Hello, everyone, at firts I'd like to say, that

NO, I HAVE NOT WRITTEN HARRY POTTER AND I CLAIM ABSOLUTELY NO RIGHTS!

EVERY CHARACTER IN THIS FANFIC BELONGS MERELY TO HER!

I DO NOT MAKE ANY MONEY OUT OF THIS!

Well, with that said I'm going to continue...

English is not my native language!

Any review about grammar is welcomed too!

I sometimes read fanfics that clearly scream at me, to correct them, so please, if you find a problem, tell me.

If you won't insult me along the process I swear not to get mad at mistakes you point out.

Remember!

Your reviews about grammar will make the story more enjoyable to others who come after you!

Don't be afraid!


Now to the story.

This is a fanfic and in this world, what I write, that goes.

I'm not JK Rowling, if I write, I personalize things. Each character acts either like me, like I expect them to act or like me if I were perfect. Some only have my bad traits reinforced. If you don't like how the characters act or if it doesn't make any sense to you, don't bother mentioning it and just leave, the story or the characters will not change unless I want them to.


Now to the story itself.

It has been posted here once already but I deleted it because it lay untouched and incomplete for a year.

This part of 6 chapters that I'm posting almost simaltenuosly will be considered as complete.

There are no graphic sexual scenes, therefore anyone who's not against gay people can read it.

I am working on the epilog right now but it will be posted as a single story since it's as long as the original 6 chapters.

I also have some speacial chapters but they will be posted as another group, separately.

The specials will contain adult scenary and language but you will need to waiit for that.

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I didn't really rewritten these chapters but I changed some wording and the structure because, believe me, I could not read it like it was before.

It was horribly composed.


I apologise to those who waited for an update for so long but I just couldn't lave the story like this anymore.

I like it too much for that to happen.

Those who haven't read it yet.

Fell free to read it.

Enjoy.


Chapter 1 / Death is only the beginning, right?


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Sirius! He's alive! And here!

Harry was indescribably happy, even though there were unforgivables flying all around with the only desire – to hit one of his friends.

He didn't care,

he hadn't asked them to come with him,

he hadn't need them to follow him carelessly.

He had to go though, he needed to save Sirius, even if it was a trap.

It had been unthinkable not to find out, if his lover was in danger.

Well… ex-lover.

They hadn't understood, hadn't got it, why he needed to go so much, but they had followed him blindly anyway.

His friends…

They were loyal friends, the best ones he could have made, but at that moment he cared only about Sirius.

"Sirius!" Exclaimed Harry joyfully and then launched at his godfather to hug him.

He was so happy!

he could not have made that damn vision go away from his mind, but he was alright now, Padfoot in his arms.

"Harry! There's no time now, we need to fight..." Replied the tall man with long dark locks in a small ponytail, he pushed Harry away from himself and literally glued their backs together. I'll protect you and you'll protect me... Was the thought that had swept through the young wizard's mind, then he threw one Death Eater across the room.

"We have to get out of here, you and your friends need to go somewhere save," said Sirius suddenly, he grabbed his godson's hand and forced him to the bunch of his already gathered friends who were protected by Order members.

"No! I won't leave you!" Refused Harry almost instantly and took a hold of Sirius' cloak, which he wasn't letting go. Certainly not after he had witnessed his probable death, he wasn't going to let that happen, it was unacceptable!

"Watch out!" Flew out of his mouth and he pulled his lover aside with his quick and strong hand.

It didn't do any good though, the hex still hit him.

His heart might have stopped beating for a while, when he saw his godfather's lifeless body fly through the air right towards that whispering veil.

NO!

Was Harry's immediate thought, he followed right after with one hopeless step then reached out his hand... Sirius was too far away unfortunately.

It was always going to be... too far away.

He froze when Sirius smashed to the archway and then flinched when his body fell down, forcefully, lifelessly and hollowly. The veil hasn't swallowed him that was good... but he wasn't getting up... wasn't even breathing... nothing. Harry fell on his knees he registered the voices of his friends in a corner of his mind... they were calling him.

Someone - Remus probably - hug him and tried to get him up on his feet but those were too weak.

My fault.

If I hadn't come here, nothing would have happened and now...

"Let go," he said without emotion, when he could finally remain standing on his own, he made a step towards the veil then where his only reason to live this goddamn life lay. "Let go," he heard himself say again, but as if the voice didn't belong to him, it was lifeless... hollow.

He's not getting up... he's still not getting up...

"Let go of me!" Screamed Harry in rage and then ripped himself out of werewolf's arms which were restraining him. He finally wanted to run towards Sirius clutch him in embrace and never let him go. He heard her then though.

