Walls
Chapter 1
This multi-chapter story follows the evolving relationship of Beca Mitchell and Jesse Swanson as their journey begins at their last ICCA competition and continues beyond graduation. Universal owns all rights of Pitch Perfect…I only own this story.
A/N: This is my first story in years and marks my return to the fanfiction world, so please be kind in your reviews; any ideas and/or criticism are also welcome. Warning: there is quite a bit of smut and language in later chapters so if this isn't your thing…turn away now.
Beca's POV:
I can't believe it. I'm a graduating senior with a goddamn degree in Social Sciences and minor in Music Composition. Who would have ever guessed that I, Beca Mitchell would be a college graduate. Next stop Los Angeles to find work at a reputable record label. My dad says with this degree along with working at the radio station and leading the Bellas should prove to be beneficial in my pursuance as a music producer, but we'll see.
Jesse and I have been together since our freshman year which, has turned out to be a pretty good thing. He's still the same nerd, inflicting his movie obsession on me however, I can't complain too much since our viewings usually end up with us having sex. Still fearing commitment and not having any prior relationships to compare to, I can only say ours seems pretty solid even though I still keep him at a distance due to my insecurities. He's my best friend and lover, yes I said it, who speaks ever so often of his love for me and accepts the fact that I'm incapable of verbalizing my true feelings. I really do love Jesse, but I just can't tell him. I'm such a mess; I'm damaged goods and a by-product of my parent's failed nuptials. I truly believe he deserves better, someone without so many walls, who can love him back like he deserves to be, but unfortunately, I don't believe that person will ever be me.
Being a Barden Bella has become an important aspect of my life. I've grown to love these girls and have enjoyed leading them to countless victories. These women, my closest friends, have helped me focus on my music, and even push me beyond my comfort zone when I didn't think I was capable of. Fat Amy and Stacie in particular have weaseled their way under my skin and continue to offer unlimited amounts of entertainment on a regular basis. Those two really are crazy aca-bitches.
Though I would never admit it my father has given me the life I never thought I'd have. I hated him for so many years for walking out on us, yet with his insistence, he practically forced me to attend this god awful university he teaches at which, I have to say I've grown to love. My step monster on the other hand, I've learned to tolerate however, I will always partially blame Sheila for my parent's divorce. Then there's my mother who I barely hear from who remains so wrapped up in her own little world that she doesn't bother to return my calls or text messages. It hurts but I won't give her the satisfaction of knowing that. As long as my father and I continue to get closer I'm sure that our relationship or lack of will continue to suffer.
Finally, there's Aubrey and Chloe who graduated a few years ago but have always kept in touch. With their dedication and support of the Bellas neither of them has missed a competition to date. Aubrey in her controlling yet compassionate ways has always been there for the girls, me included, and is the epitome of what a Bella woman should be. She's not married, still living in Atlanta, pursuing a career in law and secretly involved with one of her firm's partners. As for Chloe who has remained my closest friend next to Jesse, has settled down in Los Angeles with her husband and have a kid on the way. The Ginger who took a position as a fashion consultant after graduation decided marriage and family was more important than her career and couldn't be happier with her decision.
Lincoln Center - 2015 ICCA Championships
The Barden Bellas arrive backstage and accept their microphones from the stage hand. They look to one another with hopefulness and observe some of their competition from the side. With a good portion of the Bellas graduating this year they also know this will be the last time they'll be together in collegiate competition.
"I love you awesome nerds." Beca smiles as she gathers the girls for a brief pep talk before they take the stage. Some of the Bellas are already teary-eyed knowing this is the end of their a-capella journey but are also excited to be performing before the sold-out audience.
Beca continues her speech, "In the words of Aubrey and Chloe who have traveled so far (pausing with a sigh) I can't believe I'm about to say this but, let's be aca-awesome tonight and show the world what being a Barden Bella is all about."
Fat Amy adds in her usual sentiment, "Oh…let's just smash this." …and places her hand on the Bella captain's shoulder. The girls chuckle, form a circle and stack their hands on top of one another. "On three, ONE…TWO…AHH!"
The Bella leader smiles at her group then moves away into the direction of the Treblemaker's leader who just so happens to be her boyfriend who is also finishing up his own pep talk with his guys. "ONE…TWO…THREE…SWAG!"
Jesse moves away from his Trebles and takes Beca into his arms. He fondly looks down into her beautiful blue orbs, lifts her chin and plants a soft kiss on her lips. "You nervous?"
"Not at all, we've got this" a small grin leaves her lips as she kisses him back.
"I can't believe this is it. After tonight we're done, no more ICCA's."
"I know…right, it's so strange but we all knew it was inevitable. Next stop graduation. What will you do with yourself Mr. Swanson?"
"I have no clue; get a job somewhere, go for my Masters, move to L.A…who knows, and you?"
She takes a deep breath. "Don't wanna think about that right now. The girls and I have been rehearsing this number for months and think it's the best set yet, we just hope the judges agree."
