April's pov *

[Four years ago November 28th it's my 24th birthday Tate and I go to Rafi's I open the door and turn the lights on all of our friends and family jump out and say]

"Surprise!"

"What's going on?"

"Happy birthday April."[Tate gets down on one knee behind April he says]

"Honey."[April turns around and gasps I grab her left hand and say]"April Nicole Sexton you are my best friend and we've been through a lot together. You make me so happy. I love you. Will you marry me?"

"Yes."[Tate slides the ring on my ring finger and stands up we kiss slowly and passionately Dad says]

"First round is on the house. To April and Tate. May you always have a love old enough to cherish each other and a love young enough to last through the years. I love you."[Noah comes in he says]

"Sorry I'm late. Class ran long."

"It's okay. How's med school going?"

"Good. Classes are hard but I feel good about what I'm doing."

"That's great. Who's this?"

"Hi I'm Sarah Reese. Noah has told me a lot about you. It's great to finally meet you."

"So this is Sarah. Noah has not shut up about you for months. I'm April his big sister. Nice to meet you too. This is my fiancé Tate."

"What? I missed the proposal?"

"I couldn't wait."

"Congratulations."

"Thank you."[Six months later June 13th it's my parents anniversary party I go home Tate isn't here I get dressed and go to the house all of my family and friends are here I don't see Tate I find Noah and ask him]"Have you seen Tate?"

"He had to go on a business trip. He'll be back next week."

"Why didn't he tell me?"

"I don't know. I ran into him at the airport."

"Why were you at the airport?"

"Sarah and I went to Colorado. A little vacation time before we get slammed into our classes again. It was nice."

"Oh that's right. Before I forget here you go."[ I give Noah his invitation to the wedding he smiles and says]

"Of course I'm gonna be there."

"Tate wants you to be his best man."

"That's pretty cool I can't believe Dad is shutting down to let you have the wedding at Rafi's."

"I'm his little girl. Of course he is and it's where he and Mom got married."

"I know you miss her today."

"I'm okay."[I call Tate he doesn't answer I leave a message two months later August 23rd it's my wedding day Erin says]

"You look great."

"Thank you."[my friends walk out Dad comes in he says]

"You look beautiful baby girl. Your mother would be so happy for you and Tate. I love you."

"I love you too Daddy."[we walk down the aisle we get to the altar Tate takes my hands he looks at me and says]

"I'm so sorry but I can't do this anymore."

"Tate what the hell are you doing?"

"I've been cheating on you April and I asked Noah to cover for me. All those business trips I was really going to see my girlfriend."

"We can work through this."

"No we can't. I'm having a baby with her."

"How long have you been seeing her?"

"Two years."

"Oh my god."[Tate leaves I look at Noah and say]"You lied right to my face. How could you do that to me?"

"April I."

"Don't. You lied to me and you helped him cheat on me. You're just as bad as he is. I hate you and I never want to see you again."[I run to the car crying Maggie, Gabby, Erin, Natalie and Sarah are sitting in the truck I ask Sarah]"Did you know that he was cheating on me?"

"I'm sorry?"

"Did you know Tate was cheating?"

"No. I swear. I don't want what Noah did to come between our friendship."

"I don't care if you still see him I just don't want to know about it."

"Okay."[April breaks down crying we go to Maggie's house we stay here all night comforting April who's been throwing up since the wedding she finally stops and says]

"How could he do this to me? I gave him everything and I just got waxed. I guess I should probably take this ring off right?"

"You take it off when you're ready."[the doorbell rings I go over and open the door it's Noah he asks]

"Is April here? I need to talk to her."

"She doesn't want to see you."

"Maggie please."

"Come in."[we go into the living room April looks up she stands up and says]

"WHAT DO YOU WANT NOAH?!"

"Can we talk? Privately?"

"No. Get out!"

"April I'm sorry. Please don't hate me. You're my big sister I need you."

[I slap Noah and say]

"You lied to me and you didn't care about my feelings. I'm not sure how many more times I have to say it but I HATE you Noah and if you want what's best then you will leave me alone. I want you out of my apartment and out of my life. I don't care what you and Sarah do but I don't want to know. Oh and tell your buddy Tate he has three days to get his shit out of my apartment or I'm selling it. Now please leave!"

[April goes upstairs everyone but Sarah follows her she says]

"Noah I care about you and I really like you but if you could lie to your sister so easily then I can't help but wonder if you've been lying to me too. I'm not breaking up with you but I don't trust you right now and trust is everything. I need some space and this doesn't mean that we can see other people. I'm sorry but you have to go."

"Sarah I will do whatever it takes to earn your trust back and I'm so sorry that I ever made you doubt anything about our relationship."

"Are you sorry because you mean it or sorry because you got exposed? You should go."[I kiss Noah's cheek and go in the kitchen he leaves I make martinis the ladies come downstairs Gabby asks]

"Are you okay?"