"I killed Sirius, ha-ha!" Belatrix was chuckling crazily and throwing hexes of various sparkling colours around in every direction. Harry's vision went black he saw only her.

How does she dare?!

Without any effort every spell that flew in his direction was repulsed. He didn't care for others he just wanted her… so he went to get her, slowly but confidently.

She noticed him, smiled cruelly and vanished inside the black door behind her. He didn't mind, he was going to find her and then... he was going to kill her, yes... he's going to kill that filthy bitch tonight!

"Crucio," slipped later coldly past his lips, when he caught up to her... well she waited for him, insane little bitch.

Bella screamed in agony then fell on the ground when her body twitched in endless torturous spasm.

He removed the hex after only two minutes he didn't want her to die, at least not yet.

Harry didn't need a wand or any other dumb nursery rhyme incantations, he stood right next to her and forcefully stamped on her knee. Again and again until she lifted her wand with lame effort, which he snatched then.

"Die, you bitch," whispered Harry cruelly as he put his shin at her chest, knee pushing into her throat and restricting the airway.

She was struggling but her strength wasn't enough, not against the power of his rage.

After Harry snapped her wand right in front of her eyes her effort died completely.

"See you in hell," said Harry and with a simple wave of his hand her body changed into ashes. As if new strength has awoken in him.

Could there be any worse time to happen?

He didn't want it he didn't need it anymore.

The only thing he has ever desired was to protect his beloved Sirius and he failed... totally.

Then why? Why now?

Why was wandless magic children's task now? That one was simple, he finally accepted this monstrous power. The moment he saw his godfather's grey eyes grow shallow it was no longer important what others may think.

A freak, murderer, another dark lord... he didn't care.

*You might see her even sooner than you anticipated.* Said the dark mocking voice behind him, the hissing only he could hear. *You enraged me you know..* he heard again as the only other well known owner of the parseltongue came closer and closer. *Bella might have been a little insane but she was loyal... Loyalty is not easily found these days, Harry Potter. I wanted you to join my side but I'll drop the thought, obviously, when my trust that you cannot kill in cold blood suddenly disappeared...* Said Voldemort would-be sublimely and stopped about 30 feet from Harry.

They were looking at each other.

One deeply hating the other.

Two monsters...

finally face to face...

One full of desire for endless life the other hoping for death.

Lust for the blood of an innocent race versus revenge for parents - the loss of a family.

They had one thing in common, though, murderers the both of them shared their desire to end life of the man in front of them.

"AVADA KEDAVRA!" Screamed both of them at the same time. Only magic was heard cracking as one huge green beam was connected once it was fired from both wands.

It was impossible to kill the other, no, their wands wouldn't have let them. Wands... but wandless magic doesn't work on the same principle. "AVADA KEDAVRA!" Could be heard for the second time and beams of light from their palms united again in the middle.

Now only their resolve could unbalance the state for their strength was of the same merit.

Who's going to win?

Whose aim is strong enough to supress the other one?

The lust for killing innocent? Or hollow revenge?

Suddenly a greenish barrier went up around them which even though looked pretty could kill in an instant. Death Eaters trying to help their lord, hexing the barrier or foolishly coming through died. The others didn't, though, no. Dumbledore, Hermione, Remus... were only pushed few feet backwards.

It was Harry who could at least partly control their mixed up magic, Voldemort knew and it was driving him mad. Their wands started to crack sisters rather die themselves than hurt the other. One beam of green disappeared, wands were no longer useful… they hit the floor with a dull clap almost simultaneously. Both wizards joined their palms to the spell hoping it would grant some advantage but the result was none.

'You could stay at my place, if you want...'

'Be careful.'

'Love you, Harry, we'll always be a family.'

'Talk to me, please, you're my godson, I love you, then...'

'You... you love me?'

'Don't push me, please!'

'Damn it, I love you too! But what would people say to this?'

'And what about Molly? Ron, Hermione, your friends! I'm twice your age! Scratch that, I'm even older than James, your father, remember?'

'Harry... I love you too... I was trying to ignore my feelings, I already voiced bunch of reasons we cannot be together but I can't hold myself any longer... do you... would you give it a try? Relationship with me?'

'Why? You even need to ask? We can't have a proper date, it's ruining you, I can see it!'

'Harry... Harry I'm sorry. Talk to me, please...'

Memories, that came to his mind right before the green light hit his chest were all connected to his lover.

Why?

Why didn't he forgive Sirius?

He would have not needed to go to the ministry then to make sure his godfather is alright and safe. It would have been enough to ask through that mirror shard.

At least I die with you...

That was his last thought and with a short sigh his eyelids started to fall with tiredness.

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I hope you liked it!

Now hurry on to the next chapter!

And read it!

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