A/N: Yes, Kyuu remembers this account exists. Half of this was written while I listened to Meltdown and the other half wasn't, so it it looks really song-ish and not making sense like a translation, that's why.

SONG: Meltdown

SONG ARTIST: Kagamine Rin

AUTHOR: KYUUxKYUU

DISCLAIMER: Not yet...


~Light~

I now know what loss of hope feels like.

I watch from my lonely window as the city below me buzzes by without a glance in the other direction. The lights of the large city flicker but continue to light our material world. I feel like the only one not moving forward, sitting here reminiscing. Such an amazing place, our world, it's as if such moving forward will never cease. Is this what everyone wants, a world of technology and fast fading humanity? Not a single glance in the opposite direction as the little people rush to work in their expensive cars. All this makes me wonder, would the world realize if I suddenly wasn't here? Perhaps a single tear will be shed on such a day, the world stopping for a mere second before continuing its tiring route to self-destruction.

The loss of desire to care anymore, yet a mind so trained to continue I'm unable to stop myself.

There's a rushed feeling of anxiety and excitement as I dream. It's like nothing I've ever experienced before, so tempting yet forbidden. To take another human's life, is deemed wrong. But it's all just another way of decreasing the population. One of seven million isn't so much of a big deal is it?

I sit up from the dingy sofa to take a sip of water, stopping once my hand touched the cool glass. I stare at the reflection in the drug-induced, contaminated, city life water. I don't see myself, I see an empty body with no dreams, aspirations or soul. Just like everyone else. Where did the girl who wanted to be a singer when she grew up go?

Right now, I feel like running until I fall to my death. Maybe then, maybe, someone will finally hear my screaming.

I had no destination; it was the only thing that separated me from the rest of the world at that moment. I have to walk to the very right of the sidewalk; the busy streets with so many fast cars are too tempting. I scare myself at times, not sure my will power…because right now, I just want the voices in my head to stop.

If I jump into a nuclear reactor right now, my mind will feel at peace. The world will remember me for just an instant, going to sleep in such a bright, white way. I've always wanted to be famous, didn't I? It's my only chance to bring back that little girl that once was me.

I don't know what I'm doing, I'm not sure I really care either. I'm near my first bite into the forbidden fruit, the difference between heaven and hell. The side of me that should be saying "don't do it" is slowly adding more force to the trigger. I wonder if I'll see a bright light like a nuclear reactor, maybe I'll be able ti get the sleep I've been so deprived of all night. The loud police sirens make me so tired, their lights dimming as the bright light of the sun rises yet again. This marks the first morning I've been gone, all I have to do is add a little force to the trigger. This truly is such a simple, simple world we live in.