MaLoRa doesn't belong to me.
Note: Imagine Kakusei Loki for this fic.
The end of this chapter
His hands flip though the pages, the book was unoped until a couple of seconds ago. He never noticed when he started brushing his fingers over the yellowish paper, his eyes, unfocused, don't read the words, his hands, cold, don't feel the texture.
He'd meant to think about something. He'd really wanted that.
He believes he had figured everything out- after all, it isn't so complicated. People just come and go, because humanity is imperfect. He used to believe imperfect made beautiful. But not anymore. Imperfect makes everything so... temporal. Like a wilting rose, gorgeous in its velvet wrapping and alluring in scent as it's alive, and then... the petals wrinkle and blacken and the rose is dead, and it's imperfect, and certainly not beautiful.
Beauty, he's just discovered, doesn't exist. Happiness neither.
But inside he knows it's his fault to have believed in beauty... because it was never there and he should've seen it, but he didn't because he'd believed it was there. Maybe beauty isn't the word he needs. Maybe the word is love.
The book has very nice illustrations, and if he were paying attention, they'd be retelling the story he isn't reading. He used to think it was impossible to look at something written and not understand it, but as he looks vaguely at the printed words, they give back a blank stare.
He used to think so many things... For example, he used to think there was a way out of everything. But now as the mute book encloses a secret he's indifferent towards, and the pale sunset light sings in silence a song without lyrics, he knows that he, just as anyone else, can be wrong.
And he closes the book. He's made it to the end of the chapter.
(Just in case: Mayura's just died, and Loki's devastated.)
This is a catharsis for something that's just happened to me. Don't mind the gothness, it's my mood right now... Based on some Sonata Arctica songs (Unopened- The ruins of my life - Sing in silence- The end of this chapter.) I'd appreciate reviews.
