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This is my new fic called Let Me Find You. Izzie never had cancer, George didn't get hit by a bus or join the army, and everything is as it should be..... This takes placed 3 years after end of season five.....
Summary: Meredith and Derek Shepherd have the perfect life. Perfect careers, money, huge house, lots of land, supporting family, and adorable two and a half year old daughter, Emily Elizabeth Shepherd. She is the perfect combination of Meredith and Derek. She had Derek's dark, curly hair, but Meredith's emerald eyes, nose, mouth, and laugh. Emily was their world. But it only takes one day for a world to fall apart....
"Time of death," Meredith sighed. "13:02."
"We did all we could Mer," Derek told her. Meredith looked down at the 12 year old girl on the OR table. Amanda Dole. Only a few minutes ago she was alive, but now she was lifeless and cold.
"I... I.... we should have gotten her to surgery earlier," Meredith whispered as they went to the scrub room.
"We had no clue it was an aneurysm at that point. There was no way we knew it was gonna burst either," Derek told her kissing her cheek.
"We have to tell he father though," Meredith sighed. "All I want to do if go get Em from the day care and cuddle with her." Two and a half years ago, Meredith and Derek's lives were complete when little Emily Elizabeth was born at 5 pounds.
"Your shifts over now, you can go get her after...." Derek told her turning off the faucet.
"Let's go Der," Meredith murmured and left the scrub room and made their way towards the waiting room. When Matthew Dole spotted the two neurosurgeons he jumped off his seat and ran over.
"Dr. Shepherd's," he said sounding relived and nervous. "How is Mandy doing? Didn't you just..." He trailed off.
"Mr. Dole," Meredith began. "Your daughter...."
"No... don't say it," he hissed.
"We did everything we could. The aneurysm burst and..." Derek explained.
"SHUT UP!" Matthew screamed. Meredith jumped back. "You.... you said she would be okay! You promised!"
"But.... but what does that mean?" Matthew asked fearfully from the side of his unconscious daughter's gurney.
"She needs surgery to clip the aneurysm. Other wise it could burst and bleed out," Derek explained.
"But... but she is so young... I can't lose her.... you have to do everything possible," he begged.
"Mr. Dole," Meredith said calmly taking out a picture in her wallet. And pointed to the little girl. "This is our daughter Emily. We will treat Amanda as if we are treating her. She is in good hands." Matthew looked up at them for a second, kissed Amanda's hand, and let them pass towards the OR.
"We couldn't do anything..." Derek tried to continue.
"SHUT! UP! YOU KILLED HER!" he screamed. "YOU TWO ARE MURDERERS! SHE WAS A PERFECT LITTLE GIRL AND YOU RUINED HER! YOUR GONNA REGRET THIS!" With that he stormed out of the room and the hospital. Derek sighed and kissed Meredith's head.
"Der," she whispered.
"He's angry Mer, and confused. He just lost his daughter, he has a right to be angry," he reassured. She only sighed. "Go get Em. She has ways to cheer you up I can't even figure out."
"Okay Der," Meredith murmured, kiss his cheek, and went towards the elevator and to the day care floor. When Meredith entered the room, she immediately saw Emily coloring with a few of her friends. She used to be friends with Tuck until his father got full custody of him much to Miranda's dismay. Now Emily was like her little girl. She was the only baby in the family and probably going to be like that for a little while longer. She was everyone's little girl.
"Hello Dr. Shepherd," one of the assistants, Lauren said. "You here to pick up Emily?"
"Yes," she nodded and called for her daughter. Immediately her little head whipped around and Meredith smiled as she saw her daughter's eyes light up.
"MOMMY!" she squealed and ran towards her mother, jumping into her arms.
"Hey princess," Meredith said kissing her cheek. "How was day care today?"
"It fun," Emily babbled. "We pway wit bwocks and me make you a piture!"
"Well let's see it," Meredith said setting her down. Meredith laughed as she watched her chubby little legs run towards the table she was previously sitting at and pick up a paper before running back into her arms.
"This it Momma," Emily said handing it to her. It consisted of a bunch of squiggles. Meredith could make out three people. One that looked like her, one that looked like Derek, and a little girl in between them. They were all standing in front of what looked like house that was near trees. It was supposed to be their house on Derek's land.
"It's beautiful Em, thank you," Meredith said and put it in her pocket. "That's going on the fridge." Their fridge was covered with drawing and finger painting's Emily has made. Emily giggled.
"We home now?" Emily asked.
"Yepp we are going home," Meredith said. "I just have to stop by Daddy's office."
"We see Daddy?" she asked.
"Maybe," Meredith told her walking out of the day care and onto the elevator.
"Me push button?" Emily asked.
"You push the button," Meredith nodded. "Push this one Em." She pointed to the number 3 and Emily pushed it immediately with a giggle. "So what do you want to do when we get home Em?"
"Rella! Rella!" Emily squealed. Rella was Emily's word for Cinderella. That was her favorite movie of the moment.
"Shhh Em, not so loud," Meredith mildly scolded. Emily put her finger to her lips.
"Shhh," she repeated and Meredith nodded smiling. The elevator opened and Meredith opened Derek's office.
"Dada," Emily frowned when Derek wasn't found.
"Sorry baby," Meredith said. "Daddy isn't here. But you can see him when we get home."
"Okay," Emily said, pouting. Meredith put Emily on the couch and quickly slipped out of her scrubs and into "Mommy clothes" as Emily liked to call them. Emily played with Meredith's keys until Mer slipped on her coat and picked her up. As soon as they walked out of the office Emily spotted Mark, Lexie (her godparents), Izzie, and Alex at the nurses station.
