Under the Mistletoe
The Christmas party at the Horton Town square was the last place that Will really wanted to be tonight. Will shuddered at the thought of having to smile and act like everything is fine, when his world seems so empty without Sonny.
Another fight! Ever since Gabi told him about the baby, it seems like they argue more and more. "Damn it" Will whispered to himself, "it would be so much easier to just tell him the truth." Will turned that idea over and over in his head… His thoughts were everywhere at once. I may lose him for good once he knows, but we aren't really together right now… all this tension of the lie is really tearing us apart. He will be so disappointed… It would solve a lot of problems, I could stand up and be recognized as the father of my baby, I won't have to lie to my child, like I was lied to. I know what that feels like and I don't want that for my child… I also know what being shuffled back and forth feels like, and I don't want that either… maybe though Sonny really does love me, Of Course he loves me, but maybe it is enough to want to help me fight for custody and raise my baby… Besides I don't really want my baby to be raised by Nick, Sometimes the things he says makes me wonder about his acceptance of me, being gay and all, and I sure do not want my child raised like that…..
'Will, time to go, are you ready?" Sami called, interrupting his train of thought.
"Yeah, I guess so." Will said dejectedly
"Will honey, Sonny is going to be there, maybe you could talk to him, try to start repairing whatever is wrong between you guys." Will looked at her with surprise written all over his face. Sami laughed, "I know, I know sometimes I am distracted and all over the place, and Lord knows that I have plenty of problems of my own, but I am never too busy to notice that you are hurting." "So just take my advice and talk to him, whatever is wrong, it is not going to fix itself. "
"Thanks Mom, I really don't know if Sonny would even want to talk to me, but I'm going to try." Will said as he hugged her.
Sonny was on his third shirt, nothing seemed to look right. He wanted to look his best for the Christmas party tonight. Finally he settled on his royal blue button down, it looked great with his black pants and he knew that Will really liked that shirt on him. With that settled, he let his mind wander to Will… I wish that I knew what is really bothering Will. Ever since Gabi showed up here the first night we made love Will has been different. He is on edge all the time, every time I bring it up, he bolts. It is obvious that whatever this secret is, Gabi has him so mixed up in it. Will feels like he has to lie to me and protect her. This last disagreement with Will, was all because he wanted to protect Gabi and be there for her. I think that if someone is truly your friend, they don't ask you to lie and keep secrets from the people that you love, but I didn't mean to be so bossy and seem like I was giving an ultimatum, when I told him that he needed to stay away from her. I have to fix this, I love Will, way too much to let Gabi come between us. This relationship with him is too important to mess up. . I just hope that he still feels the same for me. Sonny looked at the time, Okay here we go, he thought. He grabbed the keys and headed out for the party!
"Hey Will! You made it!" Abigail called as she ran up to give him a hug. "I wasn't sure you and Sonny would be here tonight, I thought maybe you would be having a private celebration for your first Christmas together, as a couple!"
"Um yeah, about that… I am not sure if we are still a couple actually." Will stampered
"What happened, you guys had a fight?" Abigail asked.
"Yeah a pretty big one, and I don't know what is going to happen now." Will sighed.
"Well, I know that it is none of my business but, I know that you love Sonny, and I have never seen you happier than you were the day that you told me that you and Sonny had said I love you to each other." "So what ever happened between you two, I know that you can fix it!" "AND you can start right now… because there he is, right over there and he is looking this way!" Abigail kissed his check and danced back across the square, to Chad!
Will looked up and saw that Sonny was indeed right across the square, talking with his father, Justin.
Wow! Will thought to himself, Sonny looks so good. He is wearing my favorite shirt. Will took a deep breath and started to walk toward Sonny, but before he could make it more than a couple steps he found himself surrounded by his siblings, all talking at once, "Merry Christmas," they were all saying, each one louder than the other. Will laughed and knelt down in between all of them. "Merry Christmas guys! How did you get here?" "We were with Grandma Marlena, silly she brought us!" Johnny said laughing. "Ah I see, well why don't you guys go and wish Mom A Merry Christmas." The Children ran off happily and Will stood up to greet his grandma.
