I woke from a sleep-less night that involved me waking up screaming with Charlie by my side.

These nights where becoming even more and more common, since he left. I had so much pain by his name I had to refer to him by he or him. I know it sounds desperate of me to say this, but if he had never of left...Charlie might be able to sleep. But he had left me for a stupid reason. I can still remember everything that happened 3 months and 8 days ago...

*Flashback*

Charlie and Edward where sitting on the couch watching the baseball game. I walked into the living room from the kitchen and handed Charlie his dinner.

"Bella, please join me for a walk...We will not be gone long Charlie." Edwardhad said.

"Umm ok, I'll be back Char-- Dad." I said though I was not sure what was going on.

Edward motioned me towards the door and I walked out. I followed him to a darker part of the forest, only a few hundred feet from the house. Edward has only kissed me during the day..and they where short passionate ones..like before I had to go to Phoenix without him when James was after me. Edward stopped, turned away form me, and mumbled something to himself.

"Edward...what's going on?" I was so confused.

But no reply.

I just stood there while he stood away. I was becoming nervous. I had no idea what was going on.

"Bella, everyone including myself, has agreed that it would be best for you, if we start over again." He said slowly turning around to look at me..He looked as if he could cry, he would be.

" What? What are you saying? No. No. NO! You can't, you can't leave me! You promised! No Edward NO!" I was crying, I couldn't stop, I wouldn't. He cannot leave me.

"No, Edw-" But he cut me off.

"Please don't make this harder than it already is. You have no idea what I have gone through...This is going to kill me, but I must."

Edward grabbed me and kissed me, he wouldn't let me go. I have no idea how long he we stood there for, but I loved it. I started to cry again..well more like bawl when he let me go.

"Please take care of your self, for Charlie mainly. I can't and will not ever hurt you again." Edward said.

"NO! Shut up Edward!" I started to hit him but when I did I shot of pain ran up my arm.

" I NEED you, I can't! PLEASE Edward!" Everything was blurry because I was crying to hard.

"I'm sorry Bella, I will never cause pain for you again, Goodbye, I love you."

And just like that, He was gone. I searched around, looking everywhere. He was really gone. He left me.

*End of Flashback*

I found my self laying in my bed, crying. I bet I looked hideous. But I didn't care. I didn't care about anything that I did when he was still here. Not my clothes, my hair, anything. Because I knew I would never find anyone else that I loved for as much as I did him.

I looked at my clock, 7:01 it read. I rolled out of bed and threw on some random clothes that I at least matched up to as much as I could to my ability. When they where still here, Alice was the one that usually helped me with my clothes and I was thankful. But I hated that she bought me clothes, they where always waaaayyyyy to expencive for me.