Okay, hi there! Firstly, this story is dedicated to my best friend who I call 'RuRu' (after LuLu, duh) and her birthday is coming up - in 10 days actually, on the 29th of Jan. So this fic will be a series of 11 oneshots focusing on the some key characters in Code Geass's thoughts about Lelouch.
IMPORTANT! The characters in the fic have been told by Nunnally about what Lelouch had actually planned.
So, anyways, enjoy!
Choking back on sobs, she bent her head as her long wavy hairy was swept in front of her eyes, shielding her face like a veil. Her violet eyes were shut tight, but tears still leaked out in a continuous flow all the same. Her small hands clutched the soft material of her white and pink dress as her throat constricted tightly. She opened her mouth to speak, but whatever she had intended to say was lost amongst the loud wails that involuntarily escaped her mouth as a torrent of tears coursed down her pale cheeks. Her hand made no move to wipe away the bitter tears.
Despondence and distress brimmed brightly in her eyes, as salty as the tears that rolled down the side of her face. Sheer sorrow and absolute anguish could be heard in her devastated cries. Anyone who saw or even just heard her would find their hearts going out to her, their sympathies thoroughly evoked. As it so happened, Nunnally Lamperouge was the lone person on the remote and secluded island. If anyone were to see the gentle and benevolent Empress in such an inconsolable state , they would be surely be disheartened. But now Nunnally was not Nunnally vi Britannia - the 100th Empress of the world - but instead just Nunnally Lamperouge, a grief-stricken sister mourning the loss of her older brother.
Nunnally blinked as her hand shot out to stroke the cool, marble surface of the tombstone, wishing that it was something more. But that was all it was - a tombstone, a solid reminder that her dearest brother was gone.
If only, Nunnally thought resentfully, If only I had been a better younger sister! I was so terrible to him just before he... just before he... A fresh new wave of tears spilled forth from Nunnally's eyes. Lelouch, big brother, you used to take such good care of me... If only I had been as understanding as I should have...
Nunnally rested her head on the tombstone as sobs racked her body. It had always been this way for the regular visits Nunnally had made to her brother's grave. Lelouch Lamperouge had been secretly buried on top of a small, grassy hill on an unknown island where Rolo Lamperouge - posing as Lelouch's younger brother - had died saving Lelouch. For every single visit these past few months, Suzaku, the new Zero, had left Nunnally on the tombstone out of her wheelchair - at the Empress's request, of course - and all Nunnally could do was cry. Whatever words she had wanted to say were kept shut in her mind. It was as though a barricade was in between her thoughts and her mouth, blocking her from saying anything.
No, not this time, Nunnally thought. I want Lelouch to know just how much he means to me! And just how sorry I am!
The dark storm clouds that had gathered above her suddenly poured out a waterfall of raindrops, the small droplets cascaded through the air and splashed onto the tombstone and grass.
"L-l-l..." Words died on Nunnally's tongue as she stared at the words on Lelouch's grave through the hazy mist of tears. A thought had suddenly struck her. What if Lelouch hated her? She had turned her back on him, after all. Instead of allowing Lelouch to explain himself, Nunnally had believed that Lelouch really was evil. He wouldn't have told me the truth even if I asked him, a part of Nunnally's brain told her. But I still should have given him the benefit of the doubt!
Miserable, Nunnally continued to weep as she fought for control over her tongue. "L-l-Lelouch...I'm sorry..." Nunnally choked out. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" The rain blurred her vision but she continued saying 'sorry', her voice getting louder with every apology, until her voice reached screaming levels. Her shoulders shook as she continued screaming out 'I'm sorry!' until her voice became hoarse and her shoulders slumped. Nunnally sobbed as she thought, Please, please forgive me, big brother.
Then, Nunnally crumpled to the ground and closed her eyes. Her breathing evened out and her tears stopped flowing.
Blinking, Nunnally opened her eyes and stared at her surroundings. It looked like only a few hours had passed. The rain had stopped, and in its place was a clear, azure-blue sky. A beautifully arched rainbow caught Nunnally's sight and she smiled softly at it. A large, beautiful, white bird swooped elegantly across the sky, gracefully flapping its majestic wings.
The moment Nunnally saw the bird, tears sprang to her eyes but she merely wiped them away. She took it as a sign. Cranes symbolized revival of the spirit and soul. That's right, Nunnally decided. There was a reason Lelouch left the world to be under her - because he thought she was capable. Lelouch's dream of creating a peaceful world for herself was completed. But it was up to her to continue keeping up the peace. Cranes also represent peace. That was something both she and Lelouch had yearned for. It was what Lelouch strove for and finally accomplished - even at the cost of his life.
Nunnally remembered the time when she had learnt how to make origami from Sayako. She had folded a paper crane for Lelouch. She had told him that her wish was for the world to find peace. And Lelouch did remember her wish, and he had set out to fulfill it for her. Nunnally almost wished she had made a different wish back then. Back then, if she'd known that her wish would be fulfilled at the cost of her dearest brother's life, then she would've never made it. She should've told him that what she wanted was to remain together with him.
Please forgive me for my selfishness, Lelouch, Nunnally thought. In the end, you might've done it for the world, not just for my sake. But I can't but feel that this is all my fault. And I can't help but feel selfish. You've done so much to ensure peace and my wish was fulfilled, and yet I want more. Is it wrong to want you by my side again, big brother?
Right... So sorry it's so super short! But I wanted it to be short and bittersweet and emotional. I hope I didn't overdo it though. Please tell me if there's anything wrong with my facts or grammar or spelling or if there are any mistakes in general. Thanks!
Please, if you have any Code Geass characters you would like me to do, please say so! Thanks! PS: this thing will be only 10 pages long, counting down to my friend's birthday. Happy eleven-days-earlier Birthday, RuRu! PPS: Suzaku's would be the last - the grand finale! So if you don't see his in the next few chapters or so, you'll know why.
Constructive critism would be acknowledged and all flames will be fed to Hades. Thanks for your cooperation.
Anyway, have a good day/night!
Latios963
