A Zutara Songfic: Beautiful Disaster

Disclaimer: I own neither the song Beautiful Disaster by Kelly Clarkson or the series Avatar: The Last Air Bender.

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world would cave in
It just ain't right
Lord, it just ain't right

I look at him and my heart feels like it's going to break. He's been
through so much. A mother ripped from his life, an abusive,
controlling father, and an insane sociopath for a sister. I don't know
how he's held on to himself for so long.

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and laughter
Lord, Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

Could there be a future for us? I can't imagine me without him, but I
can't imagine him wanting me. He acts suspicious and evil just to get
people away from him. It's just too difficult for him to trust others
after the hard, misled life he's had. Oh how I want him to let me in.

He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
But do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold me tight
Hold me tight

He can't help being brought up the way he was. I want to cry when I
picture him as a child. Yet he somehow finds a way to be shy and good
and beautiful. His fire is now what I compare everything else to. I
look at the blue sky and the shining waters and the green leaves and
they seem dull in comparison to the fierce colors of his fire bending.

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I can't believe him. I want to. I... I really do but what does he want
from me? If he loves me and leaves me I won't be able to continue on
living. I feel an ache in my chest every time I see the smile that
doesn't quite reach his eyes. All I need is one real smile. All I want
is for him to laugh with abandonment.

He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

What would it be like if we could voice our feelings to each other?
Would his scarred heart finally start mending? I know I can't have all
of him but the part he's willing to give is too much to bear. If I
wait a little longer will he give me that one smile? It has become my
mantra: A little longer. A little longer. A little longer. How long
will my heart be able to hold on?

A little longer.

He's beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

Oh if only Zuko would look at me. I would give him all of me in a
heartbeat. That's also what makes it so frightening.

A little longer.
A little longer.
A little longer.

A/N: this is my first fic. I didn't want to write a huge, dramatic,
plot-filled story. I just wanted to illustrate Katara's feelings. I
also wanted to introduce the notion that a fanfiction can be just as
powerful even if it doesn't go anywhere. The yearning in someone's
heart can be overwhelming. So here I just layed out (what I think are)
Katara's innermost thoughts. Let me know what you think! Please review.
-Songstress