Hey guys.. This is the sequel I promised you all for Before snow falls.. I hope you like.. And read at the end of the chapter..


Spencer's POV

Love is a very strong word.. Sometimes it lasts sometimes it doesn't. Do you stop though loving the person who made your heart skip for the first time? Can you really forget all these wonderful things you shared? Every night when I sleep alone in my bed I think of her and how we found ourselves into this situation.. But maybe I should go back..

I was married to Ashley for fifteen wonderful years.. I said was because we aren't anymore. We are divorced for a year now. We started falling apart. Something I never believed it would be true. We were together since our twenties and now, now we weren't. Well all started when I was coaching the local ice skating team and Ashley, well Ashley didn't do anything.. She was always complaining that she had nothing to do. She didn't have a university degree so she couldn't have a decent job. We had the money from her inheritance but twelve years and two children, well you can't have money forever.. I was working though and I didn't have a problem. I didn't care if we didn't have the same amount of money we used to have.. I was raised with less.. But she did care.. Out of sudden money started to be our first problem..

Angelina was thirteen and Andrew seven years old.. We managed to keep our fights inside our bedroom and not let the children hear us. It was the last thing I wanted to do.. First was the money, then it was me working, then she was saying that she missed snowboard.. She would just find a reason to start a fight and I really couldn't understand why.. Till our biggest fight..

The kids were at school and I didn't have practice that morning.. Ashley was cranky for one more time and I couldn't take it anymore. This whole situation was driving me mad. And I tried.. God knows how much I tried..

"Ashley, will you tell me what the fuck is wrong with you?" she didn't even look at me. Instead she continued watching her program on the tv.. She was ignoring me for days now.. I snapped and took the remote control from her hand and turned off the tv..

"Why you did that?"

"Talk"

"I have nothing to talk about"

"I think I deserve a better answer than that. Don't you think?"

"Let it be Spencer"

"No, I am not. For the last couple of months you act like a stupid bitch. We fight for no reason and now you are ignoring me. What is it Ash? What's the matter with you?" she stood up from the couch and looked at me. Her look was cold.. I knew that somewhere deep inside my Ashley was still there.. This person before me wasn't the girl I fell in love

"You want to know what's wrong Spencer? Eh? Are you sure you want to know?"

"Tell me"

"I am tired. I am so tired. I am pissed and I am tired"

"Of what?"

"Of you. Of us. I think we did a big mistake that we married so young. Everything came so fast" I wish she hadn't say that.. I wish she could stab me but not say that we were a mistake.. That absolutely killed me..

"Since you think we are mistake then and you are tired the door is right there. You can always leave" I wanted to cry so much.. I couldn't believe that this was happening to us.. And why now.. After so many years she thought that we were a mistake.. I didn't believe that she could break my heart but she did..

"I didn't say that. I said that.."

"I heard what you just said. I am going to make it easy for you since you are tired of us. I am tired of your constant complaining Ashley. I am tired fighting with you every day and I am tired to believe that I can save this marriage.. So I am going to make it easy for you.. Tomorrow I am going to talk with our lawyer."

"What?"

"You heard me. And you should start searching for houses. If you can't I am going to take the children and go back to Ohio" after all this long I saw her face. I saw something. A feeling. But I couldn't anymore.. I was trying all these months.. And I had to think of my children. Living in a house with two parents that had just the typical between them wasn't good. It wouldn't be good taking a divorce either but as I said I had to think of my children..

I opened the door and left her there without turning back.. I walked outside the cold with only my sweater and I wasn't even cold.. I was fuming inside.. And when I knew I was far away from home I cried.. How on earth we ended like that?

Next morning I did go at my lawyer's.. Ashley didn't come with me. I told him I wanted a divorce. He tried to made me think if that the best solution.. I wasn't sure either but I was tired of trying to make us work. I tried, but when the other person doesn't want to try then, then nothing..

One year divorced and I still feel like it was like yesterday when we had this discuss. Ashley rent a house close to us and I stayed home with the kids. When I told Angelina she didn't cry.. She just asked me why.. All kids want their parents to be together and my child wasn't different. I promised to myself that I wouldn't say anything bad for Ashley in front of our kids. She will always be their mama and that is not going to change..

