AN: I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING TO DO WITH CSI:NY IT BELONGS TO CBS!! I DO HOWEVER OWN ANY OTHER CHARACTER!!

What would have happened if……..

This is a sequel to I wish I had…, so this is where we left off last time, you don't need to have read the other one, but to understand it all maybe you should have!!

Lindsay laughed and followed him in, took his glasses off and placed them on the bedside table, walked back into the living room turned off the lights, and then got changed into one of Danny's tee shirts, and got into bed. She sat there for a while thinking about what had happened these past few weeks. She hadn't really had time to do this, sit and think about it all and it was good. Her mind made sense of some things and made others more confusing, but one thing she knew was that what ever life threw at them next she would be okay because Danny would be with her, and now she had Maddie as well. But there was one thing, one nagging sentence in the back of her mind,

"I wish I had gone back into that room."

The end


This takes place 5 years later, Maddie is now 11

"Maddie you are going to be late for school," Lindsay Monroe shouted from the kitchen of there Manhattan home.

"Coming mom" she shouted back, "I can't find my violin books,"

"There in the living room." Lindsay shouted back and smiled as she heard footsteps fun down the stairs and she saw Maddie run into the living room from the work surface in the kitchen.

"Thanks mom," Maddie said walking into the kitchen and sitting down on a stool in front of the breakfast bar. "Are they not up yet?" she asked digging into the pancakes in front of her,

"Not that I know of," Lindsay said, but then footsteps were heard on the stairs again and two 4 year olds came running into the kitchen, they both had sandy brown hair and blue eyes. The only difference was that one was a boy and the other a girl.

"Mommy," they said together running round the table and hugging Lindsay's legs,

"Hey munchkins," Lindsay said, picking both of them up, which was a bit difficult but she managed it. "Did you have a good sleep?" and they both nodded and wiggled to be put down, Lindsay did so and they ran round the bar and tried to sit on the stools. With Maddie's help they did so and started to eat there pancakes as well. Lindsay smiled and heard some whimpering from upstairs,

"Looks like your sister is up as well," Lindsay said, "Maddie, make sure James and Jess don't make too much of a mess," she said and walked out of the kitchen and up the stairs.

The trouble with what Lindsay said was that the twins where notorious for getting messy and sure enough they were now semi covered in syrup.

"Well that worked well," Maddie said and laughed as Jess and James tried to get some of the syrup off. "Have you finished?" and they nodded again, "Good, come on then let's get you cleaned up." She got off the stool, went over to the sink and got a cloth out, and wiped there hands and faces. Once they were semi clean they got down and ran over to the TV in the living room, Maddie laughed as they looked at her impatiently, and walked over and turned it onto Disney for them, gave them the remote and let them fight over what TV show they were going to watch. It was between Power Rangers or Bratz and Bratz seemed to be winning. Maddie looked at the clock and saw it was time to go, she grabbed her bags, violin and books, said goodbye to the twins and headed for the door

"Mom I'm going," she shouted and saw her mom come to the top of the stairs, little 18 month old Stephanie on her hip, she walked down stairs,

"Maddie, Maddie," Steph said clapping her hands together,

"Heya Stephie," Maddie said kissing her on the nose and Steph giggled,

"Bye mom," she said and Lindsay hugged her daughter,

"Bye Maddie, have a good day" Lindsay said as she walked out of the hug and out of the door. Once she was gone Lindsay walked into the living room, turned the TV onto a neutral programme to stop Jess and James from fighting, and sat Steph down on the chair behind her siblings.

Maddie walked down the driveway of the house and saw that a black SUV had pulled up onto the drive. Danny stepped out of the driver's side and locked up the car.

"Danny," Maddie said running a little and hugging him, even though he had been her father now for 5 years, Maddie still didn't call him dad, she didn't know why, and Danny didn't seem to mind on the surface but she knew deep down it hurt him.

"Heya bear," he said calling her, his nickname for her. "You know I think you've grown" he said laughing and she hit him, she was smaller than most people in her year, as she was born so premature, but also because of Lindsay being small. Maddie was looking more like Lindsay everyday and Danny found it scary sometimes how alike they were. "I just saw the bus down the road, you better run, have a lovely day," he said and kissed her head, she nodded and ran down the bottom of the drive and caught sight of her friend,

"Izzy wait up," she shouted and the girl turned round and walked to Maddie. "You still picking me up tonight?" she asked and Danny nodded, "Good okay see ya later," Maddie said smiling and turned to Izzy and they walked off down the road together.