"I told him I needed some space. I don't trust him right now and I'm not sure if I will again."

"I need to get out of town."

"Where are you going?"

"On my honeymoon alone."[I go to my apartment and get my suitcase and duffel bag I go to the airport and get on a plane to Cabo San Lucas I go to the hotel and stay here for a little over two years February 1st I go back to Chicago and go to the hospital my friends are talking I go over and say]"Anybody miss me?"

"April! You look fantastic."

"Thank you."

"How are you?"

"I'm great. I went to Cabo and oh it was gorgeous. I was numbing the pain with booze and boys. It was a long time before I got over Tate but I did and I thank him for everything he did because I was so blinded by my love for him that I couldn't see the signs. I won't be that naive again. I'm hopeful for whatever life brings."

"You look happy."

"I am. I'm really happy."[Sarah and Noah come in Sarah hugs me and says]

"I'm so glad you're back. I missed you so much. You look fantastic."

"Thank you. I missed you too."

"Hi April. You look great."

"Just because we have the same last name doesn't mean we are friends and as far as I'm concerned this is a work relationship only. I haven't forgotten or forgiven what you did."

"April Dad is here. He's sick and he's dying."

"Maggie is that true?"

"Room 23-40."

[I go upstairs and into his room he looks over and says]

"There's my girl. How was your vacation?"

"Good. Daddy why didn't you call me? I would've come home immediately."

"I wanted you to enjoy yourself darling. You hadn't been on a vacation since we went to Spain for your sixteenth birthday. You needed to let Tate go."

"Is there anything I can do?"

"Make things right with your brother. When I'm gone you're going to need each other. My will is in the top drawer of my nightstand. I want you and Noah to have Rafi's, you'll keep the house and Noah will get the cottage in New Hampshire. Everything is detailed in the will. My lawyer has a copy. I love you so much baby girl."

"I love you too Daddy. Do you wanna see pictures?"

"Of course I do."

[I show Dad the pictures we're talking he has a seizure I yell]

"I need some help in here!"[two nurses rush in along with Conner they start talking I can barely move they leave rushing my father down the hall Conner says]

"I'm gonna do everything I can."

"Okay."[I sit in the waiting room Noah and Sarah come over with Maggie we wait for three hours Conner comes over Noah and I both stand Conner says]

"We did everything we could I tried to restart his heart but he was already gone. I'm very sorry for your loss."

"How did he die exactly?"

"After the seizure your father had a massive stroke which stopped his heart I tried to resuscitate him for two hours but he was gone."

[Noah keeps asking Conner questions I turn him to me and say]

"Daddy is gone Noah. Conner did everything he could do. Daddy is gone."

"No."

"Noah look at me. Daddy is gone. We knew it was coming."[Noah sits on the chair I feel the tears rolling down my cheeks Maggie asks]

"Are you okay?"

"Yea. I'm okay."[I leave and go to my parents house I go in their room and look in the nightstand and find the will I read it Dad wants a memorial service I pack up everything in my parents room and put it in the attic Noah comes in we stay here for a week cleaning the house I'm cleaning out my room I find all the pictures of me and Tate over the years I put them in a box along with all the birthday gifts and little things he gave me. I put the lid on the box and put it in the back of my closet Noah knocks on the door I open it and say]"Yea?"

"I know you are only speaking to me because of Dad and I just want you to know that I am so sorry for hurting you the way I did. April please look at me."

"I have to get dressed for the service."[I close the door and get dressed I put on my black pantsuit with my black boots I go downstairs everyone from the 21st, 51 and Med is here they're all eating I get a cup of coffee Sarah comes over she says]

"April I'm very sorry about your loss. Did anyone in your family come?"

"My parents were only children and my grandparents are all dead. I have no family."

"You have Noah."[April scoffs and says]

"And he helped my ex-fiancé cheat on me. I can't even look at him."

"He's doing great in Med School. We're top of the class. We're graduating in May. It would really mean a lot to him if you came. You are all the other has now. At least think about it. I know you don't care about Noah but I do and you two not talking is breaking his heart."

"I care about Noah."

"Then start acting like it because if you keep pushing him away then he will not be there for you when you really need him. He's too stubborn to admit it but he misses you April."

[after the service we go to the lake and spread some of his ashes we go back to the house Noah is sitting on the porch with Sarah and my friends I sit next to Noah not saying anything he says]

"Can you guys give us a minute?"

"Sure."

"Thanks."[They leave April breaks down crying I wrap my arms around her and hold her while she cries into my shirt she says]

"I can't look at you like I used to and I don't trust you anymore. When Tate told me he had been cheating yea it hurt but more than anything I was devastated at the fact that you lied to me over and over again for him. Do you know how much that hurt. You're my brother Noah and you're the only family I have now. I don't know if I can ever trust you again but I'm going to try."

