This story includes spoilers for all upcoming episodes, especially for 2x19 and 2x20. So don't read it if you want to be surprised!

I know why I stopped reading spoilers. They are just making me super antsy and make me want to see all the episodes now and not wait for them for weeks. But I couldn't help myself and browsed through all of them today.

This build-up is going to drive me nuts and break my heart along the way. I wouldn't be surprised when I'll shed some tears when Nick and Jess finally admit their feelings to each other. Hopefully in the season finale. :-)

God, I've sworn myself I would never ever fall in love with a couple like that again after Mark and Lexie broke my shipper heart. But well, look at that, it happened again. Gaaaah!

Disclaimer: I don't own these wonderful characters or this awesome show!


Chapter 1

Jess was sitting in their favorite booth at Nick's bar, a glass of pink wine in front of her, listening with one ear to Schmidt and Winston's conversation while her eyes were searching for Nick behind the bar. They were still acting awkward around each other and Jess had asked herself a million times why they couldn't go back to normal.

As she was lying awake last night, mulling over it in her head, she suddenly found her answer and even though she should have known it all along it still hit her hard as the realization broke through. She couldn't go back to normal because the kiss had meant something. She should have listened to her body. It had just reacted and she had kissed him back. What was the saying? Actions said more than words ever could?

The kiss had meant something and she wanted more. It scared the crap out of her to even think about it but it was what it was. She wanted Nick. Now she just needed to find a way to tell him.

As she watched him behind the bar, a woman stepped up to him and Jess realized that this had to be the owner's daughter. Nick had told them about Shane. But he hadn't told them that she was drop-dead gorgeous. Jess' eyes narrowed as she saw how Shane trailed her fingers down Nick's arm, standing just a little too close for it to be a normal conversation and then Nick looked up at her, his mouth curving up in a smile and hot jealousy rushed through her. She was flirting with him and he flirted back. It shouldn't hurt so much. She didn't have any rights to be jealous. They weren't together. He could do whatever he wanted.

She was flirting with him. Nick was sure about that and he felt flattered. She was a beautiful woman. He knew it was a bad idea to sleep with your boss's daughter. Those things tended to blow up in your face. But he was tired. Tired of shoving the feelings he had towards Jess back into a dark corner, over and over again. Maybe having meaningless sex with a beautiful woman would cure him. The thing between Jess and him wasn't going anywhere. Thinking about having sex with her would just make the whole situation even more awkward. Yeah, maybe having sex with another woman would put her out of his mind.

~N&J~

Jess was sitting on the couch, her fingers curled around a glass of wine. She didn't know why she was waiting for him. She had seen the looks Shane and Nick had shared. She had given him a silent invitation and after all Nick was just a man. How could he refuse such an invitation? But Jess still had hope, a small part of her still hoped that he had turned her down, that he wouldn't sleep with her. So she was sitting on the couch, waiting for him to come home. Hoping he would come home alone.

As she heard the key at the door her heart jumped in anticipation but plummeted into her stomach as she heard Nick's deep laughter followed by the hoarse voice of a woman. He wasn't alone. He had brought her back with him.

As they stumbled into the loft, the woman clinging to his side, Jess drew in a shuddering breath and she felt a deep pain in her chest and almost could hear it as her heart broke. She was too late. He had forgotten about the kiss. The realization how much he meant to her had come to her too late. He was about to have sex with another woman.

Tears welled up in her eyes and she jumped up from the couch, rushing past the couple, mumbling under her breath. "Don't mind me. I'll get out of your hair."

Nick looked after her, uncertainty slithering through him. For one second he'd thought he'd detected real pain flashing up in Jess' eyes as if showing up with another woman had hurt her feelings. Shaking his head, he turned back to the woman in his arms. Jess didn't want him. Seeing something in her eyes that just wasn't there was just a figment of his imagination. Just wishful thinking. Jess didn't care if he had sex with anyone else.

~N&J~

The next morning Nick accompanied Shane to the door, giving her a quick kiss before he let her out and strode towards the kitchen island where Jess and Winston were sitting, drinking their respective morning beverages. Winston his coffee that contained more sugar than coffee and Jess one of her herbal teas. Walking to the coffee pot, he poured himself a cup, almost spilling it all over his hand as Winston smacked a hand on his back.

"Wow, man. Sex with the daughter of your boss? How courageous! So, how was it?"

"Well, ..." Nick started, feeling uncomfortable to say anything in Jess' presence. She hadn't looked up yet, she hadn't even answered his grumbled good-morning greeting. She wasn't angry with him, was she?

"It's okay, Nick. You don't need to tell us. I'm sure it was great." Winston continued, unaware of the unusual silence of their other roommate. Nick thought he could see Jess flinch as she heard Winston's comment. Had he really hurt her by sleeping with another woman?

