Title: Rose's Letter
Disclaimer: I don't own Doctor Who (but I wish). BBC owns it.
A/N: Hello everyone and welcome to my very first Doctor Who fan fiction. Please review and enjoy the story. So, before you read it, I also want you to know that English is not my first language, I'm French, so sorry for the many mistakes. I love Doctor Who, and I'm in LOVE with 10 and Rose. They are made for each others. ^^
Pairing: Ten/Rose
- DW -
Chapter 1 : Rose's Choice
It was 10 P.M and Rose Tyler was in her bedroom. The Tardis was still parked in her usual parking spot in the Powell Estate. The Doctor and Rose passed all day long with Jackie Tyler. This morning (at least, the Tardis's morning like Rose used to call it), when Rose asked the Doctor to visit her mother, the Time Lord was very happy about that. Well, he wasn't really happy to see Jackie, but just the fact that making Rose happy was enough to make him happy.
He always wanted Rose to be happy, more than anything. An happy Rose was his top priority, even if he had to visit Jackie Tyler for thaht.
A visit to Jackie's flat turned out to be more embarrassing than Rose had anticipated. And the Doctor had been trapped between a Rose who was ashamed about her mother and a Jackie who was talking about their life, which means snogging and shagging evrywhere inthe universe.
Flashback
'I really hope that you two using protection', declared nonchalantly Jackie, who was sitting in front of the Doctor and Rose, drinking her tea.
The Doctor and her daughter stared at her, speechless. The Doctor blanched a bit, blinking and gaping stupidly. Jackie assumed that was because she was right and continued without even looking at them, her eyes were glued on her cup of tea.
"I mean, come on. I'm not a fool, there is something between you two. I know it, I saw the way you look to each other. I mean, Doctor, you're an alien, but you're still a male, ain't cha? I see the way you look at my daughter and ….."
"Jackie !" Shouted the Doctor, rudely interrupted her. But the conversation was too embarrassing … and so not true. Rose was getting more uncomfortable by the second. He continued in a softer voice : "Jackie, Rose and I … we .. I .. never … I mean .. We never … We are not like that … never !"
Rose stared at him, feeling hurt by his words. 'Never', this word was repeating in her head. She swallowed hard to combat the tears. She put a fake smile on her face, like always when she was sad and slowly breaking apart inside.
"Never," Rose repeated a little too loud, her voice breaks off then in an effort not to break down in tears. She looked at the Doctor who was staring down at his cup of tea. She looked at her mother who was staring at her with a sad look on her face. Rose decided that's was enough and stood up. "Mum, let me help you washing the dishes. Doctor, you can … do what you want."
Rose and her mother go to the kitchen.
"Oh, there are a lot of dishes! Let me help you with that" she said grabbing the plates from the table and placing them in in the kitchen sink
"Rose, love?" asked her mother.
"It's weird; there are a lot of dishes. It was just the three of us! "Rose continued, ignoring her mother, washing the plates.
"Rose, darling?" Jackie put a hand on her daughter's shoulder.
"What is it?!" Rose asked harshly, glancing up for a moment before returning to her plates.
"He really loves you, Rose. He looks at you the same way you look at him. It's obvious but you two … you are so oblivious". Jackie began.
"Mum!" But Rose was interrupted by her mother before she could say something.
"You love him too, right?!" Jackie continued. "I never thought that my daughter will fall in love with an alien, but here we are. And he loves you too, Rose? I mean, have you seen him? I saw him! I saw him looking at you like you were the most beautiful thing in this universe. And you are. My beautiful daughter."
Rose chuckled, but her mother was wrong. The Doctor was not in love with her, it was impossible. He cared about her, like he cared about all his former companions. Nothing more at least on his side, and Rose refused to believe otherwise, even is she was in love with him, so very much. Rose felt a tear slide down her left cheek.
