The great journey
An: I don't own star wars rebels because if I did it would not be finishing with just four seasons.
An 2: This story takes place just after Ezra learns of his parents deaths.
Chapter 1
Meeting an old friend
Ezra's pov
To say that Haidoral prime was a nice place was like saying jedi go to Mustafar to vacation, but Hera and Kanan chose it because of the reason, for me, I needed time after what I had learned. Kanan seemed to think that the empire will not look for us here and as much as I hate to admit it he is right about that. Too many people here for them to spot a small group such as ours.
Right now I am sitting in the gun tower on the ghost after yet another nightmare that seemed so real that I woke up with tears in my eyes and it was like that night after night. This vision is like the one I had before learning of my parents deaths, almost like there is more to it, but I don't want to know. They are gone and when I learned of that the stupid kid that had been me died and a new Ezra was born in his place.
Kanan keeps telling me that it will get easier with time, but I know he still suffers nightmares about order sixty six, when he lost everyone he ever knew including his master. I know what he feels about that time, but this is different, it was like I lost them twice. Once when the empire took them away to that prison and second time when I learned where they were but it was too late to save them from their fate.
I feel an arm come around my shoulders and I lean into the touch. This touch I would trust with everything I am, everything I could be. Kanan pulls me onto his lap and normally I would resist it, but I needed this, I needed to feel some one who cared about me, to hold me in this moment before I lost myself to the dark and cold. Kanan was my anchor as I was his.
"Trust me, it will get easier as time goes on. I know you don't believe me and I don't blame you for that, but I know how you are feeling right now. Every time I go through what happened that day, I realize there wasn't anything I could have done but get myself killed along with my master" Kanan said holding me tight against him.
"But I could have got them away...I was a coward" I started to say before Kanan interrupted me "you Ezra are no coward, just like when I was running from my master as she died, you did the only thing you could at the time. I know your parents and my master would rather have us here together alive than with them in the force".
"I know master, but it still hurts and I worry about the dreams I am having about them, but what if it means something is going to happen to you? I don't think I could stand that too" I said my hand clutching his shirt.
"Ezra I can't promise that nothing will happen to me, just like you can't promise me that nothing will happen to you. No one on this crew can promise that, but we will do everything in our power to make sure that it does not happen" Kanan answered.
"But what if it does? what will you do if you lose me to a dark sider or worse?" I asked.
"If it is to the dark side then I will fight to get you back, hold you in a cell if I must until I get you to see sense again and if it is worse...if you die...as much as I would miss you every day, I know that one day I will see you again when it is my turn to become one with the force, but let's not talk about depressing thoughts like these any more" Kanan replied, forcing my head up so I would look him in the eyes.
"Well what do you want to talk about?" I said, my nightmare forgotten for now.
"How about making tomorrow an jedi only day? you and I will just do things together without the others" Kanan said, smiling and I said "what would we do together Kanan? I am a little young to go into a bar with you".
"Oh I know but there are cantinas where we can go and other places to explore that allow kids as young as you, but if you don't want to do this I will understand" Kanan said, trying to keep the hurt out of his voice and feelings if I refused to have a jedi day, but I felt it any way.
"No Kanan I want to, it sounds like fun" I told him.
"Trust me kid, it will be fun" he answered.
The next day the two of us set off for the nearest town, what we didn't know that some one from my past was coming to the same town and was going to have a big impact on what happens to me in the future, but right now I didn't know anything about it. My mind was on what we were doing today and not on what had haunted me.
The day went well we had fun, just like Kanan said we would. Our final stop for the day was the cantina, Kanan said he had a feeling we had to be here. I didn't realize how right he was until I saw him sitting by the bar, that was some one that I wasn't sure I wanted to see again.
"Eli?" I said softly.
Kanan looked at me and then at the man by the bar. Eli hadn't heard me like I knew he wouldn't but I wasn't sure I wanted him too. Kanan lead to a seat that had a view of Eli without letting Eli see me, so that if I wanted to stay hidden from the man I could. I looked at Kanan then back at Eli, I sighed then got up and moved over to Eli with Kanan at my side if I needed him.
"How's it going kid?" the man asked.
Eli looked like I remembered him, long silver blond hair with his silver metal hand from when an animal took it after saving my life and I remembered what that hand could do. I could feel Kanan's arm around my shoulders and his other hand on his blaster strapped to his leg. I hoped he did remember that I wasn't helpless, but right now I was glad he was here, Eli wasn't the easiest person to get along with at the best of times.
"The same, how about you?" I replied, still a little unsure of how to answer the man who had done some thing for me that only one other crew had done since.
"Can't complain, and by the way kid...Shadow says hello" he answered looking into my eyes.
An 3: like it? more soon.
