playing Roulette in the fullmoonlight

I have a problem that I cannot explain
I have no reasons why it should have been so plain,

Roxas was starring at his hands. Why was this happening to him? Why could he just hate Saix? No he was loving him, loving every moment, every rape...

Have no questions but I sure have excuse

He was alone, Demyx was with Axel and Zexion was with Lexareus, only he was alone, he knew that. But he could stand that couldn´t he? He wouldn´t have to be with Saix just because he was the other loner in this organization.

I lack the reason why I should be so confused, I know, how I feel when I'm around you,
I don't know, how I feel when I'm around you, Around you

That was it. He didn´t want to be alone, now his sick mind gave him the feeling like he love Saix, only his instincts... or? No his survival instincs would save him from this violent rapist. Does a nobody got instincs? He would have to ask Vexen this sometime soon. Maybe now, but he was to depressed to get up and search for the chilly academic.


Left a message but it ain't a bit of use,
I have the pictures, the wild might be the deuce,
Today you called, you saw me, you explained,
Playing the show and running down the plane,

And in each case how high was the percentage Saix answered his love? Zero? It seemed as like. And he couldn´t really confess it to him? No Saix would laugh and beat him up like he always did. Roxas knew that. He broke down in tears, his situation was senseless. So senseless.

I know, how I feel when I'm around you,
I don't know, how I feel when I'm around you,

„Why are you crying, brat? Did your little friends betray you? Oh poor kid." Saix had appeart out of the darkness teasing Roxas like always and like always his laugh lacked the mockery it should show, like he would deny something.


I know, how I feel when I'm around you,
I don't know, how I feel when I'm around you, around you

Roxas looked up, meeting the bluehaired´s glance with great interest. What was he going to do? The beserk was hard to understand, Xemnas was the only one who knew a at least a little about him. Roxas again wished he could help Saix, mend his pain. Or whatelse but pain could turn such a gentle man in a violent rapist? Of course if Axel lyed to him about Saix past, Roxas´ calculations would be senseless.

I know, how I feel when I'm around you,
I don't know, how I feel when I'm around you,

„You look fuckable when you´re crying, ashame you don´t cry when I rape you. Maybe I should be a little rougher. Hm?" Saix laughed again as Roxas blushed. Roxas always blushed no matter what Saix said, it was depressing as well as pathetic.


I know, how I feel when I'm around you,
I don't know, how I feel when I'm around you,

„It´s a fullmoon night..." Saix eyes flashed yellow as he talked. „So let´s beginn playing! I can´t wait to taste your tears tonight!" Saix drew his claymore and attacked Roxas. Roxas was suprised and could not do much to fight the beserk in a full moon night either, but at sign of rebellion he didn´t cry. His body was overhelmt by sensation, so how should he have been able to cry just a single tear?
Around you, Around you, Around you...

-- Author note

This something I made out of boredom. It belongs to my storyx moonlight. It´s a side kick, as said I was bored...