"I need to go to the gym." Winston said. "But good for you. It was about time for you to get some action."

Winston grabbed his sports bag and walked out of the loft, the click of the door reverberating through the eerily quiet apartment. Nick walked to the kitchen island, leaning his arms on it and said quietly. "Jess? Everything okay?"

"I have to go." Jess replied without looking at him. Standing up, she walked over to the sink and emptied the rest of her tea before she put the mug down carefully, the urge to smash it against his head almost overwhelming.

"Jess?" Nick asked again, lifting his hand to put it on her shoulder, jumping back when she swatted his hand away and turned around, her face contorted with anger.

"I bet you didn't get much sleep last night." Her voice was like a slap in the face and Nick took another step back, afraid that she would hit him any second. "You might wanna crawl back into bed and have some wet dreams."

"Jess, I'm sorry." Nick said apologetically. He didn't want to hurt her. But if he was honest, maybe a small part of him had hoped it would affect her if she would see him with another woman. But he should have probably thought it through more thoroughly. Because she was clearly hurt.

"What are you sorry about?" Jess snapped. "You had sex with a beautiful woman. I don't care. "

"Then why are you acting so weird?" Nick asked, suddenly getting angry with her. "You insisted that the kiss didn't mean anything." His voice grew louder and louder and he stepped closer, grabbing her arms and shaking her slightly. "Did you think I would be celibate for the rest of my life? I'm a man, Jessica. I can't be celibate."

"Of course." Jess scoffed, her face coming dangerously close to his as she hissed. "Just stick it into every woman that comes along your way."

"I can't believe it." Nick shouted. " Are you jealous, Jess?"

"Jealous? I?" Jess exclaimed, pushing his hands away. "Of course not. Why should I be jealous? I bet your abilities in bed are just mediocre, judging by the sloppy kiss you gave me."

"The kiss wasn't sloppy and you know it." Nick gritted out through clenched teeth. "I'm a rocket in bed, Jessica. No woman ever leaves my bed unsatisfied."

"A rocket? Please!" Jess replied, her voice dripping with sarcasm. "Don't over exaggerate like that, Nicholas. You know, women are very good at faking orgasms."

"When I take a woman into my bed she doesn't need to fake anything." Nick shouted, his voice suddenly becoming dangerously low as he continued. "But you will never find out, Mrs. Day. Because I will never sleep with you. Even if you would drop on your knees in front of me and beg me to stick it to you."

"Beg you?" Jess replied, her voice shaking with hardly suppressed anger. "Are you out of your freaking mind, Mr. Miller? I would never want to sleep with you. Never."

"Great. Then that's settled." Nick snapped.

"Fine." Jess exclaimed. Turning sharply around, she stomped to her room, slamming the door shut behind her, leaving a fuming Nick behind.

~N&J~

Jess had paced through her room for over an hour but she couldn't calm down. She was furious. Furious with him for sleeping with another woman, furious with him for putting these unwanted pictures in her head. Pictures of him satisfying her. His hands on her body, showing her how well he could satisfy a woman. She knew he would be good in bed. Of course he would. Someone who could kiss like that couldn't be anything else than fantastic in bed. But as he told her, she would never find out and the fact that she wanted to find out how good he was in bed made her even angrier.

She needed to blow off some more steam and there was no better way than to shout at him some more. Jess yanked her door open and stormed over to his room, yanking his door open as well without bothering to knock.

"You know what, Nick? I really don't care. You can sleep with whoever you want. Because the kiss didn't mean anything. Nothing at all. So you can just ..." Jess stopped in mid-sentence as she looked up for the first time since she started her rant and saw Nick's ashen face. He was lying on his bed, staring motionlessly at the wall, his hands balled into fists beside his body.

"Nick? What happened?"

Slowly he turned his head towards her and Jess' heart constricted painfully in her chest as she saw the pain settled deep in his eyes. She rushed forward and sat down beside him, grabbing his hand and squeezed it hard. "What is it, Nick?" Jess said quietly, wanting nothing more than to hug him tightly but she didn't know if her comfort would be welcomed.

"My dad ..." Nick said quietly and Jess dug her fingers into his skin. His face already told her what he would say next. "... he died this morning."


As you can see, I'm not finished with this story. I really didn't want to start a new story but like I said the spoilers are driving me nuts. So, I need an outlet for my antsyness.

I know Jess finding out about Shane and Nick won't happen like this. I altered it a little bit because I wanted them to deny that they have feelings for each other for a little bit longer and of course I let them have one of their shouting matches. I just love when they are shouting at each other! Maybe because it reminds me of the infamous shouting matches between David and Maddie from 'Moonlighting'. I loved this show!