"You've always been so critical Beca. You're so talented and your mixes are incredible, you have nothing to worry about." He pauses. "Good luck weirdo…I hope you win".
Beca's competitive streak has always been one of her biggest downfalls. Jesse on the other hand just enjoys performing with his friends and watching the woman of his dreams sing with that angelic voice of hers. He's always been her nerd but he was also a gentleman who always put Beca's needs before his own. She's always wondered how an incredible guy like him could be involved with such a badass competitive bitch like her.
Taken back by his sentiment, Beca is suddenly compelled to declare her love for him but is stopped by the fear and doubt that's plagued her since their freshman year. Instead she takes his face in between her hands and places a small peck on his soft lips, "this is why I keep you around nerd…I'll see you later…good luck". She returns to her girls leaving a grinning Jesse.
The Bellas take the stage and put on the performance of a lifetime followed by another incredible set by the Trebles. After all groups have performed, the winners are announced and to no surprise the reigning champions have claimed victory once again. The girls return to the stage, claim their award and are surrounded by media of all sorts who are destined to exploit their Cinderella story.
Lincoln Center - Lobby
Later that evening after all interviews and photo sessions have finished and their families have left, Jesse is the first to meet up with his girlfriend. With his hands at her hips he effortlessly picks her up, spins her around then brings her down into a searing kiss.
"Dude what are you doing? Put me down!" Looking around, responding with slight embarrassment.
"Sorry Becs, I'm just really happy for you. You girls were amazing. I love you so much."
Wishing she could return his words, Beca smiles looks at him and remains quiet. She does however allow herself to give in to the moment and wraps her arms around his neck kissing him back as he continues to embrace her, both oblivious to the forming crowds around them.
"All right you two...get a room." Fat Amy jokes while the rest of the Bellas snicker and nod in agreement.
The couple reluctantly moves apart chuckling at the Aussie's comments.
"Have you been Treble-boned Beca?" a familiar voice asks.
"Well if it isn't the infamous Aubrey Posen…and YES by the way." Beca almost too proudly responds while Jesse innocently looks away.
Aubrey grabs the smaller girl into a bear hug and continues to congratulate the girls on their well deserved win.
"I can't believe you're the same Alt-Girl I met on campus four years ago. God…you were such a pain in my ass." Oozing of sarcasm, she pauses. "Well I can honestly say for once I'm glad I was wrong and listened to Chloe. Because of you the Bellas have left their mark on the a-capella world and I can't thank you enough for making it happen."
Beca is taken back by her former captain's gracious words.
"Thank you, that really means a lot to me and I'm so glad you were here to see it. You know I only finished what you and Chloe started. If it wasn't for you guys none of us would be here today. Speaking of Chloe, where is that Ginger?" Both girls look around and spot the redhead across the room trying desperately to make her way over.
"I'm over here…excuse me…pardon me…I'm coming…here I am". Beca laughs at her closest friend as she waddles over.
A very pregnant Chloe finally reaches them and pulls Beca into a smashing hug. "Sorry guys but I just couldn't hold it in any longer. When Mother Nature calls you NEVER argue with that bitch."
The girls giggle and continue to hug one another enjoying their brief reunion. By this time Chloe's husband Josh (aka shower boy) takes his place next to her and offers his congratulations to the group. Jesse and Beca are also joined by the rest of the Trebles who have made a unanimous decision to continue the celebration back to their hotel.
Trump International – Bar
The Bellas and Trebles are seated at a few tables with several drinks being dropped off; the sound of clinking glasses and laughter could be heard throughout the establishment.
Nursing a glass of ice water Chloe places her drink on the table and stands up with the help from Josh who also brings Beca to her feet. She motions for the short brunette girl to meet her outside in the lobby.
Trump International - Lobby
"I haven't had the chance to talk to you since arriving and wanted to get you in private." She winks at her friend who is now expressing emotions somewhere between concern and confusion. "Oh don't worry, there's nothing wrong." rubbing her belly. "I just wanted to know how you were. You look happy but I want to hear it from you. How are you Beca Mitchell?"
Relieved that nothing is wrong, Beca' gives her friend a small smile, bites down on her lower lip and lowers her eyes. Not missing a beat the red-head continues her inquisition. "Look at you Beca, all grown up and in a long-term relationship. How are you guys? " Beca quickly responds "Good…we're good, in fact we're better than good."
Chloe not convinced the Bella captain is telling her the truth, continues to hound her. "That sounds just great Beca; you guys are like the ultimate aca-power couple. So tell me about Jesse, have you discussed any plans after graduation? Do I hear any wedding bells? "
Beca exhales deeply and is unsure of how to respond. "That's still a few months away."
The redhead digs deeper "Hey…I see the way he looks at you and it's obvious he's completely in love. Don't you feel the same?"
Beca's expression turns into sadness and is unable to make eye contact. Chloe acknowledges her friend's discomfort and makes a revelation. "You do love him. Does he know?"
"Can we talk about something else?" Beca is still unable to look her friend in the eye and continues to focus on the marble floors.
"I don't think so. Look at me Beca, what's going on with you?" Chloe lifts her chin and looks into her watering eyes.
