A songfic because I feel like it and I had a bad day and I have no clue how to continue my other story... sooo it is based on the song „skin and bones" by Marianas Trench.
Disclaimer: I do not own the Mortal Instruments nor do I own the lyrics of the song above and in the story.
Maybe I made grammar mistakes. Correct me if you want.
I lock the door
Turn on the water
and bury that sound
So no one hears anything anymore
I locked the door behind me as I stepped into my little bathroom. I turned on the faucet so it sounds like I was washing my hands or something.
Mirror lie to me, tell me you can see
Maybe you won't be able to recognize me now
I know you can feel, all the things you steal
And you're taking, and you're taking it
I looked into the mirror expecting to see myself but I didn't. I can't recognize me anymore. He took everything. Everything of me. My blue eyes, ones full of life, turned dull. There's nothing left of me.
Feeling so easy
Make me skin and bones
I'm always on my knees for you
You break like it's even
When you're leaving it
Thin, Where the hell have you been?
I'm thin. I hadn't eaten for a while. I begged. I begged him to stay but he left me. Forever. It seems like he doesn't even care. Like he forgot me the instant he left. Like I meant nothing to him. I feel nothing anymore.
Well sometimes it burns
maybe I'll wash it out
It all look so big
Nevermind, I don't feel anything
I take a knife to proof myself that I'm still alive. That there is something to kill. I don't mean my soul. He already killed it. Crimson red ran down my arm. It just sting a bit. Nothing I'm not used to. I hold it under the faucet to clean the wound. It looks like I cut a little deep this time. Maybe this time I die.
It only hurt a bit
I still feel like shit
Nothing, you won't be able to recognize me now
It's easier to quit
Harder to admit and
You're pushing me, you're fucking pushing me!
I hope I die. It's hard to think of the fact that it's all my fold. I hope I die and end all this.
Feeling so easy
Make me skin and bones
I'm always on my knees for you
You break like it's even
When you're leaving it
Thin, Where the hell have you been?
I fall to my knees. I don't make any effort to stand up. Maybe this is the end.
Cause you always win
and You always win
Isn't this what you wanted?
Laughin' like it works
Bleeding like it don't hurt
Knock you off your feet
Even if you need me
Tearing you apart, and I hate how I need you
I always put a mask on while speaking with my sister or my brother. Never letting them know. Pretending everything is okay. Now I'm leaving. I hope you need me because then I'm not going to be there for you. I make you feel the same as me. I hope you die.
Feeling so easy make me skin and bones
I'm always on my knees for you
Break like its even
When you're leaving it
too fucking easy make me skin and bones
I'm always on my knees for you
Break like it's even
When you're leaving it
Thin, where the hell have you been?
I take the knife again. This time I don't cut my arm but my throat. I hope this is the end. Isn't that what you wanted? I hope it breaks you.
And you always win.
And you always win.
All I see is crimson. Then the door opens.
„Alec!" Izzy kneels beside me. „Alec, please!" she cry.
„Goodbye" I whisper and close my eyes.
„No! Alec!"
I will burn all this.
I will burn all this.
That's it. Hope you like. :)