"Unca Mark!" Emily squealed and wiggled out of her mother's grasp. As fast as her legs could carry she ran over to Mark and jumped into his arms.
"Hey munchkin," Mark tickled her stomach. "How's my favorite little girl."
"Me not little," Emily shook her head. "Me almost fwee." She held up three fingers.
"Not until September Em," Meredith told her walking over.
"How long till dat?" Emily asked tilting her head.
"In about 6 months," Izzie told her, while kissing her on the cheek.
"How long dat?" she asked, everyone laughed. Emily was always asking questions.
"A long time Em," Alex told her. Emily pouted.
"Me not like that," she said still pouting. "Me want to be fwee now."
"That's not something I like to see," a new voice said. Emily's eyes lit up.
"DADDY!" she squealed and turned around to see Derek walking towards them. Emily held her arms out for him and as soon as he got close enough, wiggled out of Mark's grasp and hurled herself into his arms. Derek wrapped his arms around her little body as Emily started to examine Derek's pocket and name tag with her tiny fingers.
"Hey princess," Derek said nodding hello to his friends. "How was day care today?"
"It fun," Emily babbled. "Me colored and cas and bwocks."
"You colored, played with cars, and played with blocks," Lexie said in mock amazement. "This must have been a big day. You must be tired."
"Uh-uh. Me not tired," Emily shook her head. "Me still gets to pway wit Mommy."
"Oh so we must be interrupting," Alex teased tickling the little girls stomach.
"Unca Awex, what's... intewupin?" Emily asked.
"You'll learn when your older Em," Izzie told her.
"But I am almost fwee," Emily said again, holding up three fingers. She then found Derek's pen and began clicking it.
"A silly almost three year old," Derek teased throwing her over his shoulder. This sent Emily into a fit of hysterical giggling before he lifted her to sit on his shoulder.
"Me tawer then all ou," Emily pointed out with a smile.
"Yeah, you are getting so big Em," Mark said tickling her foot. Derek held her in place as she started to kick her legs.
"Em, I think we better go now," Meredith told her as she noticed her getting hyper.
"Kay," she nodded. "Cause me hungyyyy!"
"Well we'll just have to fix that won't we," Meredith said. "Say goodbye to Daddy, Uncle Mark, Aunt Lexie, Uncle Alex, and Aunt Izzie."
"Bye bye!" she waved to Alex, Izzie, Mark, and Lexie. She reached up and left a wet kiss on Derek's cheek. "Bye bye Daddy." She then stuck her hand in her mouth.
"Bye princess, see you at home," he said and handed her to Meredith. Emily giggled as Meredith lifted her up on her hip and allowed her to examine her hair with her wet fingers. Meredith grimaced but she loved her too much to say stop.
"Bye Der," Meredith said as he kissed her cheek.
"Mommy, Feeboat?" Emily asked.
"Yes we are going on the ferry boat Em," Meredith answered. An hour later they were home. Meredith was cutting up cheese and salami for Emily in the kitchen. That was one of the only things she would eat for lunch.
"What do you want to drink Em?" Meredith asked as her daughter stood at her feet, her bear 'Beary' in her hands.
"Apple Duce," Emily answered.
"Apple juice it is," Meredith said picking her up and placing her in her high chair. Emily giggled and reached for the plate her mother prepared along with some watermelon. Emily giggled as she picked up a cracker and stuffed it in her mouth along with her hand. She then hoisted Beary up and grabbed her sippy cup and put it to Beary's mouth.
"What are you doing Em?" Meredith asked biting into her own sandwich.
"Beary tirsty," she answered before taking a sip.
"Oh," Meredith nodded. "He hungry too?" Immediately she picked up a cracker and held it to Beary's mouth.
"He hungyyyy too," Emily nodded. It didn't take long for all the food to be gone from Emily's plate.
"Me down Momma," Emily said banging on the high chair once.
"Emily Elizabeth, no banging," Meredith scolded.
"Orry Mommy," Emily said looking down. Meredith smiled and took her out of the seat.
"Your forgiven princess," she said. "Now... you wanna go watch Cinderella."
"Rella! Rella!" Emily giggled and started jumping up and down. Meredith put the DVD in for Em and cleaned up from lunch before sitting down with her. It wasn't long until Emily was asleep, Meredith, not realizing it was her nap time. Instead of putting her upstairs she allowed her to sleep on her lap for the majority of the time. She was still upset about Amanda and was easily comforted by her daughters sleeping form. Of course, it didn't take long for Emily to wake up as soon as the hour and a half passed. Immediately she became the rambunctious two year old again.
"Mommy what we do now!" Emily giggled. Meredith was about to suggest coloring but the thought of crayons and markers in the already messy living room made her shutter.
"Em, why don't you go to your play room for a little and maybe we can go for a walk later," Meredith suggested.
"Okay Mommy!" Emily giggled and grabbed Beary by the arm. Meredith shook her head as she felt the thump of her little feet through the floor on the way to the play room.
"Careful Em," she laughed and began picking up some of Emily's toys and DVD's that were scattered over the rug in the living room, despite the fact that they had a play room. That is when she heard a door creak open.
"Em!" she called. "Emily Elizabeth answer me!" There was no answer. All she heard was a door close.
"EMILY-" she broke off as something struck her in the back of the head and she fell to the floor and everything went black.....
........... Who hit Meredith? Did Emily hear? What is gonna happen?
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