"Mum, it doesn't matter, alright? It's not like anything would happen between us. Yes, I love him, but he doesn't love me. I'm sure of it; he made it very clear to me when he told me about the fact that I could spend my life with him but he couldn't, because I will die one day. Mum, let it go. I just want you to stop thinking and talking about us like we were in couple, because we are not, it's never gonna happened. Like he said a few minutes ago … never! "
"Ok, but Rose … I'm telling you, he loves y…"
"Stop it mum".
"Rose, let me finish! He loves you; you let him falling in love with you. This bloody alien is a broken man. Don't hurt him."
"Mum, there is no way that I can hurt him because he is NOT in love with me. Ok?" Rose was pissed off right now. "Listen, I think we are gonna go. I'm tired and I don't want to have this conversation anymore to be honest?"
"Right sweetheart …" Jackie was sad for her daughter. All she wanted to that her daughter to be happy with this silly alien. "Thank you for helping me with the dishes and I'm glad you came to see me. But please, come more often. I really miss my daughter. "
"Ok Mum" Rose smiled to her mother. They hugged each other and Jackie kissed her daughter of her cheeks.
They returned to the Tardis, without saying a word to each others, not even looking at each others ... not even holding each others hands. The Doctor, looking down at his feet, mumbled that the Tardis needed some adjustments and disappeared under the console without a glance towards his companion. Rose ran quickly towards her bedroon. She slammed the door of her room and threw herself onto her bed, under her blanket, hidding from the reality and from her shame.
End Of The Flashback
Tears were rolling down Rose's cheek as she quickly packed her bag. She was tired of this. Waiting and hoping something that she could never have, loving a man, a 900 years old alien. How could she have been so stupid? She was just a human, a stupid ape, she was nothing compared to him, nothing.
Never and nothing were these two words who defined her future if she stayed here any longer. Twenty minutes passed and Rose was finally done with her bag. It was time to leave the Tardis, but first she had to tell the Doctor that she was leaving. The questions were: How? It was impossible to announce him something like that without crying in front of him, and that was the last thing that Rose wanted. She doesn't have the strength to talk to him, in front of him, and saying these words: I'm leaving Doctor, sorry. NO! She couldn't do that, not like that. She was a coward, in so many levels. She couldn't say 'I love you' to the man she loves, kiss him, or leaving him and doing that face to face.
"I can't stay any longer here", she told herself. "I just can't … just can't …"
Then, an idea popped into her head. Sadly, that was not the most courageous way to saying him goodbye, but for her, that was easier. Rose took out a piece of paper to start writing her letter to the Doctor.
Rose arrived in the console room, half an hour later. Hopefully for Rose, the Doctor wasn't anywhere to be seen in the control room. He probably was in the kitchen, or … anyway. She needs to get out of here before it was too late. After leaving her letter in the captain's chair. Rose opened the doors of the Tardis. She stopped a second, put her hand on the door and leaned again the door frame.
"Thank you Old Girl, thank you for everything. I'm gonna miss the both of you. I hope you understand. Just does one thing for me … please, take care of him. "
The Tardis hummed gently. Rose smiled and walked out without looking back. She walked towards her mother's flat, without any regrets. She wrote down everything she had into her heart.
Jackie was zapping on the television, searching for a program to watch and then, she heard a knock at the door. She walked over to it ans opened it, not expecting to see her daughter with her bag at her feet and red eyes.
"What's happened sweetheart?" asked her mother.
"Not much actually" Rose wasn't lying to her mother. "Can I come in?"
"Of course, come in!" exclaimed Jackie, wondering why her daughter was here and without the Doctor. "Rose, tell me what's happened?"
"If you insist" she told her mother as she walked inside the flat.
- DW -
Author's note
Voilà ! ^^ Here's the first chapter of my first story. I really hope I didn't make a lot of mistakes. (Finger's cross). I really tried to not to. Don't worry; you will know what she wrote in the letter. ^^ Anyway, I hope you liked it and reviews are welcome. ^^
