I wrote this little segment roughly a year ago using the mindset of Xion. I did not really have a clear idea of what to write and just wrote whatever that came to mind. Please R&R
XIV
The dark clouds covered the buildings surrounding me. Rain was dripping down my cloak; the droplets did nothing to cool my thoughts. I was empty. Neither warmth nor coldness flowed through my body. No running emotions of happiness or sadness permeated my soul. I had nothing. The neon signs flashed exuberantly, each giving off a unique color. That is, it would be if color existed in this reality. I was standing in a dying monochrome world; life had lost all meaning here. This world was just like me, no dreams, no hope, no life. Only emptiness filled this barren space. Was it worth it I wonder? Hiding away from my only source of light, shunning away the beams that found its way to me. I cannot feel, I cannot think, nor can I hear my heartbeat. I threw all those components away. Day after day I become nothing more than a shell with a functioning mind. I became a Nobody. For the sake of my light I threw away my life. But for what cause I wonder? Had I gained anything from sending myself to oblivion? Have I obtained any insight towards the world, towards humanity? No, I have not gained anything, not even the slightest recognition of my existence. I lifted the hood, letting the raindrops fall on my face. It was the only way I could imitate the act of grief. I am a being that cannot exist, a being that was never supposed to exist. How longer I continue to impersonate a Somebody? I do not know, but I'm certain about one thing. I am the embodiment of memories, I am the being that holds the secrets to the light, and I am the one giving life to a promise. I am the fourteenth, the forgotten member.
