~~BLEACH~~
Rating: T
Title: Mockingbird
Author(s): ObsidianSilversmith and Rob Thomas((Mockingbird))
Date Written: 12 January 2011
Date Published: 12 January 2011
Theme and/or Summary: Mockingbird ~ Rob Thomas
Character(s) and/or Pairing(s): Rangiku X Gin
Word Count: 475
Dedication: My cousin Christopher, because he just woke up and is now eating the pizza at the table with me.
AN:/: I don't own RT, Mockingbird, or Bleach. Or do I? *dodges the federali* NO I DO NOT OWN!
I can't believe it. Here we stand on top of this damned hill. I try not to bend, to sink to my knees, to cry in front of you as the sky opens its throat to take you away from me. When you're gone from sight, I allow myself to scream your name once. Only once. Then I stand and the days begin to pass…
Everybody else smiles with smiles that refuse to fade. Then I remember yours, and that I once asked why you always wore it. Shock colored your beautifully pale skin as your smile widened into your happy one. You told me you just liked to smile. I remember that it made me smile too. You made me smile…
Now you make me quiver with questions of where it all went wrong. Maybe it's because we got lost somewhere and are now stuck in place, frozen in our insecurity. Maybe we just weren't meant for this love.
I remember when we tried everything to make that bird we rescued sing. Life seemed hard enough when the bird beat itself until blood ran stark against white feathers. That was the day we learned that sometimes we aren't meant to be with something.
That was also the day you took my hand and lead me to the field where we met as children. Only, we weren't children any longer. We promised things that now lay shattered along the twining paths of our lives. You promised to give me all of you so that I could be whole again. You made me believe that you would always be there for me, but where the fuck are you now as I cut myself trying to mend the pieces? I can't feel you anymore. I don't want to love someone who leaves. I don't want to love you anymore. I don't want to be in agony as you walk away, and I know that if I look away, you'll be gone. I've tried everything to make you stay, but I'm tired and need to go somewhere.
You're the bird that won't sing and I'm sorry I've kept you caged so long. This time I'll let go before you whither away and are gone from this life forever. This time, I'm letting go.
"Maybe we really never were meant for each other…" I lay down to sleep peacefully for the first time in too long. "Bye Gin…"
