AN: Ok hey faithful readers. I got kinda bored and decided why don't I write a fan fiction. So here it is. My first one shot about Gibbs.

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Fearless. Undefeatable.

That's what they said. Afraid of nothing….according to Tony DiNozzo. Much scarier than anyone they have ever arrested…..says Tim McGee. Good enough for Mossad..no better than Mossad………in the words of Ziva David.

Supposedly nothing could scare him. But on the anniversary of Shannon and Kelly's deaths Leroy Jethro Gibbs faces his only and worst fear…….losing someone again.

Shannon. Kelly. Kate. Jenny. Those are just some. He figured that this really bothered him on days that meant something to the ones he lost. Birthdays, anniversaries of special occasions, holidays. He always seems to lose those he cared about most. He was determined to not let that happen again.

Commitment was hard for him too, now. Maybe that's why he's had so many wives…

He was always distant around these times. There were the times when only silence, his boat, and bourbon could ease his pain. There were times whenDucky always knew; he knew the days and times, the person it was, and normally he knew what would cheer him up.

Alone……that's how he usually dealt with things, he figured if he couldn't do it than it couldn't be done.

Abby somehow could always bring a smile to his stony face. Abby. His adopted daughter, well except for the official papers. To Gibbs, Abby was his daughter. Ziva was his other adopted daughter….Lord knows she could use some love and care…she probably gets that from Tony, though. They thought he couldn't tell, but he was proud that they were so discreet.

He loved his NCIS family. There were everything to him, but he always seems to lose those he cared about most. He was determined to not let that happen again. He would protect his family with all his power…which according to his team he had a lot of.

AN: hope you enjoyed this little one-shot