Ashley didn't sign the divorce papers right away.. Every time she would say that she forgot or that she had to do something. I am sure it was because she didn't want to. She didn't want the divorce but she was tired of us also. If she didn't know what is it that she wanted I wasn't planning to let her destroy us all.. So I had to leave although I was hurting because besides everything I still loved her..

Every Friday, Saturday and Sunday she had them and the rest of the week I had them. It was a friendly arrangement. Angelina and Andrew were her children as much as they were mine..

"Andrew, are you ready? Mama is going be here in a few minutes"

"I got him mom. Don't worry" Angelina said from upstairs. She was always protecting him but now she did even more.. I am not saying that she took well the whole divorce thing but she understood when I told her that I would always love her mama but right now we just couldn't be together.. When the kids were downstairs Ashley knocked at the door..

"Hey Spence"

"Hey Ash. The kids are ready" did I go on dates this last year? No. I maybe divorced to Ashley but I still love her..

"You look great"

"Thank you" she looked amazing. The last couple of months she seems changed. I can't put my finger to why she is but I can see that she looks at me differently.

"Mama, mama. You are here" she bend down to Andrew's height and hugged him..

"Hey little buddy. How are you today?"

"I am ok mama" Angelina came from behind and stood right next to me

"Hey princess"

"Hey mum" Angelina took me in her arms and kissed me. Every time that she was leaving our house she didn't like it and I could feel it. Andrew kissed me from Ashley's arms and for the first time Ashley and I were so close. I could feel her hot breath..

"Be nice for mama. Ok?"

"I am always nice mommy"

"Have a nice weekend my babies. Bye Ash"

"Bye Spence"

Whenever she was coming to take the kids I was waiting till she was inside the car so I could close the door. I watched her putting Andrew in the back seat and talk with Angelina. She didn't go to the driver's seat though. Instead she came back to where I was standing..

"Spence.. I.. I was thinking if you would like to come with us today. We are going to have lunch at Friday's"

"Thank you but I can't. I have plans"

"A date?" she said with sad voice. I didn't have plans and sure I didn't have a date. But she didn't need to know.

"Not your business Ashley"

"You are right. It's not. Well.. I hope you have fun tonight"

"Thank you"

"Bye" she said while looking at me.. She walked back to her car, looked at me for one more time and they left..

My heart was breaking. I got inside and I started to cry again. Why? Why I still loved her so much?

Ashley's POV

Everything was my mistake. I was the one to blame and not Spencer. I brought us to this point and I couldn't hate Spencer for that. I had her for granted. I don't know what overtook me and acted the way I did. At the end I lost someone I really loved and I was crying every night for the past year..

When she said she wanted a divorce I lost the earth from my feet. I didn't expect her to that but I guess I wasn't that easy either. But that wasn't a solution. When I saw the divorce papers I tried to post pone it but I couldn't for long. Spencer was persistent and she needed me to sign them. I didn't want to..

We arrange for me to have the children every weekend and I found an apartment close to our house so I can be next to them if something would happen. Did I regret everything? Every single day.. I was trying to get her back but she was so closed to herself. But I would try every day to win her back. Because what I said a year ago it was a lie. We were never a mistake. She wasn't a mistake. She was the best thing that happened in my life. And I screwed really bad..

When I went to our home to take the kids and she opened the door she looked amazing. I wanted to take her in my arms and ask for her forgiveness.. I missed how good we were, how I missed waking up next to her and feel her hands on my body. I missed her..

Our talks were always on the door. She never told me to get inside or talk. The only talk we had was only for the kids and nothing more.

When we got outside Angelina looked at me and told me about Spencer..

"Mum, I think you should ask mom out. I am sure she misses you and I am sure you miss her too"

"Princess it's not easy. Mommy and I.."

"Mommy and you are still love each other and I really can't understand why you both act like big kids"

"Angy.."

"Ask her.."

"Ok, wait"

Spencer was waiting at the door as always.. When I was getting closer to ask her my heart was ready to break..

