Whut up y'all? This will probably remain a one shot unless I'm encouraged to go farther.
Raven sat in her dark room. The only light came from the moon through a small gap in her dark curtains. It had been some time sense Slade's return and she was torn with what she knew would happen.
"The end of the world…." Her voice was so silent, she could barely hear it. She didn't want to hurt her friends or anyone else for that matter. Every Titan was close to her. Robin was her partner in creating the Titans, Cyborg was like her big brother, Starfire was her best friend, and Beast Boy was the one who always tried to make her happy.
"Beast Boy…" she thought ".. I'm so sorry…" Earlier he had tried to cheer her up with a joke. She no longer remembered it but the outcome was what plagued her.
Flashback
"That was your worst joke yet.." Raven was in a very bad mood today. Hearing one of Beast Boy's jokes was the last thing she needed right now.
"Sorry." The green Titan grinned and scratched the back of his head.
"Yes you are."
"Hey! I only tell my jokes to cheer you up, Rae." The comeback stung him worse than if it had come from anyone else.
"Good job." Her sarcastic tone cut him again.
"Rae, I'm sorry but I only say 'em cause I care and I don't want you to be sad and depressed."
"Care? Like you cared for Terra? Or the false way she cared for you?" That was the final cut. They all agreed silently to avoid the Terra subject with the two. It was complicated and volatile. Raven could see hurt building in his eyes. He dropped his head and quickly made his way to his room.
"Bea.." Her voice was cut off by a wave of his hand and his shaking head. Tears could be seen on his cheeks. "sorry…." The apology was inaudible to him.
Back to present
"Why?... Why did I do that?.. It's not like his ever brought up Malcior…" Raven began to fall in a depressed state. Her hooded figure was seated on her bed, crying softly. "I wish I was never born..."
One thought ate away at her. 'What if she was never born?' It was possibly an idiotic question but it still lingered. Going to her book self, she decided to find out. She searched book after book until she found it.
"A spell to see what life would be like without me.." She gathered the ingredients and began the spell. She drew an encircled five pointed star with a grayish power that she had mixed and drew another one with a bluish powder facing the opposite direction. After chanting a few words, an image appeared. In the image was life without her. Surly everyone was happy. What Raven didn't realize, was that she opened a portal to an alternate dimension. She felt herself being pulled in. She no longer cared what happened, so she let it take place.
On the other side, she found herself in an empty room. The portal was still on the floor, awaiting her to return to her world. Raven looked at her arms, they were transparent. Her entire body was. She had become a phantom in this world so that she could move around without others seeing her.
"First things first." She said to herself.
She passed through the door and floated to the living room. Everything looked normal except for one thing.
"It's way too quiet.."
No one was there. It was apparent that Robin could have formed the Titans without her help but why wasn't anyone in the living room? There was no Game Station, no books or magazines, nothing.
"Odd.."
She made her way to the refrigerator and opened it up to find.
"No tofu? Maybe I'm the reason Beast Boy's vegetarian.."
She also checked the cabinets, no herbal tea either. But why would there be if she was never born?
Raven walked upstairs to the first bedroom, Cyborg's.
He was at his computer. There was no expression on his face. The monitor was showing files of different criminals that the Titans had faced. His room, like his face, held no joy. Raven wondered what bothered her ' big brother' but didn't dwell upon the thoughts.
The next room for her to explore was Starfire's. Surely she couldn't change. Starfire's room was like the one in Raven's world, only without Silkie. This confused Raven.
"If I wasn't born, then why isn't that bug here?"
Starfire was in her room reading a cookbook. This made Raven hope that she did this where she was from. On her dresser, there were pictures in frames. One was all the Titans together. The thing that astonished Raven the most was that Beast Boy wasn't in it.
"Strange.."
Others were obviously taken by Starfire. They were out of focus and blurry. One was missing. Raven remembered that there was a picture of Robin and Starfire at the carnival, but here it was not found.
Their expressions were also not as happy as someone who knew them would expect. Finding no other information and still feeling purposeless, she continued to Robin's room.
Robin was not in his room at the time, but Raven was sure he was training. His room was quite a mess, it reminded her of Beast Boy's.
"Not like him.."
Again, finding no major changes, she left to the last and smallest room; Beast Boy's.
Entering the room she found it surprisingly clean! However one other thing was shocking, it was bare. Only one small table sat in the middle of the room. On it, more pictures. As Raven approached, she realized why she had not seen Beast Boy in an earlier photograph.
"he.. He's dead…" She felt her heart sink.
On the center of the table was a black and white photo of Beast Boy. He looked very different than how Raven knew him. He was giving a very small smile and had four piercings in his left ear and an eyebrow ring. He was wearing a black dress shirt with a mesh one underneath. Two black ribbons were on the corners of the frame. Next to the large picture were two smaller frames. One held a photograph of Beast Boy looking down, with a sorrowful look on his face. It reminded Raven of herself sometimes. In the other frame, a poem.
"I'm going to draw a picture
A picture with a twist
I'll draw it with a razor blade
I'll draw it on my wrist
And as I draw my picture
A fountain will appear
And as the fountain's flowing
All my troubles disappear.
May you find love, guys; cause a never did"
Raven broke down instantly. Her powers did not affect this dimension. Beast Boy's suicide cut deep into her heart. She never knew how much she meant to him. She was the one that kept him Happy. She was the one that kept him the way he was. In turn his good attitude caused Robin and Starfire to notice each other some how. Perhaps his projective personality was what brought happiness to the Titans. Without him, no one was happy. Without her, no one was happy.
Raven looked at the center picture frame and read the dates at the bottom.
"November 8, 1988 through August 29, 2003" He committed suicide the day before he would have went inside her mind.
When Raven returned to her room and world, she dried what tears she had left and went into the hallway. She head down until she reached the last and smallest room. She pressed her ear against the door, on the other side she could here small sobs and Beast Boy speaking to himself.
"I'm no good to anyone. I should just stop being an annoying little bitch and do it…"
Raven quickly opened the door to see Beast Boy, seated on his bottom bunk with a letter next to him and a razor blade in his right hand, about to slice his left.
Without hesitation, Raven threw herself at him; holding him tightly, saying "I'm so sorry Garfield, I'm so sorry."
Beast Boy felt tears fall upon his shoulder and placed his head on her's with tears of his own.
The letter was the same one she read before. Only beneath the dark poem was a different message.
"I cause Raven too much pain, so I ended it. I'm sorry Rae."
(Shall it remain a one shot? Or shall it be left? Please review.)
