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Because of me

by

Amnesia Nymph

Blood was still convering her hands and body. I was the main reason she was like that. Lying there, lifeless. She wasn't breathing. No, she had stopped breathing quite some time I ago. I remember holding her as she told me her last words. It was because of me that she had died. It was because I wasn't strong enough. I had made her sin. I had made her a victim of my sin.

It pained me to see her like this. But somehow It was impossible for me to turn away. She's dead. I almost destroyed the world if it hadn't been for Kira. I simply didn't like the idea of a world without her. I loved her. To me she was my only reason for living. For existing on this damned planet.

Hades. She's in hades now. Suffering more because of me. Because she choose to love me. Many people had told me I was wrong. I shouldn't have such feelings for her. Even my own mother disowned me for loving her like I did. I should've protected her. But I couldn't at that time. I could only stare at the man who had just appeared. He wanted to kill me. I'm not sure whether he tried to kill me or her though.

I couldn't think clearly at that point. The moment I saw his wings I thought he was an angel send by god to punish us for sinning. To punish us for loving each other. I don't understand why though. Why did she have to die in the end? Why couldn't he just have taken my damn life?

''Setsuna?'' I could hear Kira's voice coming from behind me. His eyes were burning in my back. He lied to me as well. He pretended to be my friend for over all these years and for what? Because of who I used to be? Because of Alexiel? I think that somehow he really had started to like me. I could tell. That was probably one of my gifts. I was a damned angel. I had the power to destroy the world but I didn't have the damn power to bring her back.

There was an option though. Wasn't there? I had to chase her. I had to find her even if it meant following her into the depths of hell. I wouldn't mind burning for an eternity if I could be with her.

I finally looked away from her dead body, into the sky. I'll find Sara. I'll bring her back.

Yes, it's true. I, Mudo Setsuna fell in love with his own bloody sister. I know I will be punished for it. In fact, I'm already being punished. But I'll find her. I smiled a bit before turning around to look at Kira. No matter who he used to be or who he is now. He's the only Kira I've ever known. And that's enough. Rosiel should've understood that. I might be one hell of a fucked up son of a gun but I do have a heart.

''Sara...''

At least, I had a heart.