Ok so I posted this as a one shot a very long time ago but have since added to it and decided to re-upload it.
*Disclaimer* Do not own Castle. Sadly.
I promise I will update Nightmares and We'll Meet Again this weekend!
Warning: character death.
Deep in the stillness I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be that you are mine forever love
And you are watching over me from up above
A Few More Minutes
Today, just like every other day, Rick sits in the grass slowly running his fingers over her name on the cold stone. He brought her flowers today, he just needed to talk to her, to feel like she was near again, and this was the only place he could do that now. "Not a day goes by I don't think of you Kate. I always ask myself if this would have even happened if I hadn't brought up your mothers case or if I never came into your life in the first place. He finally let out the tears he had been trying so hard to hold back as he thought back to the day he lost her in that same graveyard.
He stands next to her listening to her give the eulogy speech, knowing she was still angry with him, that she may never forgive him. Rick glances towards her in time to see her look back at him as she says, "and if you're very lucky, you find someone willing to stand with you." Maybe there was hope for them after all.
Looking back out over the crowd, he noticed a small gleam of light from behind a tombstone. Hearing the gunshot he charges towards her screaming "Kate!" and grabs her, effectively tackling her to the ground. He thinks he reached her in time until he leans up and looks down at her, the front of her uniform covered in blood. "Stay with me. Please, Kate don't leave me. Please, stay with me" he begs seeing the life fade from her. Just as her eyes slowly close he whispers "I love you Kate, I love you."
The feel of someone's hand on his shoulder breaks him from his trance. "I thought I would find you here kiddo." He doesn't say a word, just keeps silently staring at her headstone. She tries again, "Richard…"
"It's my fault. She's dead and it's all my fault."
"Don't say that Richard."
"It's the truth. If I had convinced her to let her mother's case go, if I had never brought the case back up in the first place, or if I had never followed her around this wouldn't have happened. She would still be here. None of this would have happened."
Martha didn't know what to say, she had never seen her son in this much pain before. She took a seat in the grass next to him and grabbed his hand, giving it a light squeeze. They sat in silence for several minutes before he spoke again, "Four months mother. It's been four months and they still don't have a single lead. I've come here every day for four months and promised her that we would find who was behind this. I've let her down."
"Listen to me. Ryan and Esposito will find the person that murdered her. They won't give up until he's behind bars where he belongs. She also knows how much you love her and that you would never let her down."
"I can't do it anymore mother. Everything reminds me of her. I pray every morning that I wake up that all of this has just been some terrible nightmare. I sit and listen for my phone to ring, hoping that she will call, even though I know it won't happen…that it can't happen. She's just gone."
"No matter how bad it seems right now, I promise you it will get better," she patted his leg forcing a small smile.
"You think so?" he asks tears still falling.
"I know so. Now, what do you say we go home?"
Soon he will go home, pour himself some scotch, and try to forget, if only for a minute, that she's not here with him anymore. He'll try to forget that tomorrow he won't be going into the 12th carrying her grande skim latte with two pumps of sugar free vanilla, that the one time he told her he loved her was the only time he would ever get to, that he will never be able to hold her or kiss her, and that no matter what anyone tells him, he will always blame himself.
He looks back at the flowers he laid on her grave, "I just need a few more minutes."
As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
Cause you are my forever love
Watching me from up above
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