Hey everyone! This is a new story that I am working. I definantly think that this one well be a good story that will have quite a few chapters. And to all of people out there that love drama, combined with Austin and ally, this is the story for you! Thank you to everyone that is reading this and to everyone that has favorited an followed me and my other story. Oh! If you don't know it I am in the process writing another story called Vampire to My Heart, I think that you will like it as well, so please go check it out! It would mean a lot to me!
Anyway, I am going to say thank you people who are reading this and for everything else! Please comment/follow/favorite! It would mean so much to me to know what ypep rope think of this!
I do not own "Warrior" by Demi Lovato, or Austin and Ally. If I did, Thayer would be married right now.
Okay, I am done ranting, enjoy!
Abuse in Disguise
Chapter 1 ~ This is My Life
Ally's POV:
I feel so conflicted. I feel as if I am being strangled, by my own pity. Like I'm the one who screwed up my life, and the sad part of that statement… it is all true. I caught myself in my own trap, and there is no way out. There is no harness, no safety ropes, or no net to catch me while I fall. And I am falling… pretty damn fast. For the pat ten years I have been falling, while nothing to catch me.
I loved my life once, when there was something to love about it. Now it's just an empty black hole. No way out, no way stopping it, and no light. Just… darkness, and nothing else.
I had my light ten years ago when my family, life, and heart were whole. Who knew that your whole word could crash and burn in only a blink of an eye? My shield shattered in a matter of minutes… no, seconds.
I am in my room fiddling with my few belongings. I reached out for my guitar that was on the floor. My mom gave this to me for my seventh birthday, and I still love it even though it is old and beaten up. I placed it on my lap and began to strum a random melody. In that moment, when I closed my eyes, the whole world disappeared and I had not one care. I found myself start to hum along with the melody, and soon lyrics started to pour themselves from my mouth.
This is a story that I have never told
I gotta get this this off of my chest to let it go
I need to take back the light inside you stole
Your a criminal
And you steal like your a pro
He treated me as if I was his own personal toy. And he took from me the only thing that u was trying my hardest to never lose… myself.
All the pain and the truth
I wear like a battle wound
So ashamed so confused
I was broken and bruised
Everything that he has done to me has made me stronger. Even though he has hurt me, left me with scars, I will never be brought down.
Now I'm a warrior
Now I've got thicker skin
I'm a warrior
I'm stronger then I've ever been
And my armor
Is made of steel
You can't get in
I'm a warrior
And you can never hurt me again
'It's all in your head' I keep telling myself, though I know it's all real. But despite the lack of faith I have, I am never giving him the satisfaction of him winning. I will win this thing. Even if it takes the rest of my life.
Out of the ashes
I'm burning like a fire
You can save your apologies
Your nothing but a liar
I've got shame
I've got scars
That I'll never show
I'm a survivor
In more ways then you'll know
He does not know, that with every scratch, every scar, every bruise, and every wound he gives me, it empowers me. It motivates me to keep pressing on.
All the pain and the truth
I wear like a battle wound
So ashamed so confused
I was broken and bruised
Now I'm a warrior
Now I've got thicker skin
I'm a warrior
I'm stronger then I've ever been
And my armor
Is made of steel
You can't get in
I'm a warrior
And you can never hurt me again
There's a part if me I can't get back
A little girl grew up too fast
All it took was once
I'll never be the same
Now I'm taking back my life today
Nothing left that you can say
Cause you were never gonna take the blame anyway
My freedom was taken from me when I was small, and I want it back. No one will stop me, not even him.
Now I'm a warrior
Now I've got thicker skin
I'm a warrior
I'm stronger then I've ever been
And my armor
Is made of steel
You can't get in
I'm a warrior
And you can never hurt me again
Nooo ooh yeaaah yeaaah
You can never hurt me again
By this point, there were tears running down the sides of my face. I set down my guitar gently and grabbed my song book that was laying next to me and wrote down all of the lyrics.
Staring down at my finished work, I let more tears slide from my eyes. I reminded myself that crying was not a sign of weakness, it was a sign of strength.
*flashback*
I ran into the house, tears staining my face, and fresh ones falling down the same way the previous ones fell.
"Ally, gunny what's wrong?!" My mother called after me while I ran up the steps.
I ran up and into my room where I slammed the door shit and locked it. Still sobbing, I plopped down onto my bed and buried my face into my pillow. The soft hammering of my mother knocking on my door interrupted me from my crying fit.
"Ally, sweetie, please open the door." My mothers angelic voice projected from the other side of the door. When I did not answer or get up and opened the door for her, she simply knocked again.
"Ally, please?" Sighing, I dragged myself from my bed an unlocked the door. My mom opened it while I crawled back into my bed. She came and sat next to me, her eyes laced with concern.
"Sweetie, what happened at school?" She asked me. I sniffled and looked up at her.
"S-sh-e-e, sh-ee-"
"Shhh, it's okay baby, come here." I started to sob uncontrollably as she cradled me in her arms while rocking back and forth. I love moments like this with my mother, her holding me, while I cuddle into her. I never got to ever do this with her, since she was always away doing something for her job and I never got to see her. It just comforts me so easily.
My crying finally ceased, and I raided my head just enough so that I could look at my mother in the face. She has always been beautiful, I could only wish to be as beautiful as her one day. Her facial features were filled with worry, and she smiled a small, weak smile towards me.
"Can you tell me now?" She asks me finally, I nod and begin.
"There is this girl at my school that likes to bully me, her name is Cassidy. Today she tripped me in lunch and my food spilled out all over the floor. When I fell down, my face fell into my food which made me look messy and funny looking. When I looked up, everyone was laughing at me. I got up and ran out of the cafe crying. After school, Cassidy came up to me and started to make fun of me of how much of a crybaby I am. This made me cry more, and I cried all the way home." She started to stroke my hair lovingly as I let a few more tears slip out.
" why didn't you tell me you were getting bullied at school?"
" I was scared that if she found out that I told my mommy, then she would make fun of me more and hurt me more. She thinks I am a crybaby now."
"Don't talk like that." She says sternly turning me so that I face her completely.
"You are stronger then you give yourself credit for. You can handle a lot more then you know. Just remember this, crying is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of strength."
"Are you sure mommy?"
"I'm sure."
*End of flashback*
Ever since my mother passed away, I tried to hold on to every single word she has ever told me. But that's kinda hard, I wouldn't be surprised if I have been beaten so many times that I now have brain damage.
"ALLYSON DAWSON, GET YOUR ASS DOWN HERE BEFORE I GO UP THERE AND BEAT THE SHIT OUTTA IT." My father screamed from downstairs. I gathered myself together, here goes another round of abuse.
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