"Hey, Merry Christmas!" he said putting on his best smile. Marlena pulled Will into a hug, and whispered into his ear, "you're not fooling me… If you need to talk I am here…" She let Will go and stepped back. Will stuck his hands into his pockets and shrugged his shoulders, "I'm fine." He said.
Marlena was about to say something else to Will, when Hope walked up and claimed her attention.
Will took advantage of the reprieve and started off again but when he looked up, Sonny was no where to be found. He looked around for a few minutes, and finally he spotted Justin with Adreinne, but Sonny was not with them. He stood there for a moment or two debating if he wanted to go and speak to Justin and Adrienne to see of maybe Sonny was gone, or if he was still around somewhere. Finally he decided if he wants to work things out with Sonny then he has to find him, and now! The longer this goes on, the worse he feels.
He walked over to Justin and Adrienne, "Good evening Mr. & Mrs. Kiriakis." "Hello, Will, How are you doing?" Adrienne smiled. "Well, I would be better if I could find Sonny, it's kind of important." Will said. "I think he went over to speak to Abigail and Chad, but I haven't seen him since. " Justin said," But we will tell him you are looking for him, if we see him." "Yeah, um thanks!" Will said.
Sonny was at the entrance under the archway talking with Abigail and Chad, Trying to pass the time while he waited, he was patiently waiting for Will to have a moment alone. He wanted to talk to Will and fix this, but he really did not want an audience. He was trying to listen and pay attention to Chad as he talked about the success of the coffee shop, and he hoped that he was nodding and adding his mm hm's at the correct places in the conversation, because the truth was that he mostly found his mind wandering to what he was going to say to Will and, what he was hoping that Will was going to say to him.
"Earth to Sonny!" Chad said laughing. Sonny Looked at Chad, "Sorry, man, I just got a lot on my mind tonight." "Yeah, I guessed that, and here he comes right now." Chad said as he pointed to Will who was walking toward them.
"Hi!" Will said as he walked up to them. "Hey!" they all said in unison.
"Chad I'm thirsty, lets go find some hot chocolate!" Abigail said as she grabbed his hand and tugged him with her. "See you guys later" She called. But neither Will nor Sonny responded.
"Hi!" Both Will and Sonny said at the same time. They both stopped and smiled….
"I'm glad you're here!" Will started, Just as Sonny said, "Will I really want…" This time they both laughed.
"Let me go first," Sonny said. Will smiled and nodded.
"Will, I'm sorry about our fight, I had no right to tell you what to do, I know that Gabi is your friend and you two have a history together, and I should never have said anything to you about her. I really want us to put this behind us! Do you think we can do that?" Sonny said, as he looked at Will hopefully.
"I am sorry too, I am sorry that I kept anything from you. I am sorry that I hurt you by lying to you. You are the very best thing in my life and I never want to lose you, ever! Will said quietly.
"I know that you are trying to be a good friend to Gabi, Will, I get it, but I really don't want her to come between us. I don't think I could stand to lose you, either."
They smiled at each other shyly, and Sonny reached out and took Will's hand, he was rubbing his thumb softly over the Will's knuckles.
Suddenly Will's phone buzzed in his pocket. He pulled it out of his pocket with his free hand and opened the text message. It was from Abigail.
"Don't look now, but you two are under the mistletoe!"
Will smiled as he pointed above their heads, and Sonny glanced up to see what he was smiling about. "Shall we?" Sonny said. Will pulled Sonny to him, and wrapped his arms around his boyfriend. He was so happy to be able to call him that again, he just hoped it lasts, after he knows the truth. "I love you, Will." Sonny said as he pressed his lips to Wills. Will pulled him closer and opened his mouth so that Sonny could deepen the kiss. Sonny groaned, he had missed this so much. Both of them wanted the kiss to last forever, both seemed to be trying to make up for the kisses that they had missed while apart.
When the kiss turned from a slow sweet kiss to something more heated and desperate, and Will's fingers were itching to unbutton that blue shirt that he loves so much and help Sonny out of it, along with the rest of his clothes, Will broke the kiss and said "So, do you want to get out of here?"
Sonny smiled at him and said "I sure do, but first let's make each other a promise, Let's promise not to keep any more secret's from each other, Okay?"
Will stood there, shifting from one foot to the other, biting his bottom lip. This is the moment of truth do I tell him about my baby or do I keep the secret….
