Train ride

I'm sorry that I did not write anything for so long, but I did not have time. : (So here's just a short story., If there are any grammatical errors, so please forgive me, because I wrote it at four o'clock in the morning on the train.: D Enjoy

Set before season six. Ziva is on the mission with Mossad. It is not Moroco.

It is hard to believe, but I am really missing USA. I am back in the Mossad, but it isn't enough, not anymore. I become more American than my father knows, more than I used to think. But now, when I am thousands miles away from DC, I am missing everything. I am missing my morning rutine, my morning run in the park. I am missing my morning coffee, which Tim used to give me, I'm missing Gibbs's head-slaps too. But the most I am missing Tony, everything about him. Yes, he used to be very childish and all but also he was my best friend and even I didn't want to see it, he was something more, he is something more. But now, I am gone from theirs lives. They'll forget someday, but I am afraid, that I will not forget anything about him, Oh no, I am thinking about him again. I tried to forget, but I cannot. I am stuck with him even he isn't with me. I thought that a new mission will help me, but it isn't. Even if I am travelling by ugly train with another three Mossad's officers, I still feel alone. I feel like I cannot trust these guys anymore, I don't know if they have my six as he used to have. I was working with Malachi and Michael before, but it seems like I don't know them. The third person of our group is young new officer, Liat Tuvia. Malachi seems that he wil take care about her, so I don't have to worry about her. I like her, because even she is trained killer as me, she still believe, that world isn't as bad at all. That people aren't bad, no all. Right now, she is sleeping at Malachi's shoulder and she seems so peaceful. Malachi is holding her closely, I guess, that they'll be together in a future. They are perfect together, they already have each others six, even if they don't know each other so long. They are like soulmate, I dare to say. The last member of our group is Michael Rivkin. He is sitting next to me and he is looking at me all the time. I think, that he wants to have something with me, but I am not sure, if I want him, if I want anyone else. I want jut to be with only one man, even if we have to be just friends, but I want to be with him, no I need to be with him. He is my reason to live already. His deeply green eyes used to be so calm and they used to give me a sense of safety. I am really confused that I am not with him. What if something happends him, when I am here? Who would take care of him? Oh, I cannot thing about him like this. But also I have to do something with me. But what? With this thoughts I look to Michael, he is so different and he isn't really attractive to me, but I know him.

Maybe I should let him to do what he wants to do with me. Maybe I should let him to take advantage of me. Maybe it'll help me to forget, but I am not sure that I want forget. Finally I found the truth, that I am in love with him so deeply. And I will alway stuck with him. He is my soulmate.

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