"Spence.. I.. I was thinking if you would like to come with us today. We are going to have lunch at Friday's"

"Thank you but I can't. I have plans" my mind was screaming.. Spencer moved on, although Angelina didn't tell me anything about her mom dating. If she did I.. I don't know what I would do. For a year I didn't even consider myself go out and find someone. My mind was always in her..

"A date?"

"Not your business Ashley"

"You are right. It's not. Well.. I hope you have fun tonight" no I didn't. I didn't want for her to love someone else.. Stupid stupid Ashley..

"Thank you"

"Bye"

When I got back at the car Angelina looked at me and I just shook my head. I could feel her disappointment. I caused all this.. I was hurting my children and I pushed Spencer to someone else..

Usually our program was lunch on Friday's on Friday and snowboard on the weekend. Angelina was still doing both sports. She was very good but she didn't want to be a professional athlete. Spencer and I never pressured her though. She could do whatever she liked in her life and we would support her to whatever she would choose.

When we finish our lunch and went back to my apartment I thought how nice it would be to have Spencer here. To be a family again. If we all were together right now, Spencer would be at the kitchen cooking while Angelina would prepare the table and I would kiss Spencer on her neck. Andrew of course would watch Sponge Bob till we would tell him it was time for dinner..

I was sitting on my couch dreaming when I felt something heavy on my lap. I looked at what it was and I saw my phone. Angelina looked at me and nodded..

"Call her"

"I don't know. She told me she had plans"

"Mom every Friday is inside watching ice skating"

"How you know?"

"I know her and I live there"

"I don't know princess"

"Mum, I know you screwed like really bad. I know you still love mom. And if you do you are going to try and win her back. I know she still loves you too. I hear her cry every night"

"She does?"

"Yes, as you do"

"No, I am not"

"You do and stop lying. Call her. I am going to take Andrew in his room. Ok?"

"Thank you"

"You thank me when you win my mom back and we can be a family again"

"I am sorry Angy"

"I know. Goodnight mum"

"Goodnight princess"

I told Angelina whose fault it was. I never said what it was said but I told her it wasn't Spencer fault. That actually mommy tried very hard to keep our family together..

When I called Spencer's phone I thought that she wouldn't pick it up but she did after the first tone..

"Ash, what is it? Something happened? The kids are alright?"

"Yes, everyone is good. Don't worry"

"You scared me"

"I am sorry.. I just wanted to talk to you. That's all"

"We don't talk Ash. At least no more. And I don't think we have something to say"

"I do. Please let me. Please"

"Ash.. I thin you should.." I didn't let her finish.. Instead I continued..

"I love you. I never stopped loving you. I know I was an ass, a huge ass, stupid and whatever else you want to call me. I am sorry I brought us to this situation. I am sorry I told you we were a mistake. I was depressed Spence. I didn't know what was happening. I couldn't explain it either. You are the best thing that happened to me. You and the kids are my whole life. Please forgive me" I couldn't hear anything from the other line. I thought she ended the call. I hope she didn't "Spence? Are you still there? Spence?"

"I am here"

"Good. I thought I lost you"

"Why?"

"What?"

"Why now Ashley? Why after a year? You can't ask for forgiveness and expect me to take you back in my arms"

"I.. Spence.. I don't.."

"I tried Ash. I tried so much and you yet you were a bitch all the time. I can't be into that again. I can't put my children into that again. I am sorry"

"Our children Spence. Our. Angelina and Andrew are our kids. Yours and mine. Do you know how much they hurt?"

"Really? You are going to tell me how much my kids hurt? I didn't cause that Ash. You did" now she was pissed at me. I didn't want her to be pissed and I wasn't helping the situation..

"Ok. I caused it. I am sorry. I am trying Spence. I am seeing a psychologist for the last couple of months and she made me realize how much I need you. How much I love you. I just need another chance please"

"I don't know Ash. I really don't know"

"Please. That's all I ask. I was the one who broke us. Please let me be the one who will fix us. For our family Spence"

"We will see. I can't think right now.. Goodnight Ash"

That was a good thing. Wasn't it?


TBC

Didn't have the time to edit it.. As you see it's not the end because I couldn't finish it in only one chapter.. I had so many things to write and this one is almost 300 words.. So that means that I will write another chapter and may be two chapters instead of one..