Danny smiled and was still amazed at how far Maddie had come, after some help from specialists and help from Lindsay and himself, Maddie had nearly come over her autism, it still came to light at some points if it was a totally new environment, but all in all she was now just as chatty as any other 11 year old, if not as loud as well. He walked into the house and was bombarded by Jess and James as soon as he opened the door.

"Daddy," they shouted and grabbed hold of his legs in a hug.

"Mornin' Jess," he said picking her up and kissing her head, placing her on his right hip, "James," he said picking him up and doing the same but placing him on his left hip. "Where's mommy?"

"Kitchen," Jess said resting her head on his shoulder.

So Danny walked off into the kitchen, by then both of them had wiggled to be put down and resumed there seat by the TV. Danny saw Lindsay washing dishes in the sink her back facing him. So he walked over and circled her waist with his arms, and kissing her neck,

"Mornin'" he said burying his head into her curls.

"Danny," Lindsay said turning round him his arms and kissing him on the lips, "You're late," she said stepping out of his arms and placing some of the dishes in her hands into the cupboards.

"I know," he said, "The suspect just wouldn't tell me what I needed to know." He pulled her into a hug again, "Forgiven?"

"Maybe" she said and he kissed her hard on the lips, "Definitely," she said smiling, and placed her forehead against his.

"Daddy," a little voice shouted from the doorway as little Steph ran over to Danny as fast as her little legs could carry her. Danny turned round and caught her and picked her up tickling her sides lightly and the little girl squealed and giggled. "No," she said laughing threw it. Danny stopped and kissed her on the nose which made her laugh again.

"Good morning baby girl," he said and she started to chat in baby speak, and Danny nodded as if he understood. She turned round and spotted the pancakes and said mine, Danny nodded and sat down on the chair with her in his lap. She started to eat the pancakes, and got more on Danny and herself than in her mouth. Lindsay laughed as she saw Danny pick some up off her plate and eat it.

"Danny, wait for yours," she said and he pouted, sometimes he was worse than the kids.

"Yeah Daddy, mine," Steph said pointing to the plate and eating some more.

"I've been told," he said and laughed as Steph finished off her pancakes and turned round and showed Danny her syrup covered face. "Someone needs cleaning up," he said and placed her on the table.

"I'll go you have your breakfast," Lindsay said picking up the sticky girl, and walking out of the kitchen. Danny smiled at the sight, Lindsay was a brilliant mom, just as he thought she would. He picked up his plate and went into the living room and ate them on the sofa behind the twins as they explained what was going on, on the TV in front of him. Once he finished he put his plate in the kitchen and got the post which had dropped off the mat. It was bills and some advertisements, but then he stopped one addressed to Lindsay Monroe, and it had a Montana postage stamp on the top. He put the rest down on the sideboard by the front door and then walked into the living room where Lindsay had sat after coming downstairs with a now clean and dressed Steph.

"This is for you," he said handing her the letter and picking Steph off of the sofa where he wanted to sit. "Jess, James, why don't you go and get dressed so I can take you to playgroup." Danny said after seeing Lindsay's reaction at the letter.

"Yeah," they said and ran off towards the stairs,

"Your clothes are on your bed," Lindsay shouted after them but sat staring at the letter.

"Lindsay," Danny said as Steph played with one of her toys on his lap. "Are you okay?" he asked and she nodded and played the letter on the table in front of her.

"Yeah, yeah, I'm fine," she said, "I'm gonna go and get ready for work," she got up off the sofa and walked up the stairs.

"I'm worried about your mommy," Danny said looking at Steph who babbled back an answer. "But if she really is not okay, she'll tell me," he said trying to convince himself that what he was saying was true. "Come on then you, you gonna help me get the twins lunches ready?"

"Yeah," Steph said and smiled at him, "Chocolate, cookies," she said smiling,

"Yeah, we can give them some and you as well." He said and got off the sofa, walked into the kitchen and put Steph on the sideboard.

Meanwhile Lindsay was sat on her bed, head in her hands, thinking about what the letter could say, what she should tell Danny, who she was going to deal with it all. She was working herself up more and more as she thought into it. She sat there for what feels like forever, thinking about what happened and what could happen.

