A/N: Ok so this might be a long one but it's mostly explaining what I am trying to do here.

My whole idea is I would put my iPod on shuffle and whatever song it landed on I would pick lyrics and write a short story.

These stories would range from who is involved, AH, AU, OOC, canon, slash etc. I want to keep my imagination going and not be constricted.

If you guys are still with me, which hopefully you are, I want to update every 10-12 days. I would have time in between work and school this way.

Also, if anyone would want to send me songs or lyrics to do a story about, I am open for anything.

Mind you though, I am extremely embarrassed by writing citrusy sequences, so bear with me, haha :]

Of course for a disclaimer, I don't own the characters or any of the songs I use.

Without further ado, here is the first one!

"Whatever tomorrow brings

I'll be there with open arms and open eyes"

-"Drive" by Incubus

Main Players: Alice and Jasper, Pre-twilight, canon, JPOV

I had done it again. Why me?

I knew I didn't want to hurt her. That was far from my intention but I couldn't resist. I just couldn't control myself. There was nothing more to me than my undeniable hunger.

I couldn't go back and face her. I would be able to feel her anger and disappointment. It was too much for me. So I did the only thing I could think of, I ran. Ran fast.

I knew she was on my trail, I could hear her right behind me. I ran faster, pushed myself to a limit I knew didn't exist. I could run forever and never tire. But the realization that she wouldn't either spurred me on to run even faster. I stopped my breathing and focused on getting as far away from her as I could. I didn't even the changes in the scenery as I ran faster.

After about four hours, I could no longer hear or feel her. I had zigzagged all through the forest and even taken down some trees, boulders and animals to block her path. I knew she could see my decisions, so I had spontaneously tried to weave my way through the forest. It was harder than I had imagined. I was so used to always calculating everything before executing but I knew in order to lose her, I would have to go against my nature. I couldn't allow her to keep tabs on my decisions.

There was a river a little ways from the clearing I was in. As I looked down, I could see the fight my body had gotten into with the forest, I was filthy. I decided to freshen up a little before I went on my way.

I stripped down and made my way into the river. I went under the soft current and allowed it take me downstream slowly.

The water was calming. I wanted to clear my head and forget about the woman who would never take me back. I willed my brain to erase her perfect porcelain face but the more I tried to get rid of her image, the more it came into view. It was stamped into my brain, forever to be held in my heart.

It was useless, so instead I focused on the water and how it felt on my body. Slowly caressing my skin, much like Alice would as we made love. Giving up on forgetting, I slowly made my way back my clothes.

I froze as soon as I felt her. I couldn't see her yet but I could feel the haze of her emotions around me, so close to me I could taste it. Her love, forgiveness, and sadness all swirled around me in lazy circles. I was caught in the middle of it all.

I shut my eyes, willing her away, I didn't want to deal with her. I wanted to disappear and I could. I could run away from her, I could find clothes later, that didn't matter.

A hand on my arm surprised me, causing me to open my eyes. I lost all resolve to run away.

As I looked into her bottomless topaz eyes, I swear on my mother and father that I could see straight into her soul. All her love and sadness was pooled in those eyes, I didn't have to use my gift to know what she was feeling, her eyes said it all.

"Jasper"

I was so caught up in her eyes that I almost didn't hear her.

"Jasper, why would you leave me? I love you", she whispered and I knew if she could cry, she would.

I did love her; unlike I had ever loved anyone or anything else. But she didn't deserve me. I was just a bump in her perfection.

"Jasper, I know what you did. But trust me when I say I forgive you and will love you through all your mistakes. Please Jasper understand."

Her words seemed distant , as if I was buried under feet of snow and she was at the top, whispering to me. I knew what the words were, but my brain could not comprehend it together

She continued to look at me, but soon her haze turned a fiery red, she was angry. I could feel it burn my skin and I knew this emotion well. I could bear this more than I could bear her sadness and love.

"JASPER! Are you hearing me! I love you, I will never stop loving you! I refuse to let you go, you go and I will follow, don't you understand?"

She was pounding her small fists into my chest, but I couldn't feel her at all. I allowed her blazing anger to engulf me and burn me. I wanted this pain. I wanted this treatment. I was a horrible coward.

I stood still as she continued to screech and pound on my chest, I knew I deserved it. Soon the hot haze disappeared and was filled with a lazy gray mist, defeat.

She collapsed at my feet, shaking. My heart broke as I took a better look at her. Her beautiful face filled with anguish, her precious clothes torn and dirty, pieces of the forest stuck in her short spiky hair. She was perfect even in her defeat.

She held out her small hand for me to take. It was dirty and the manicure she had gotten earlier in the week was spoiled. I knew taking her hand would heal my soul and heart. But I also knew I would disappoint her again. I did nothing but disappoint.

"Please Jasper. Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there with open eyes and open arms. I love you. Always have, always will"

With those words, I took her hand.