Shit. Goddamn shit, fucking Malik Ishtar. Fucking up everything, as usual. Didn't trust me to win the duel, didn't fucking trust me to beat Yuugi Mutou and that damn Spirit of the Millenium Puzzle. Can't believe him. Putting my life in danger, for what? I don't even fucking know! Just got to kill this dumbass teenager, no questions asked. Risking my goddamn life, risking Ryou's life, giving Ryou up to the Pharaoh like a fucking offering, all so we could win some stupid ass card game? He would've done it, too, I saw it in his eyes! His little host held him back, but the bloodthirsty Pharaoh only cares about winning. I can't fucking stand these idiots and their goddamn power plays.

Ryou. God, Ryou. So small. So brave. He had no idea. When Malik switched us and woke him up, I felt how scared he was, and how hurt. His arm. Didn't think it would hurt him so much. I wouldn't have minded the pain. Want to take the pain away from you, lightness. You're so small, just a little thing. So pale and fragile.

Where is the nurse? There's some brunette whore sitting here, but she isn't doing anything. Can't you see Ryou's cold, bitch? Pull the blankets up! Do I have to do everything my goddamn self?! Well, I can't. I wish I fucking could, but I can't! Can't switch with him for some reason.

Really wish I could switch with him. Ryou. Doesn't deserve to hurt this way. I can feel him hurting. He needs help. Wish I could help him. Want to help him somehow. Want to take away what he is feeling.

Can't believe Malik would do that to us! Exposing Ryou like that, exposing my host! This host is important to me! We're not tools that dick can just use however he wants! When I defeat the Pharaoh, assemble the God Cards, and steal the other Millennium Items, I'll be the dick who uses people whenever he wants! I'll be unstoppable! I am unstoppable now! My Occult Strategy was flawless, and I could've found something to do if Malik hadn't been fucking popping into my skull and being an asshole the entire time! Completely threw me off. Thinks he's so fucking great, well he isn't!

Ryou is who is great here. Ryou puts up with me and Malik, not like he has a choice, but still. He could be worse about it. So kind and gentle. Just a harmless little thing. Doesn't deserve what Malik does to us. What I do to us. Why do I do this to us?

Because I can't help it. I do what I do because I am who I am. Ryou puts up with me, Ryou doesn't want any of this, but still I force him to. And I'm going to have to keep forcing him to. I need to. I just hope he can hold up. I meant what I said back there. I'm fond of this host.