"Mommy, come on we gotta go," Jess shouted from downstairs and it brought Lindsay out of her thoughts, she smiled and got up off of the bed and dried her eyes, even though she didn't know she was crying. She looked at herself in the mirror put on a smile and walked down the stairs.

"I'm coming" she said, and walked into the living room. Danny gave her a funny look and he knew she had been crying, she just smiled and mouthed later. He nodded and picked up Steph's bag off the side.

"I need to go back in, something about new evidence." Danny said and picked up Steph off the sofa, as Lindsay made sure the twins had everything they needed. "I'll drop off Steph at day care for a bit while I work then go and pick her up.

"Okay," Lindsay said, and ushered the twins out of the door. "Come on then," she said and walked out of the house.

Once she was gone Danny sighed and looked at the letter on the table and sighed again, he made sure he had everything for Steph and then walked out with her in his arms. They got into the car and Lindsay drove the twins to play group, they said good bye and then she drove to the lab. She gave Danny and Steph a kiss and got back into the car as she had gotten a page from Mac saying she was needed at a scene.

"I'm worried about your mom," Danny said before putting Steph into the stroller. "Oh well, lets go see how much your Auntie Stella screams when she sees you," Danny said laughing, and so did Steph who said Auntie Stella over and over again and giggled.

They got into the elevator and got off on the 64th floor, walking over to towards his office Danny counted down from 10 and as he got to 4 he heard Stella shout,

"Daniel Messer," she said storming out of the office and walking towards them, "Why did you not tell me you would have to bring my special god daughter into work with you." She said scowling at him and then squealing at Steph who was now clapping and giggling shouting "Auntie Stella," Stella smiled and undid Steph, lifting her up out of the stroller and hugging her close.

"See," Danny said laughing, "It was a nice surprise," he said and dodged Stella's slap, "Now I need to take her down to day care and go over some evidence.

"I'll look after her up here," Stella said pulling faces at Steph who was giggling all the time. "I finished my case and I need to wait for Mac and Lindsay to come back with some evidence and see if they need help."

"Sure?" Danny asked handing her the bag that was on his shoulder.

"Totally," Stella said taking the bag and putting Steph down on the floor.

"Okay then ill see you two in a bit, I have my cell on and so does Lindsay just in case." He said and Stella nodded, he knelt down and Steph stumbled to him, he laughed, hugged her and kissed her head, "You be good for Auntie Stella sweetie okay?" she nodded and walked over to Stella holding onto her hand. "Thanks again, see you later." He said and walked towards the elevator.

"Come on then you lets go find some of Uncle Mac's pens and do some drawing," Stella said and Steph laughed and giggled, running off down the corridor slightly and Stella caught up with her as her legs were only short.

Meanwhile Lindsay was distracted slightly, but that didn't stop her from processing the scene and bringing all of the evidence back to the lab. She smiled as she spotted Stella and Steph in Mac's office and Steph was sitting at his desk scribbling on some paper. She walked past the office and went to the trace lab, put some of the things onto the table, and then walked back to see Steph in Mac's office. Danny was back in there then and she saw him taking her out of the chair, and Stella walked out of the door, smiled hello to Lindsay then headed off to Trace.

"Mommy," Steph said seeing Lindsay threw the door, Lindsay smiled and walked into the room,

"Heya baby girl," Lindsay said walking over to the two of them and kissing Steph on the head. "You finished for the day?" she asked and picked Steph out of Danny's arms.

"Yeah," he said picking up the rest of Steph's stuff from around the room. "I have tomorrow off, so I might have a nap with Steph later, and then go pick them all up."

"Good idea," Lindsay said and put Steph into her stroller after one more kiss on the cheek. "I should be home on time, so I'll see you later." She said walking over and kissing him on the lips. "Love you."

"Love you too," Danny said and Lindsay walked a few steps before grabbing her hand. "I am here Linds, if you want to talk." He said and she nodded, walking forwards and kissing him again,

"I know hunni," she said, "I'll explain it later, I promise," and finally she walked out of the room and down the corridor.

"Come on then baby girl, let's go home," Danny said and pushed the stroller out of the office and down to the elevator. "And hopefully mommy will be able to talk when she gets back," he said to himself and they walked out of the building and towards the tube station as Lindsay had gotten the car, and he would need the people carrier for later.