All Grown Up.
Disclaimer: Don't own it, never will.
A/N: This goes out to my twinness meals (xanya-forever) because
she puts the bees under my bonnet.
……..
He
stares
I
stare back
It's
a game; games are fun. My mommy used to play games with me. There was a game
with a ball. Back and forth, back and forth. Mommy's gone, like my red slinky.
My
Aunt Dawn gave it to me; she said red was my favourite colour; I didn't want to
tell her she was wrong. It's blue. My mommy's favourite colour was blue. Aunt
Dawn sometimes tells me about mommy. She tells me about the monsters my mommy
fought.
When
I'm all grown up I'm going to fight monster like my mommy did.
Bam
bam.
She
says mommy was an extra good fighter, even better then Aunt Faith and Aunt
Faith is really, really, really good.
When
I'm all grown up I'll be as good as Aunt Faith. Better.
Sometimes
Aunt Dawn tells me about daddy. She tells me about how daddy used to pick me
up, up, up! And spin me around. Sometimes she tells me about the monsters
daddy fought, but only sometimes because speaking about daddy makes Aunt Dawn
sadder then speaking about mommy.
Did
you know I can count to ten? Look 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Aunt Dawn taught me
yesterday while we were making cookies. She said I was a good counter, a
natural she said. I told her when I was all grown up I would count all the bad
monsters I killed.
She
got sad and our cookies burnt.
My
Aunt Willow makes the best cookies; she said cookies make everything better,
like Aunt Dawn! She likes making choc chips ones; I like her making choc chip
ones too because they're my favourite. When I go over to her house she makes
cookies and then makes them dance. I like dancing cookies.
When
I'm all grown up I'm going to make dancing cookies all by myself.
Yesterday,
after burning cookies, Aunt Dawn needed to lie down, headache she said, but she
was sad, she had her sad face on. While Aunt Dawn was lying down I raced my red
fire truck with James from next-door's red racer. I won but he said I cheated,
but he's stupid and doesn't know anything. His mommy yelled at me for saying
that but it's true and Aunt Dawn told me to always tell the truth and so I said
that to James's mommy and she got angry and I had to go home.
When
I'm all grown up I'm always going to tell the truth.
It
rained last night and Aunt Dawn told me not to jump in the puddles, but puddle
jumping is my favourite thing to do – it's even better them playing
super!slayer so when Aunt Dawn was speaking to James's mommy about my teacher
at Kindy, me and James jumped in puddles. Aunt Dawn nearly yelled at me when I
went inside, but then Aunt Faith come over and Aunt Faith dangled me
upside-down. Aunt Faith is the bestest.
When
I'm all grown up I'm going to be just like Aunt Faith… but not a girl cos girls
are icky.
Sometimes
Aunt Faith tells me about mommy. They're different from Aunt Dawn's stories
because there's a lot more blood; I like stories with lots of blood. And
sometimes there are alligators.
When
I'm all grown up I'm going to be an alligator.
At
lunch Aunt Dawn made sandwiches but they were icky so Aunt Faith said she was
taking me to the park and we went and got hamburgers. I got a toy with my
burger but Aunt Faith said she would keep it safe for me because Aunt Dawn
doesn't like me having hamburgers.
When
I'm all grown up I'm going to eat a thousand hamburgers!
Aunt
Faith had to go back home after that because she said the little slayers were
going to trash the school if she wasn't there to sup- super-supervise! I don't
think they could trash the school because the school is big and if they're so
little, how could they reach the top shelfs? But I believe Aunt Faith because
Aunt Faith never ever lies.
When
I'm all grown up I'm never ever going to lie.
When
the long hand reaches 5, Uncle Andrew gets home. Uncle Andrew is so cool! He
has all these toys but he doesn't let me play with them and they're really
pretty. Don't ever, ever, ever tell, but once I broke one. I just wanted to play
for a minute but then Aunt Dawn was coming and I tried to put it back but I
dropped it, and Aunt Dawn didn't come into the room so I put it under my Ninja
Turtles T-shirt and buried it in the back garden.
When
I'm all grown up I'm going to still have toys.
After
dinner Aunt Dawn always rings Granddad Giles. He talks funny and once I heard
Aunt Faith call him 'G-Man' so I think he might be a super hero. Like Superman
maybe. I have to keep it a secret from James though, because no one can know
that I know 'cause of how super heroes' identities must always be kept a
secret.
When
I'm all grown up I'm going to be a super hero.
Bedtimes
are the bestest time of day. Aunt Dawn tells me stories. I love stories.
Sometimes mommy's in them, but Aunt Dawn is sad when she tell me those stories
even though she pretends she's not. I hate seeing Aunt Dawn sad. When I'm older
I'm going to buy Aunt Dawn a dusty book… they're her favourite kind and they
make her happy. I like seeing Aunt Dawn happy almost as much as I like jumping
in puddles and dancing cookies.
When
I'm all grown up I'll make sure Aunt Dawns happy all the time.
After
Aunt Dawn turns the light off, I lie in bed and imagine it was my mommy who
said goodnight and in my head I say goodnight to my mommy.
And
sometimes when I'm dreaming my mommy's there and she tells me how I'm all grown
up.
