I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy
Cause you're the only one within my heart
I was born to make you happy
Always and forever you and me
That's the way our life should be
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy.
It takes losing someone, just to realize how much you love them.
Joey looked around her room. It was cold, dark, just like her heart. He had left her. He had promised never to leave her. And he did. Left her at the prom. In front of the whole year, he had humiliated her. He knew she was a private person, and the horrified shame flooded through her, listening to his words.
'When I'm with you, I feel like I'm nothing.'
Joey looked down at her lilac prom dress, her tears had stained the fabric, stained her heart. The rip on the dress knew exactly how she felt. Ripped. Torn from her one true love. How could she not have noticed his insecurities? All she had to do was look into his ocean , deep blue eyes, to see the pain and anguish that had been carried for months now. She knew he must of felt like this for a while. How could she be so selfish not to notice? It always comes down to the same thing. No matter what he said, it was always going to be the same reoccurring factor. Dawson.
Why couldn't she ever tell Dawson the truth? Pacey deserved to be loved wholly, and even though she believed she did, she knew she did, his insecurities hid that love from him, and she confirmed his fears in the only way it could affect him. If she had told Dawson that she had slept with him, would this have happened?
Shame overshadowed her features. Shame that she let him down, that he hadn't trusted her completely with his heart. Because all she would do would break it into a million pieces. Just like hers was right now.
He would still be riding in that godforsaken limo. Was he thinking about her? Was he realizing that he has made a huge mistake? Will he be on the way back?
'We are not trapped on this boat. You and I are trapped in this relationship! I can't take it anymore Joey'.
Probably not.
She sat on the bed, tears starting to fall from her eyes again as she curled up into a ball. She held onto her legs, crying from the bottom of her broken heart.
Why did she let him down?
She meant whatever she had always told him, that she was in it for the long run. Her future lied with him. She let him down.
Forever, she would be so sorry. Could they ever gain some trust again? Could they ever be friends? Only time will tell. But every minute without him, felt like a heart-wrenching lifetime.
She couldn't live without him. She was meant to be with him forever. She shut her eyes to stop the tears from flowing freely, holding back the heartbroken sobs which were making their way up her broken body.
If she could wish to forget , she wouldn't. She wanted to hold onto the memories for the rest of her life. It was the only thing keeping the small flicker of life keep burning inside of her. If it was ever to truly extinguish, she would be broken beyond repair.
She was born to make him happy, yet she had destroyed his heart. The cruel irony in that? She had destroyed hers too.
