have. Her dream was to make clothes. To work alongside the best of the best and show the world her talent as an artist and designer. To make her parents proud of what she had become but it wouldn't happen now. This...stupid blindness issue would only end it. Steps made her look up and then stand and go to another window. She watched Chat jump onto a roof and run along it. Patrolling once again and probably hoping to see Ladybug. Seeing as his princess ditched him and never let him in. She looked to Tikki who got the hint and transformed her. Going to leave, she changed her mind and released the transformation. It confused Tikki but then her kwami saw how she just sat on the chair to the computer and put the headset on. She even watched as Mari just layed her head down and kept her damaged eyes covered. If only she could actually heal the damage to her body was causing. Even she had limits though and those limits were easily reached when Marinette was always doing what she can to help others and prolonging the transformation at times.
It wasn't risky but it did pose threats and now the time would be shorter. Tikki would have to keep her sight and help heal her. Sadly, she would have to pick one. Sight would have to do but she could at least spare her some free injury so long as Marinette dodged serious attacks. Not that she had bad luck like Chat but even luck had limitations.
Flying to Mari's side, she saw her turn the computer off and then the lights off. Muttering that she was going to turn in and just pretend that nothing bad happened. Seeing as she would have to face school possibly tomorrow, the kwami stayed silent. Tikki knew about chloe, how that horrid child would make fun of anyone to where they would feel lower than dirt. If word got to her that Marinette was going blind, the torment would never end. Marinette would be at risk of becoming Hawkmoth's victim. Chat would lose his partner and Alya would lose a friend. It was so risky to keep this hidden. Why she didn't just let chat in and tell him was beyond her. Even as she watched Marinette curl into a ball with her eyes shut under the covers. She wished she let the stray cat in. He could help her through this and adjust. Heck, maybe even convince her to do whatever treatment options they had available. The most she could do though for her was at least comfort her.
"Tikki," Marinette said scattering away the kwami's deep thoughts. "...I don't want to go to school now. I think...I think I'll stop going. I am sure mom and dad would understand. I know treatment is available but I think just learning to read braille and other things would be easier on them."
"But...what about Chat...Hawkmoth is still out there. What about Adrien and your friends?" Tikki asked.
"I can't tell them. I can't put this on them until I am confident that they are...stable and able to handle it," She said. "But I will tell them when I am sure they are okay Tikki?"
The words settled her doubts a bit but only enough to have her relax next to Marinette for the night. Even as her friend fell asleep though, she looked from behind Mari's arm to see the black cat looking in again. He couldn't see her from how he was just watching Marinette sleep. He even eventually left too again. If only she could let Plagg know somehow but it would go against what her holder wanted. Against her better judgement, she went to sleep and decided to just support whatever decision was made.
This is the start of what would have happened if Marinette never let chat in, never told him or the others what was going. Its set before they graduated which means she may not finish school. She might finish school. Depends on what she wants and what she deems to be needed.