"I'm so sorry April. I was an idiot and I should've told you the truth about Tate but I didn't want to hurt you. Instead I destroyed you with a lie. I'm sorry."

"How's med school?"

"Okay. I'm top of the class. I'm graduating in May. It would mean a lot to me if you were there."

"Tell you what I will think about it if you can promise me that you won't lie to me anymore. No holding back on anything. Promise?"

"I promise. You're still wearing the ring."

"Can't bring myself to take it off even if it has been two years."

"I heard he's married and they have a daughter now. She's two and he seems like a good father."

"Are you still friends with him?"

"No. I cut off all contact with him after the wedding."

"How's it going with Sarah?"

"We're still not back together but we are working on building the trust back. I know that I hurt her and it's my fault but it's also kind of nice starting over with her. What about you? Are you dating or anything?"

"No. I'm still wearing this stupid ring and men are just trying to sleep together. There's no real connection."

"Come on take this stupid thing off and finally close that chapter. You deserve better than that guy."

"Do you want to go to dinner with me next Friday?"

"I can't. I'm going all over the country starting the application process for my residency. I'll be back in May."

"That's three months."

"Yea. I'm gonna miss you."

"I'm sorry for the things I said when I first found out. I was being a bitch."

"I deserved it."[Tate walks up April says]

"Noah go get Hank."[I slip the ring in my pocket Tate comes over as Noah goes inside I ask]"What are you doing here?"

"I heard about your dad. I'm so sorry for your loss April. I just wanted to stop by and pay my respects."

"Thank you."[Tate gives me a once over he says]

"You look amazing."

"You paid your respects now please go."[I don't notice that everyone comes out of the house Tate says]

"April I was just wondering if you weren't busy maybe we could go to dinner one night."

"Tate I."[he cuts me off kissing me I step back slap him and say]"What the hell is wrong with you?! My father just died! Oh so what you think you can come over and try to comfort me oh but you were just trying to get in my pants. You are a disgusting pig! Does your wife know you are here?! Get the hell off of my property and don't come back!"

"April."

"Get out of my face before I get my gun and we both know I'm a sharp shooter."[Tate lunges like he's about to hit me I kick him in the groin he groans and doubles over on the patio I bend down and say]"I guess you forgot I'm martial arts trained too. Goodbye Tate."[A woman comes over she says]

"Baby let's go. Lucy wants to go to dinner. What the hell did you do to him?"

[I ask Gabby]

"Did he really bring this chick and his kid to my fathers memorial service? He obviously forgot who I am."

"Hello? I'm talking to you!"

"Who are you?"

"Tate's wife. Who the hell are you?"

"I'm his ex fiancée."

"Oh. Look I know how you must feel about me."

"Lady. I have no bad blood with you. Tate cheated on me with you, you're not the one who promised me that he wouldn't hurt me. He did. You can have him cause I surely don't want him. I mine as well warn you now he just tried to get in my pants he kissed me and I kicked him in the balls."

"Wait ex fiancée? He was engaged when we started dating?!"

"Yea. You didn't know?"

"I'm so sorry."

"Honey you have nothing to be sorry for. But could you please get him off of my patio? He's clashing with the furniture. Thanks."[I go in the house and throw up I clean myself up and go into the kitchen I start cooking everyone comes in my friends come over Gabby says]

"Damn. That was so badass."[April sniffles and continues chopping vegetables Maggie asks]

"Honey are you okay?"

"I know this is gonna sound crazy but it took everything in me not to kiss him back. I'm kind of jealous because it was so easy for him to move on. It took me months to find the strength to get out of bed in the morning."

"You know when Barry hurt me I was a mess. I completely shut down and my only friend was food. I gained a lot of weight and it wasn't good. You were the one who stayed with me for months and if it hadn't been for you I would probably still be two hundred and forty five pounds. You never gave up on me and you got me through the pain. Now it's my turn. Whatever you need I'm just a phone call away day or night you know I got you girl."

"Thank you Maggie. How about a girls night next Friday."

"Sounds great. Sarah you coming?"

"I would love to but Noah and I are going around the country starting the application process for residency."

"How's it going between you two?"

"We're starting over and rebuilding the trust. I'm not sure if Noah is as committed as I am but you know he's trying."

"He's committed. If he wasn't then he wouldn't be doing it. He's crazy about you Sarah and Noah just doesn't do things he doesn't believe in."

"So April there's this guy one of Will's friends who wants to go out with you. Will wouldn't stop bugging me about it unless I asked you."

"Okay. Tomorrow at seven. I'll meet him at Molly's."

"Really?"

"Sure why the hell not. What's his name?"

"Ethan Choi. He's in the Army Ranger Battalion. Home on leave and he saw you at the hospital and begged Will to set up the date."

"Is he cute?"

"Very. I think you'll like him."