A/N : Words written in italics, are quoted from the Series 15 episode 'Holby's got Torment'.
"This is why your big plan is such a bad idea… wallpaper samples and pushing buggies through the park!" Jac yelled at Jonny outside Darwin theatres.
"Who in their right mind, would want to have a baby with you anyway? Any product of your womb has got an even chance of being the anti-Christ!" Jonny yelled back.
At his words, Jac was furious. She was truly hurt after hearing this from her boyfriend. It was bad enough she had to receive the news about having endometriosis and now this? Her feelings caused her to hold out her hand and slap him across the face.
"Great, because I can't have kids anyway!" Jac blurted out, but tried really hard not to cry. And with these words, she turned and walked away.
Jonny on the other hand, stood there, stunned at the news. He couldn't believe what he had just heard. He decided to go after her. He looked all over Darwin, Jac was nowhere to be seen. She wasn't in her office, he checked in the locker room, she wasn't in the on-call room either. He zipped up his hoodie and headed outside, and finally there she was. On a bench, under the trees, alone in the dark night.
"Hey…" he whispered as he approached her and sat down beside her. He noticed a tear rolled down her right cheek.
"Go away!" Jac told him, facing the other way and wiping her tears. She didn't want him to see her crying.
"What's wrong, Jac?" he said slowly, he didn't give up.
"Nothing, just leave me alone…" Jac replied, still not looking at him.
"What did you mean, when you said 'you cant have kids'?" Jonny asked slowly, "Is there something I should know?"
"What does it matter? It doesn't concern you…" Jac replied, now facing the ground.
"Of course it matters, Jac… if there's anything on your mind you can tell me…" he said, slowly.
"You really want to know the truth? I've got endometriosis, there I said it. Now go. I hope you'll be happy with someone who can give you kids…" Jac blurted out, as she stood up and tried to leave.
"Jac wait…." He got hold of her right arm, and didn't let her make another step forward.
"Let go of me…" Jac told him, with tears rolling down her face again.
"I'm sorry to hear that…" Jonny replied, he still couldn't believe it.
"Oh really… I thought you said and I quote 'any product of my womb has a chance of being the anit-Christ'"? Jac said.
"yeah, I know, I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that…" Jonny was feeling guilty of saying such thing now.
"Well you said it now, we can't change that… Now let me go.." Jac tried to let go of his hold.
"Yes we can…" Jonny replied still not letting go of her, "Look at me…" he told her, turning her around, facing him now.
"I know… I want a family and a dog… I want it all, but if this means I can't, then it doesn't matter to me… as long as I have you in my life…" Jonny added.
"Really?! But can't you see, we want different things?" Jac replied, now looking at him.
"Yes I'm serious… I know, we argue about that, but at the end of the day, when Im home all alone, my mind keeps bringing back flashbacks of you… " Jonny told her.
"Please… don't say the L-word… " Jac made a face.
"That's my Jac…" he said smiling, "but seriously, we can go through this together, I'm going to be here for you…" he told her as he held her by her arms.
"there's nothing to go through, I have the condition, and that's it, end of. There's nothing to do about it now…" Jac was confused.
"Oh please Jac, don't tell me it never crossed your mind, about having a baby…" Jonny said slowly.
"well at first no, my work always came first, but it suddenly hit me again this morning…" Jac replied slowly, remembering of the moment she received the bad news. She took her life for-granted, but knowing she couldn't have kids, now she wanted kids more than ever.
"I knew there was a heart in there…" Jonny said, poking her chest with his finger. The way he looked at her, sent a tingle down her spine. She lifted her head up and Jonny lowered his, and landed onto her cold lips. "Don't worry Jac, there are a lot of options today… together we will find a way…" Jonny ended, as he hugged her tight, holding her body close to him, stroking her hair.
Jac on the other hand, was longing for his touch, even though she almost killed him with her words, a few moments earlier, outside theatre. She felt it. She wanted to start a life with him, she was willing to do everything for them to be happy, but would a baby make her life complete? But first, the real question is, how easy was that gonna be?
Hopefully I an going to continue this... I have some interesting stuff in mind. Depends on revision and time available, exams are coming up! All reviews are appreciated. Thanks Xx
