Dear Elena,
It's me, Bonnie, again. I know it's pretty redundant of me to write my name every time I start a new entry but this is the closest thing to a conversation we can have anymore…I can have anymore. You should be proud of me, I kept my promise. I've made an entry every single night since your Sleeping Beauty act as Caroline puts it. But I guess I've also broken it since the last entry I made was a loooong time ago. If only Damon could break Kai's spell with something as a small as true love's kiss on your lips. If there was a way, we should have found it by now but we didn't. We tried everything, 'Lena.
I have never seen Damon so driven to do something. No, I take that back. I have, once before, when he and I were trapped in the prison world. You really are his life, Elena, and I'm sorry that I was-am the reason you two are apart now when you could be growing old together. Damon's kept his half of the Cure under lock and key some place no one can find it. Not that anyone has tried to, we wouldn't dare come between you and him…not again. He still has hope, 'Lena. He hasn't given up and he will never give up. Damon and I have been helping each other through the last couple decades with you being gone. Our friendship has really grown and if you were to have told me in 2010 that he and I would be best friends, I would have laughed in your face. But honestly, he really is my best friend…besides Caroline of course. We don't see much of her anymore. You probably know what I'm talking about since she's probably fulfilling her end of the promise as well.
The one person you should be proud of, after all the crap he's been dealt, is Jeremy. At first we were scared that he would start with the pills again but he didn't. He's really grown up, you would be proud; Jenna would be proud. He's living his dream, graduated from art school. One of the many times he's visited us here in Mystic Falls, he showed us a little hobby of his, a graphic novel based on our gang's adventures. Damon, being the egotistic critic that he is, had a few choices words about how his character looked and was written into the story. He claimed that your brother "didn't capture him in all his eternal sexy stud glory". Getting back to the point, that "little" graphic novel was published and became a full-blown series, Bloodlines. When you wake up, be sure to pay special attention to the dedications in each volume. Don't worry about having to buy any of them, Jer always made sure that "you" were the receiver of the first copy of each issue; they're all boxed away, ready for you to open up and read.
Our Matty-Blue-Blue went on to become a cop, then a detective, working his way up to Lieutenant then captain. He's left Mystic Falls, it really is for the best. If anyone deserved to leave is was him.
It took a while but Alaric is finally happy again. It broke our hearts finding out that he nearly killed himself the night Jo died, the same night you committed the Sleeping Beauty act. I don't recall what exactly got him to change his ways but Ric found his happy ending. He met a woman that even got Damon's stamp of approval. She reminded us all of Jenna and Jo, a combination of the two. They had 3 children, 2 boys and 1 girl: Hunter, the oldest and ironic name; Ryder, the middle child; Hannah, Daddy's little angel. Of course Damon is their godfather, they couldn't decide on a godmother but we all knew it was reserved for you.
I don't know why I'm talking about everyone else's lives like these events took place a couple years ago. 68 years it's been since we all said our goodbyes to you…68. I'd say time goes by when you're having fun but it wouldn't be the most appropriate thing to say. 68 plus 18…86 years old. I guess the reason I'm bringing up things that Damon would fill you in on when you woke up is that I know that this is my last chance to really talk to you like the good old days…reminiscing about the past was always our favourite thing to do.
I should be making you smile and say that I found someone to spend the rest of my life with but I didn't. I'm not sad about it. I've had the occasional flings but nothing serious. I guess I wasn't meant for the American dream of white picket fences and 2 and a half children. In all fairness, maybe I was too scared to fall in love with someone and pull them into our supernatural world. We've lost too many people, myself included, and I couldn't bear to bring in another person into the equation.
I'm 86. I'm lying on my bed right now in the Salvatore Boarding House. Instead of sleeping I'm writing to you. You've slept enough for the both of us, don't worry. As soon as I'm done, I'm going to fall asleep. You'd think 68 years would be enough time to deal with the sacrifice you made for me to live my life but it wasn't….it still isn't. I'm sorry for what you had to endure. Sometimes I wish Damon left me to die with Kai that night. But then I think about the fact that I would have driven you two apart even more than I have now.
I wish I could see you one last time but I feel tired now. I love you so much Elena. When you wake up, please don't mourn for me too long. Despite how you feel at that moment, do me one last favour. Feathers. No flowers at my funeral, just feathers. Promise me that. I love you. Goodnight. Send my love to Damon when you awaken.
Bonnie Bennett