After a long pause the darker haired girl starts to speak. "Is it that obvious?"
The red-head gives her friend a look of concern. "It is to me because I've never seen you smile this much. Talk to me Beca, what's wrong?"
Beca looks at her friend and takes a deep breath. "It's not that easy for me Chloe."
"I know it's not but you're not a child anymore. You're a grown woman and need to start acting like one. What's holding you back?"
Beca shoots a glare at Chloe for pulling her covers; she hesitates then finally begins to speak.
"After seeing what my parents went through I didn't think I was capable of loving anyone, but Jesse, he's so kind and makes me feel so special. I honestly don't know what I did to deserve him. Sometimes I think he's too good for me and will come to his senses one day and realize he deserves better. He does you know. Next to you he's my best friend but I'm so afraid of being too dependent on him or anyone. It scares me so much to think he could leave me like my father left us. That's why I haven't told him…I can't. I don't know Chloe, I enjoy being with him but I just don't see a future for us."
Chloe's disappointment is apparent in Beca's confession and sees tears escaping her eyes. She motions for her friend to sit with her on a couch and takes her hand.
"Oh Beca, you can't honestly believe that. You're so much more than you know and you and Jesse are not your parents. That boy worships you and isn't going anywhere."
Chloe continues. "You probably don't know this but you have single-handedly changed the lives of all of us and we love you for the special person you are. If anyone deserves happiness it's you Beca. You need to take that leap of faith and tell him how you feel and love each other the way you should. Trust me when I tell you this, it will make the world of difference to finally open your heart and be honest with your soul mate."
With another tear escaping Beca's eye she continues. "You really think so?" Chloe smiles and continues. "I know so and it's what happened with me and Josh. Let that wall down Beca and give into your feelings, you won't regret it."
Beca wipes her eyes, smiles to her friend and takes a deep breath. "Ok...I'll do it…I'll talk to him tonight."
Chloe gives her a hopeful look and wipes a tear trailing down the brunette's cheek. After a few minutes the red-head brings up another topic.
"Ok now on to lighter matters. The other reason I wanted to get you alone (winking)." Beca interrupts, "I'm not taking another shower with you red. Once was quite enough." Both girls laugh at the distant memory as Chloe continues, "My unborn daughter has made a personal request and wants you and Jesse to be her god parents."
A surprised Beca blinks rapidly in disbelief.
"Seriously? Oh my god…YES of course, I can't wait to tell Jesse." pausing, "I really do miss you Chloe, you've always been there for me and one day I'll return the favor after I move to L.A. Thank you."
Beca turns away as more tears run down her cheek. "Damn waterworks…I never used to cry…what the hell have you girls done to me? I've become soft…Damn it!"
"You just thought you were all badass but I always knew better especially when you finally let me in." Beca rolls her eyes at her. "Yah…right, like I had any other choice, just don't tell anyone else, ok?"
Years ago after Aubrey turned over the pitch-pipe to the petite girl Chloe who had always worn her heart on her sleeve practically forced the new Bella leader to open up about her feelings for Jesse. "Fuck the oath and go after him!" were her exact words. It was this revelation that sparked the idea of creating a set to win back the heart of her best friend. "It'll work Beca, he'll come around. Jesse isn't like the rest of them." After hours of remixing various tracks representing different genres and decades, the Don't You Forget About Me set was born which would forever change the face of a-capella and be the first of many walls to come crumbling down in Beca's quest of her first ever relationship.
They rise from their seats, hug once more then rejoin their friends in the bar.
Trump International - Bar
Jesse observes the two girls as they re-enter the bar and notices Beca as she inconspicuously tries to wipe away any reminisce of tears from her swollen eyes. He stands up, approaches her and reaches out to touch his girlfriend's cheek. "Hey… are you ok?" Beca looks into his warm brown eyes, puts her hand over his hand and whispers in his ear, "Can we go somewhere to talk?" Nervous but full of concern, Jesse who has never seen Beca cry, looks into her watering eyes and sees the urgency. "Ok…let's go upstairs." She nods in agreement and waves goodbye to her friends. Chloe gives her friend a look of encouragement and yells, "Oh…hey…meet down here for breakfast at 10 AM." Jesse acknowledges her with a slight nod and guides his girlfriend to the elevator.
"Where the hell are they going?" asks a confused Fat Amy.
Stacie winks, "Do you really need it spelled out?" as she continues to lock lips with Donald. Aubrey sighs and adds, "More Treble-boning for sure". They all snicker until Chloe interrupts them, "Hey guys…they're in love." as stacks of napkins go flying in her direction. "You're such a sap Ginger." Amy adds and motions toward Benji, "Come on Treble…show me some more of your magic…tricks." Benji is abruptly pulled up by his shirt and dragged outside the bar by the Aussie.
"Wow…didn't see that coming" says Chloe. "I think I'm going to be sick" adds Aubrey as she covers her mouth and runs for the nearest bathroom. The remaining friends laugh hysterically at the spectacle.
